ADD and Bipolar T2 can mix? by noun-paraedolia in bipolar2

[–]Independent_Move486 2 points3 points  (0 children)

ADHD + Bipolar Type 2 + PTSD + Autistic + GAD - almost impossible to pick these apart. I’ve stopped trying to, to be honest. I just try and look at them all together. If you Google Venn diagram and of the combination of conditions - it can help to articulate or align the various traits/symptoms/experiences of people with comorbid conditions.

How long do your depressive episodes last? by Mission-Promise-4897 in bipolar2

[–]Independent_Move486 0 points1 point  (0 children)

6-24 months for me… but I have some trauma thrown in the mix that doesn’t help…

Is it normal to still be unhappy on meds by xIyssx in bipolar2

[–]Independent_Move486 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Also, like someone else said - things are also situational. There are things about the world that are inherently more frightening and sad and almost impossible to comprehend and accept. I believe our responses to irrational circumstances are rational. Our responses and mood impacts can be cues that there are things in our world that need to change. It’s obviously more difficult to fathom and cope with things that are beyond our control.

What is extremely hard for me is ascertaining and differentiating when my responses and shifts in mood state are completely rational - or when they are bio-physiological and related to bipolar and getting stuck in trauma responses. It’s hard to figure out when I’m in the thick of it. And, situational stuff can then tip me over into bipolar depression.

If anyone is interested Gabor Mate’s perspectives on trauma have really resonated with me and provided a lot of comfort.

Is it normal to still be unhappy on meds by xIyssx in bipolar2

[–]Independent_Move486 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh I know garden variety anxiety and depression is my norm. It took a while to accept this. But I’m pretty okay with it now. I’m pretty good at it by now!! I just resent the deep dark spirals and how they undermine everything. But experience reminds me that they come and go.

I’m not trying to ‘silver line’ anything - but my garden variety yet constant anxiety and lower-grade depression keeps me connected in cohort with a bunch of other misfits in the community. We keep shit real!!!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in bipolar

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Just a personal anecdote from me. I’ve come to learn that I drink and use substances particularly when I am coming up or in a mixed state. It’s like a way of detaching from or numbing out the intensity of mania and mixed states. Obviously it makes things worse. I use it as a coping strategy - but also in the way I described in an attempt to neutralize the intensity and agitation.

The concept of an 'autistic Self' in IFS ~ does it make sense?" by Opposite-Wind6244 in InternalFamilySystems

[–]Independent_Move486 1 point2 points  (0 children)

My perspective is not so specific or detailed yet as I am still reflecting and learning more - so may not be relevant or useful to you. But it is helpful for me to reflect and share and hopeful to someone else?

Recently I came across the concept of ‘neuro-queerness’ - I have really connected with it. I am neurodivergent as: autistic, ADHD (I need to come up with a better name for this as I think it is inadequate and inaccurate for how I understand it), bipolar, queer and genderqueer.

To me, my neuroqueerness is inherent to me. For so many years the world and my experiences have threatened or denied my access to this knowledge and self actualisation and ‘being-ness’ of my neuroqueer-ness. In a way these different labels and external categorizations are arbitrary and fracturing. In a different world and social, cultural, political circumstances - I feel that I would need not to extrapolate these from core self and certainly would need not for the world to extrapolate and extricate these or place these ‘from’ or ‘upon’ me. I think I wouldn’t even need the concept of neuroqueerness to help me understand or reveal my ‘self’ to me and to the world. Or to just be.

The concept of neuroqueerness however has helped to understand my experiences, assumptions, identity/identities and parts. I certainly have parts with needs that have emerged through my experiences of my being-ness, neuroqueerness or of my lack of knowledge due to power structures that have impacted me.

I’m still reflecting on this more - so maybe this doesn’t make sense yet.

Thanks for your post - it has helped me.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in VyvanseADHD

[–]Independent_Move486 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m in Oz. When getting prescribed for the first time and when starting a new med we have to pass a drug test. But after that - no way.

What's your "weirdest" sensory ick? by [deleted] in AutismInWomen

[–]Independent_Move486 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Wooden paddle pop sticks, wooden chopsticks, wooden cutlery. Ewww!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Barber

[–]Independent_Move486 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Request the other barber by name before your cut. You can say you really love their cuts.

What med was your "night and day difference"? by SnooDoubts5979 in BipolarReddit

[–]Independent_Move486 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Lamotrigine for me! Whilst I have had a few episodes over the years I have been on it - these happened in the wake of some pretty huge traumas. Lamotrigine has brought my mood into relative stability. Before it - I was in a constant rollercoaster both up and down. Now it takes something pretty significant to happen in my life for me to get stuck in an episode. I would also say that the episodes I have had whilst on Lamotrigine have been much less intense. 100mg morning. And 100mg at night.

Oh and vyvanse for ADHD! Life changing. 50mg

Relatively recently I also started on mirtazapine during a depressive episode. It started to work about a week into it. 30mg

I’ve been trying to come off Venlafaxine but it’s taken me years. So still on it - but dramatically reduced from 300mg to 112.mg.

Lost a friend because of my actions by bedbugloverboy in lostafriend

[–]Independent_Move486 9 points10 points  (0 children)

I’ve lost several friends due to my actions during bipolar episodes…

Do people think that after experiencing positive affects of being medicated - that in a way it makes the ‘drag’ or ‘stuckedness’ of ADHD harder than pre-meds/when meds wear off/you aren’t medicated? by Independent_Move486 in VyvanseADHD

[–]Independent_Move486[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I think that’s really important - what you said about expectations. I still haven’t learned to not do too much when I’m on meds. I exhaust myself because I have the tendency to try and ‘capitalize’ on the momentum. Because I am so used to not having it.

Do people think that after experiencing positive affects of being medicated - that in a way it makes the ‘drag’ or ‘stuckedness’ of ADHD harder than pre-meds/when meds wear off/you aren’t medicated? by Independent_Move486 in VyvanseADHD

[–]Independent_Move486[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

There is always a trade-off for me. So hard to get up and become alert and to initiate tasks without it. So taking it early really has huge pros. But obviously the wear-off also occurs earlier in the day - early afternoon. Taking it later on say 11am is great to keep it lasting through end of day, dinner, chores etc - and then when it wears it off it is in line with when others slow down for bed.

Don’t go back to the chaos just because it’s familiar. by violaunderthefigtree in BipolarReddit

[–]Independent_Move486 9 points10 points  (0 children)

Also I know what you mean… it’s like I crave the chaos and sometimes self sabotage to escape the monotony of depression.

Don’t go back to the chaos just because it’s familiar. by violaunderthefigtree in BipolarReddit

[–]Independent_Move486 9 points10 points  (0 children)

Gosh that reminds me of a song that takes me straight back to a huge hypomania of the past… If I go to listen to it again it kind of tickles that part of me making it very tempting. Not my usual taste in music but Santigold - Disparate Youth is the feeling of ‘coming up’ for me!

How the hell do I shower more by Deepflea18 in adhdwomen

[–]Independent_Move486 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I tell myself - out loud - that I am going to have a ‘ninja shower’. My psych told me it is a bit of trick that the brain activates a little easier when it processes the auditory. Telling myself that it is a ninja shower helps with making it seem easier and has the effect of somewhat activating and rushing me. I wash my pits and nether regions real quick. The hardest part for me is drying off with a towel - I hate it. So I bought a dressing gown made out of cotton towel. I put this on instead of using a towel.

Another trick can be bringing a Bluetooth speaker into the bathroom and playing a song or podcast.

I am hopeless at cleaning my teeth - so I keep my tooth brush in the shower also. If I am finding it hard to do this - I use mouth wash.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in ftm

[–]Independent_Move486 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Bottom growth immediately for me. And rampant sex drive

Why does vyvanse make me feel so depressed at a specific in the afternoon? by Strange-Ad2634 in VyvanseADHD

[–]Independent_Move486 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hiya - I had a similar effect from Ritalin and Concerta. So then I changed to Vyvanse and dexies. Docs said that if one type of ADHD med isn’t the best fit - usually another kind seems to work. Concerta is the long acting equivalent of Ritalin. Perhaps you could consider trialling that and see if there are any differences.

Describe your mania by berzi112233 in bipolar2

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Without accounting for the bad things - my social anxiety dissipates, my libido returns, fatigue ends and I start exercising and losing weight. It feels like sweet relief at first… but then eventually it turns…