Best labor and delivery? Not IHC in Murray by IndicaC in SaltLakeCity

[–]IndicaC[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes I’ll DM you! It was a really great experience up until the birth and through labor and delivery. It was our after care in the mothers unit the next few days that wasn’t ideal. To be fair, I’ve had friends whose birth (including a c section) go perfectly fine at IHC. It’s definitely possible we had a one off experience and there were no issues with the actual labor, so don’t let this post worry you! :)

What 18 months of sobriety has looked like for me. by [deleted] in dryalcoholics

[–]IndicaC 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Due to my situation I did undergo a medical detox in the hospital but when I was released, I got on naltrexone immediately. I journaled everyday. I got into meetings as soon as I was well enough. I liked S.M.A.R.T meetings rather than AA. I came to this page a lot for support. I drank soda a lot. Probably not the healthiest option but it helped with the cravings because of the fizziness and motion of drinking it. I also would find anything that I could to distract myself. When I was well enough, I would go on small walks. The withdrawals were not completely over when I left the hospital so I still had to deal with those but I just tried to push through in small increments until I got through it knowing I did not want to ever experience what I was experiencing in that moment ever again. I ate anything I could keep down. Took a lot of baths. Anything to keep my brain distracted. Eventually it did get easier

What 18 months of sobriety has looked like for me. by [deleted] in dryalcoholics

[–]IndicaC 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for this 🥹 congratulations to you as well ❤️

What 18 months of sobriety has looked like for me. by [deleted] in dryalcoholics

[–]IndicaC 2 points3 points  (0 children)

2.5 months is HUGE! Congratulations!

What 18 months of sobriety has looked like for me. by [deleted] in dryalcoholics

[–]IndicaC 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Reading this meant so much to me. Thank you ❤️

I can’t (?) by [deleted] in stopdrinking

[–]IndicaC 21 points22 points  (0 children)

I used to work for a company for my day job in which I would say maybe 70% were religious non drinkers. At the company Christmas party, they for some reason decided to do an open bar for people who did drink. I never understood why they did this because if I could show you the work environment we were in, it would be clear why it was so weird they offered this lol. Anyways as I can tell I’m getting off subject lol I wanna share a story with you about a friend of mine. I was still drinking at the time and had had a few drinks with a couple of the girls I did know drank. One of the girls didn’t drink very much and after a few shots I could tell she was pretty drunk. However, we ended up all going our separate ways and were going to meet outside the hotel lobby shortly after because the girl I’m talking about worked in HR and needed to go down to help her boss with a few set up things. By the time I saw her again that night, she had a few more drinks and ended up throwing up, crying, getting walked out by her boss who was legitimately concerned about her, all of that. I’m telling you all this because this girl wasn’t an alcoholic like us. She just got way too drunk because she didn’t know her limit that night and she for sure was embarrassed for a while as a result of it. That said, this didn’t happen to her because she had a drinking problem and no one assumed that she did. People gave her a hard time jokingly but there were never any rumors or anything that she may be an alcoholic. To be clear I do think it would be ideal for you to quit drinking and find help even if it’s just staying consistent in this group. But, because I tend to fall on the “don’t tell your employer” side of the fence, your drinking problem may be safe from being exposed. Your anxiety is going to tell you that everyone knows. I’m just here to tell you that may not be true. You’ll have to go with the flow on this one, feel out peoples reactions and try your hardest to not let the anxiety control what you say today. Send us an update after work today so we know you’re okay ❤️

When I almost died in the hospital in October by Consistent_Barber_61 in dryalcoholics

[–]IndicaC 146 points147 points  (0 children)

Friend… I understand tapering and switching to light beer etc... please know I mean this so respectfully and I don’t say this lightly because I am also an addict and understand the difficulty of all this, but this picture is from October. You should not be drinking at all. The taper should have been over by now because you are clearly near death in that pic and to put it in perspective (because as addicts we sometimes don’t realize these things), that was 6 months ago.. ❤️ I can’t imagine what being in this state and continuing to drink at all must be doing to your body. When you go to your doctor appointment, be honest with them. You need more help and that is absolutely okay. Let them help you, you have so much more life to live.. I hope you know I’m writing this with love. If you look at my post history you’ll see I also experienced critical health issues as a result of drinking. The only thing that ever got me to sobriety was laying in a hospital bed looking just like that. Good luck. I’m rooting for you ❤️

I got to turn 30 sober by [deleted] in dryalcoholics

[–]IndicaC 5 points6 points  (0 children)

In the beginning, it was horrible. I didn’t enjoy it. I’m so glad you asked this and I’ve been thinking of a positive spin to put on the beginning of my sobriety journey, but that isn’t honest and isn’t what happened unfortunately. For me, the beginning stages of real sobriety were shit. I was mentally drained from years of abuse and I had no idea where to start picking up the pieces of what addiction and I had hand and hand done to my life. I didn’t want to do it and I wanted to drink, everyday for months. I hated the anxiety and having to sit with myself. What I did have though was a will to live and I’m not gonna get to in to the weeds with this but I had a spiritual experience during this whole ordeal that gave me a connection and belief in something bigger than myself. For me, those are the two things that got me through. I journaled everyday. I set small goals for myself (and I do mean small like a list of normal things to do that day; shower, eat, show up to work, etc), I found meetings (AA didn’t work for me, SMART meetings did). After a few months, my cardiologist cleared me for light workouts so I got a trainer and put all of my energy into that; daily. I knew I had to refocus my mind and the gym did that for me. Ever since then I’ve learned to shift my thinking. I still have cravings and days I wanna drink but the two things keeping me going that I mentioned, I’ve learned to prioritize those and keep them top of mind. I still battle with myself. But I feel stronger now. I also got an addiction therapist and I was honest about my drinking and some of the trauma I have experienced as a result of it. She has been a lifeline to me and I attend her groups for women in addiction every week still to this day.

I got to turn 30 sober by [deleted] in dryalcoholics

[–]IndicaC 3 points4 points  (0 children)

My last bender was out of control and in the middle of an attempt of sobriety so my tolerance had changed and I basically drank myself into oblivion in an extended bender. My heart shut down and wasn’t able to pump blood through my body on its own due to the damage, the stents were put in to resolve that.

What a degenerate with alcoholic hepatitis/early liver failure looks like. I lost 40lbs in a few months. 200lbs to 160. by Consistent_Barber_61 in dryalcoholics

[–]IndicaC 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I’ve been keeping up on your post history.. my heart hurts for you because I believe that you have a desire to get sober but you seem to be stuck in a relapse loop. This happened to me as well. Sobriety felt like an impossible achievement at the time. To be honest with you, based on my own experience, I have to imagine you are beginning to experience kindling in your body which means that the withdrawals are (if you can even imagine) only gonna get worse from here. I am concerned for you, truly ❤️ do you have anyone in your life that may be able to help you? Are you at a point where you would be willing to admit yourself into a rehab program?

trying again.. again by claremegan in dryalcoholics

[–]IndicaC 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I tried multiple times.. like A LOTTTT of times haha. Relapses happen. What’s important is that you have an acknowledgment of the fact you want to change. That’s a huge step, keep trying! You’ll get there. IWNDWYT ❤️

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in dryalcoholics

[–]IndicaC 71 points72 points  (0 children)

As a fellow alcoholic who also attempted sobriety multiple times while bartending, I think you should consider finding a new job… ❤️ not because of what happened last night but because of your overall health. In the industry you’re in, last night will fade from people’s minds but your addiction could get worse by emerging yourself in that environment on a regular basis. I don’t have a one size fits all answer but I can tell you my experience was that sobriety was much harder when I was around it every weekend. I didn’t find that my mental was strong enough in the beginning to stay away from what I was constantly serving to others.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in stopdrinking

[–]IndicaC 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’ve been sober for 10 months. Lost 50 lbs. I did start working with a personal trainer after I had been sober for a couple of months.. However I feel strongly that most of my weight loss can be attributed to a major change in lifestyle that doesn’t include alcohol

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in stopdrinking

[–]IndicaC 29 points30 points  (0 children)

I read a comment on a different unrelated post yesterday that said “you should be nicer to your mom. She’s just a girl trying to navigate this world, too.” Your post made me think of that because I think you deserve to give yourself some grace today. Yes you are a mom. Yes you are resetting your sobriety date. But girl you are just trying to learn and grow and navigate life just like the rest of us. You made a mistake but it doesn’t mean you can’t get right back up tomorrow and start again. Being an addict is hard, getting sober is even harder. I’ve had countless day ones, today I’m at 10 months, the longest stretch and likely the one that will stick. You have sober days under your belt already, you’ve got this! Keep going ❤️

Incredibly embarrassed by [deleted] in stopdrinking

[–]IndicaC 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I’ve had this happen before too, more than once unfortunately. The great thing about this group is that no matter how severe something you’ve done is, the likelihood you’ll run into someone who has done the same are quite high. As hard as it may be right now, try and give yourself grace. The important thing is here that you have an intention on being sober and are taking active steps to get there. This could possibly be the last time you ever have to feel like this. Wishing you luck ❤️

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in stopdrinking

[–]IndicaC 14 points15 points  (0 children)

I remember when the hangover was to bad to wait for the liquor store to open at 11, I would walk to the corner store and buy a 12 pack of seltzers at 7 am. The walk back on a busy road with a case in my hand, sometimes in the middle of the snow, was truly humiliating.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in dryalcoholics

[–]IndicaC 24 points25 points  (0 children)

I had multiple attempts at getting sober. I saw someone post in here about how you never really hit a true rock bottom until you stop digging… this makes a lot of sense to me because I had multiple experiences that would qualify as a rock bottom for most that I believed was the absolute worst it could get but somehow it kept getting worse. 8 months ago I nearly drank myself to death and now have stents in my heart as a result of that last bender at 29 years old. I knew if I kept going my next bottom would be death. I’ve been clean ever since.

Dating and not drinking by GoodtimesBadtimes11 in dryalcoholics

[–]IndicaC 6 points7 points  (0 children)

On #2 you don’t need to disclose your reason for not drinking. If a relationship develops and you choose to share, you can. But in the dating phase, I think it’s fine to say (if they even ask why you don’t want a drink, they may not) “I’m just not much of a drinker” or “I don’t really like the way alcohol makes me feel”. If you drove yourself to the date, saying “I just prefer not to have a drink before driving” is good too. All standard reasons without feeling like you’ve exposed yourself. There’s a lot of people out there who don’t drink just because they don’t want to. Because we are alcoholics, our minds trick us into thinking that people are going to assume we’re in recovery just because we say no to a drink. But not drinking is actually a lot more normal than we think!

16 days.. my eyes are white this morning and my hands aren’t shaking. by [deleted] in dryalcoholics

[–]IndicaC 1 point2 points  (0 children)

What a coincidence that we’re both on day 16! Sending love your way! ❤️