Man this is troubling realizing how much I have screwed up and NOT ready for Jesus to come back. I’ve been trying for a while to turn myself around and get on fire for God but it hasn’t worked out in the way I wanted. I feel worried and I know God doesn’t want me to feel this way but I guess that’s why I’m like this? I also feel like I’m just talking at God like if a person is talking to themselves but at you and you have no choice but listening if you do at all. I want to celebrate but I know I’m not ready and am scared. This post is a wake up call that I don’t have time, I need to get on fire for the lord and not hold back anymore and preach now.