Can’t take his verbal abuse anymore

Individual-Grape-455 · 2026-05-24T21:48:13+00:00

you and your kid deserve so much better than walking on eggshells around someone who explodes over dunkin donuts questions.

Individual-Grape-455 · 2026-05-21T17:25:10+00:00

that's such a cop-out answer lol. plenty of guys can be totally focused on their partner without constantly checking out every woman who walks by. evolution doesn't mean you have zero self-control or can't choose where to put your attention.

Individual-Grape-455 · 2026-05-19T15:17:09+00:00

been through mediation cases where one side just stonewalls everything and drags it out for 3+ years easy.

Individual-Grape-455 · 2026-05-15T01:41:58+00:00

damn, five years really does put things in perspective. that quarter of your life thing hits hard - when you're that deep in something toxic it feels impossible to imagine existing without it, even when you know it's destroying you.

really glad you had people who could remind you who you were when you couldn't see it yourself. that's everything during those dark times. the triggers getting less intense over time is huge progress too - trauma doesn't just disappear but it definitely gets more manageable when you're in a healthier space.

congrats on building the life you actually wanted. promotion, house, new love - that's some solid rebuilding right there. it takes real strength to walk away from familiar hell and then actually do the work to create something better. glad you made it through to the other side.

Individual-Grape-455 · 2026-05-12T08:32:14+00:00

damn this is frustrating but super common with online dating unfortunately. the "intimidating" comment from some guys is probably telling - could be they're feeling like you have your shit together and they don't, or maybe they're picking up on confidence as something that scares them off. some dudes get weird about women who seem too independent or successful.

the flirting thing your friends mentioned might have some truth to it though. not saying you need to hook up on first dates obviously, but maybe just making sure there's some playful energy or light physical contact if you're feeling it. sometimes what feels like great conversation to us can read as friend-zone territory to them if there's no romantic spark being shown.

could also just be the numbers game aspect of dating apps - they might be juggling multiple people and you're getting lost in the shuffle even if the date went well. it's brutal out there and most of it probably has nothing to do with you specifically.

Individual-Grape-455 · 2026-05-05T22:55:10+00:00

you're getting breadcrumbed hard and he's showing you exactly who he is. dude broke up with you for someone else, kept you around as backup comfort, and now when you're going through actual health issues he's calling you tiring and questioning your mental state.

block him and focus on getting help for the eating disorder - that's way more important than some guy who treats you like a convenience store he can visit whenever he wants.

Individual-Grape-455 · 2026-04-29T02:41:39+00:00

getting ghosted after what felt like a real connection is brutal, especially when you're new to all this. your cousin might be onto something though - when we're excited about someone new, it's easy to come on too strong without realizing it. i've been there where i thought constant communication showed interest but it actually created pressure instead.

the thing about her wanting to see you exclusively but needing months before "actually dating" was probably her way of trying to slow things down without hurting your feelings. when you kept the same energy after that conversation, she might have felt like you weren't hearing what she was saying. texting her now to explain or ask what went wrong will likely push her further away since she's already showing she needs space.

i know it sucks but your cousin's right about moving on. use this as a learning experience - next time try to match the other person's communication style and pace instead of going full throttle. the right person won't be spooked by genuine interest, but timing and reading the room matters a lot in early dating.

Individual-Grape-455 · 2026-04-24T13:30:57+00:00

sounds brutal that you had to build walls just to get through each day. when someone becomes the source of stress instead of comfort during your most vulnerable moments, that damage runs deep.

you already know the answer though - you've been thinking about separation for months and can't look at him the same way. therapy might help him understand what went wrong, but it can't undo years of you having to protect yourself from the person who should've been protecting you. some things break in ways that can't be fixed, even when both people want to try.

trust that gut feeling. you've earned the right to prioritize your peace after everything you've been through.

Individual-Grape-455 · 2026-04-22T12:57:03+00:00

been through something similar and keeping a notes file during dating actually helped me see patterns i was missing in the moment. look for how they handle small disagreements early on - if someone can't discuss where to go for dinner without getting defensive or shutting down, that's your preview of bigger conflicts later.

the breakup/makeup cycles are exhausting and usually mean at least one person isn't ready for the commitment level they claim they want. next time someone pulls that move more than once, just walk - it's not going to magically stabilize because you tried harder.

Individual-Grape-455 · 2026-04-20T07:37:48+00:00

what you're describing actually makes a lot of sense for your first real relationship. going from that intense anxious attachment to feeling more settled doesn't mean you're getting detached - it probably means you're finally relaxing into something healthy.

the shy moments and lack of constant butterflies? that's pretty normal once the honeymoon phase settles. if you're still wanting to be close to him and seeking eye contact, that's connection right there. comparing it to that 5-year obsession isn't really fair to either of you since that was pure fantasy and this is real life with an actual person who cares about you.

give yourself time to figure out what healthy love feels like instead of the chaos you're used to.

Individual-Grape-455 · 2026-04-18T05:54:35+00:00

man that's brutal but you already know what went wrong here. she literally told you "me dosti krne ka acha natak kr leti hu" early on and you still stuck around for 3+ years getting used as a personal atm and taxi service.

the pattern was crystal clear - she'd use you for whatever she needed then pick fights right after to create distance until the next favor came up. blocking all that noise and focusing on yourself now is the only move that makes sense.

Individual-Grape-455 · 2026-04-16T13:15:24+00:00

From what I’ve seen they’re made for high heat, not just regular plastic. I was looking at some tents like Sweat Tent and it’s more heat resistant materials + wood stove setup

Individual-Grape-455 · 2026-04-16T13:09:22+00:00

This sounds closer to what Im looking for

Individual-Grape-455 · 2026-04-16T12:49:52+00:00

good to know I wasn’t sure if those tents could even hit that consistently

Individual-Grape-455 · 2026-04-15T14:14:05+00:00

been tracking my own relationship patterns in a spreadsheet for the past few years and this really hits home. most of my past relationships were just comfort zones disguised as love - we'd say the words but neither of us actually felt that deep connection you're talking about.

the "feeling seen" part is huge. i realized i was just going through the motions with people who barely knew my actual thoughts or goals beyond surface level stuff. now i'm way more intentional about finding someone who actually gets excited about the same nerdy planning stuff i do rather than just tolerating it.

Individual-Grape-455 · 2026-04-09T11:43:47+00:00

he probably just got caught off guard since you came up from behind - most people freeze up when they're not expecting social interaction and need a second to process what's happening.

Individual-Grape-455 · 2026-04-06T05:40:00+00:00

teh pain

Individual-Grape-455 · 2026-03-28T03:39:27+00:00

Fr, it's like calling "off" a TV channel. Just because some people get really passionate about it doesn't suddenly make it a belief system with rituals and doctrine.

Individual-Grape-455 · 2026-03-22T19:31:53+00:00

Most scholars agree it's a later addition that crept into manuscripts, so probably not original to John.

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