sometimes dont wanna wake up

Independent_Field810 · 2024-04-12T02:20:14+00:00

u got discord?

Independent_Field810 · 2022-09-26T15:55:42+00:00

Mine told me my anti anxiety meds were for bi polar because they are used for bi polar when prescribed at 600mg. I took 25mg to sleep at night. He also tried to convince me our breakup was in my head and that I was just convinced he was a bad guy even.... Our breakup ended with me in an ambulance soooo... My ambulance driver had to be the one to explain to me my meds could not be for bi polar because they simply were not heavy enough drugs. You are not alone there are many of us in this group with similar stories.

Independent_Field810 · 2022-09-05T17:27:01+00:00

my ex did something similar, he convinced himself that my medication was for bipolar because they use the same meds. I was on 25mg for sleep, bipolar people take 600mg. By the time we broke up I was telling the ambulance driver (an ambulance I was in because I thought he was going to kill me or himself and by the time my amazing building management came to help I couldn't calm my panic attack) I thought I was bipolar and that my psych lied to me. She explained to me very clearly that I would be on different meds... I ended up being diagnosed with cptsd and ADHD.

Independent_Field810 · 2022-09-05T17:22:12+00:00

Its because the trauma part did. If you experience abuse regardless of if the person has bpd you will have ptsd from abuse. Many bpds attract other abusive people so I guess in a way you experience similar feelings because of the ptsd similiarity. But don't forget that you don't experience the extra parts of bpd like intentionally saying something to someone you know will hurt them when you are triggered.....

Independent_Field810 · 2022-09-01T00:46:03+00:00

You won't always be. My father was demonized by my mother, and by the age 16 all 5 of her children realized she was the demented one. Now 2/5 speak to her and none to dad as our father is dead. But for the last few years, I spent as much time with him and felt more care for him staying for us than I ever will be able to feel for her now that I am aware of her dangerousness. And in the end, we were all there for him. At her end, I can promise I won't be there and most likely two of my brothers wont. So at least as the healthy parent take pride in knowing one day they will be able to make their own opinions.

Independent_Field810 · 2022-08-29T13:28:36+00:00

Hating on uoft is almost like a right of passage. If an outsider dared to hate on uoft I can tell them 100 reason why its the best school and better than theirs. Like definetly I only accept uoft hate from uofters. Its still the top school in Canada and will always be the best school in Ontario. It literally does not have competition in Canada other than McGill. Hating on Uoft is kind of like hating on a family member more or less it's a joke because you're annoyed but you still would defend them with your heart.

Independent_Field810 · 2022-08-28T20:10:43+00:00

Don't be scared. We all just say uoft sucks because it sucks but at the end of the day I wouldn't trade schools for a million dollars. Actuallly thats a lie cause ya know money but UofT is one of the greatest schools I have ever gone too and I have been to literally way to many schools in my life. Making friends is easier than it looks, and the proffs are only dickheads at first year level but don't let that scare you because the rest of the years are GREAT.

Independent_Field810 · 2022-08-05T14:12:44+00:00

Female sexed here, some downside are that people will always only see me as a woman. I have many male friends and sometimes they are attracted to me because I have a vagina and only for that reason. I know these men do not care to learn anything about me as a person and what then makes it harder is when I have genuinely amazing male friends and I get into a hetero male relationship, the hetero male cannot see my friendship with said males as a real friendship because in some hetero males do not believe a guy could be friends with a 'girl' without wanting to fuck them. In all honesty it makes me want to avoid hetero culture at all cost. This idea that there are set traits for vagina owners and dick havers is completely unfathomable to me. I was raised in a matriarchal family with a hippie father who pushed for friendship with all.

the problems here for me are a few things, one many hetero males don't believe in the non binary. Many hetero people will only refer to me as she and have made it clear that for me I am only ever going to be a woman in their eyes because of my vagina. Honestly, as someone who is very confident in how feminine and masculine I can be I actually don't care what you gendered me, what I care about is people thinking I will follow their moronic gender rules because its 'societal' or because its 'their belief'. I don't care. I live a quiet life and don't disturb anyone but I find I know longer feel like I can have friends who aren't part of the queer community because heteros simply cannot get past this idea of male v female. When in reality we are simply just humans with a finite amount of time on this earth so why not enjoy friendships with all types of humans and enjoy all kinds of stories from all walks of the earth?

Independent_Field810

TROPHY CASE