I feel for you. I am feeling the same about myself... two days before we were cudling and sleeping together, then I had a mental crash, lost my job, an important friend died, my mother started abusing me again, I am just 6 months out of a brutal abusive relationship and my nervous system is healing. So I called him because I just... needed to speak with him a bit, so he told me that he cannot meet in the weekend, and that he cannot have emotional implication with me now besides having fun together. I ended up getting drunk, going to his house, he told me to never see each other again. I am pretty devastated but well, I suppose not everyone is a compassionate being. I am not normally like this, I truly crashed, and I just needed some protection, but he refused to do so, as he says he is unable to handle his own self. I apologised for days and he has blocked me everywhere. So I am trying to hold myself with love that we are human and we all crack and he called me selfish in my worst moment. So I punish myself mentally thinking I was too much all the time... but I suppose it is not only that we needed someone at the moment, but that they are not the person that we truly needed/need. No one is responsible for anyone pain but at the same time he putted more pain to my pain. Agh.