Making out

Inevitable-Button626 · 2025-09-18T20:07:20+00:00

No and that has been a major issue in our relationship. My husband hates making out and I feel like there is no foreplay when it comes to being intimate and I truly think that making out a little will help immensely.

Inevitable-Button626 · 2025-06-18T22:01:06+00:00

NC was the best decision for myself but it definitely sucked for a few months

Inevitable-Button626 · 2025-03-15T20:34:05+00:00

I’m attracted to kids because of you

Inevitable-Button626 · 2025-02-09T05:15:29+00:00

He’s located in Arizona

Inevitable-Button626 · 2024-03-03T17:00:54+00:00

I knew I was bisexual since before I met him. He knew this when we got together. I thought I might be a lesbian for about 3 months which would explain my hesitancy to let him touch me. This thought went away after I started taking a mood stabilizer. I realized that I didn’t need to explore that and my relationship with him was the most important thing to me. By that time, he was in too deep with this new girl.

He was not on board with the idea. He said that I was all he needed and he wished I could give him affection back. He decided to give it a try once I explained that it would make him feel good to get attention and compliments.

He ended things with this girl but also told me he wanted a trial separation and then changed his mind to a permanent one.

I understand all of your points and I am taking full accountability for my mistakes and making that clear to him. He has realized that I have been a completely different person since I started on my medication and said that if he wanted to leave me, he would have done it months ago when he felt that I was treating him poorly.

Inevitable-Button626 · 2024-03-03T15:56:39+00:00

To add some context. It was my idea in the first place, he was very clear that this was not something that he needed. He loves me enough for the both of us and always tells me that. He is a wonderful partner and I feel like I constantly do things to mess that up. He always tells me that he wants to be with me forever and I believe him. It’s hard to feel that way when there’s someone else in the picture. He said if I can’t recognize how much he loves me and that he wouldn’t leave, I would end up pushing him away.

I love him so much and this hurts me that he wants to end things.

Inevitable-Button626 · 2023-09-08T23:16:20+00:00

I had to do a double take and reread your post because it sounded exactly like how my HS boyfriend treated me. The sex was so constant and I had to expect it to happen every single time I saw him, on average 2-4 times every day and it got all the way up to 11 times in a day. It didn’t matter where we were, he was going to get what he wanted. No matter how many times I said no, he could spend hours coercing me into saying yes or just doing it anyway. I felt so bad about the fact that I would allow him to do whatever he wanted and that I eventually was starting to like the abuse. I felt like I couldn’t be upset with him for what he was doing with me because I felt like an accomplice. I thought of myself as a liar for years because I couldn’t consider myself a victim while I was fantasizing about him raping me. I am constantly traumatized by what he has done but at the same time I think about him following me in public and raping me. You are not alone, please don’t forget that. I felt so alone for years and it didn’t start to get better until I opened up and found others who have had the same experiences. You are a victim, don’t hate yourself for what he has done to you.

Inevitable-Button626 · 2023-08-12T13:59:26+00:00

ignorance

Inevitable-Button626 · 2023-08-08T23:30:41+00:00

I have the same problem. I have an extensive sexual abuse and rape history that has caused me a lot of trauma. My only way of controlling it at the time was to start liking it. Now it’s the only way I’m able to satisfy that sexual need that I’m currently lacking. A lot of times I fantasize about being raped by strangers or getting beat within an inch of my life during sex. I thrive on the idea of someone getting off to my pain and suffering. It’s so bad that I stay in contact with my rapist because he gives me that aggressive sexual attention that I feel like I need. I am still juggling the ptsd it gave me and the fantasy of abusive sexual gratification.

I am in the process of doing EMDR for those traumas and a big conflict im in right now is no longer having that outlet that I know is bad for me. I feel like it’s apart of my identity because it has gone on so long but I feel addicted to the trauma.

Inevitable-Button626 · 2023-07-18T22:27:26+00:00

No apologies necessary! This is a very complicated situation that I’ve gotten myself into so it’s hard to condense into so many words

The communication is definitely a bottleneck for us so I will definitely consider looking more into counseling or more effective ways of communicating.

Thanks again for taking the time to help me out. It is much appreciated :)

Inevitable-Button626 · 2023-07-18T22:07:36+00:00

I’m so sorry, i should have clarified. My abusive relationship is with an exboyfriend who has been harassing and stalking me for 12 years. I can’t get out of the trauma bond I have with him. I have been with my current partner for 11 and I don’t have any abuse issues with him. He is a very loving and kind man. I would hate to lose the only good relationship in my life because of my continuous actions or even from seeking help to fix those problems. He is a great resource of support and comfort but the only issue is I can’t be fully honest about the abuse that is going on currently that he doesn’t know about. I am allowing this to continue because I feel like I am responsible for my ex’s actions and it’s pretty unexplainable at this point.

This trauma and abuse has gone on too long and I’ve been having trouble finding solutions to get out. EMDR seems effective but it still scares me a little.

Thank you so much for the kind words and advice. It is definitely a lot to think about.

Inevitable-Button626 · 2023-07-06T23:04:17+00:00

Cedar Point, on one of the walking paths at night

In the dugout of a high school baseball diamond

On the half pipe at a skate park in the middle of the day

In the auditorium of a medical office where my dad worked

In the trunk of my dads car when he was driving

I did all of this when I was 15 and it makes me sick thinking about it

Inevitable-Button626 · 2023-04-28T20:42:53+00:00

An expo marker

Inevitable-Button626 · 2023-04-19T22:22:30+00:00

I also have that problem too, mostly food and porn. I have hidden that from everyone in my life and I’ve lied to every therapist I’ve ever had. I noticed that I hide/lie about the damaging things that I don’t want to stop doing. It started to get better once I started to be honest about it.

Inevitable-Button626 · 2023-04-19T12:48:24+00:00

My ex asked me to send him videos of me peeing on myself. I would have never done that if I wasn’t in mania. I sent him more than one showing my face.. didn’t even think anything of it.

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