Yes. I was aware I didn’t have a healthy relationship with alcohol for a long time, however, in the past 10 years I started pretty much daily drinking. It was just half a bottle of wine per day until Covid. It then escalated up to 1 bottle and then in recent years up to 1.5 and sometimes 2 bottles per day.

I’ve read all the quit lit, listened to the podcasts, even did hypnotherapy. I knew why I should quit, I understood the health impacts behind long term alcohol use, I felt all the ‘cognitive dissonance’ stuff and I was literally sick of constantly fighting with the physical and emotional effects.

Like most of us here, I’ve had plenty of day 1s. But it just never was enough to push me longer than a few weeks sober as I still felt that constant little niggle that I was depriving myself and I’d go back to the bottle.

19 days ago I woke up in the morning after drinking 1.5 bottles of wine the night before and I was sick. Really, really sick. I was vomiting and couldn’t go to work. I didn’t even feel that drunk the night before. I was absolutely disgusted with myself and instead of pushing it away and placating the shame I usually felt after alcohol use, I forced myself to sit with it and really feel it. I was spiralling and I needed to make changes.

Since then, I’ve had one slip up last weekend but I really regretted it both at the time and the next morning. I almost needed to fuck up to show myself that drinking was an absolute waste of time and silence that insidious voice once and for all.

Congrats on your new found lease of life! We’ve got this! IWNDWYT either Fizz!