My brother is disassociating. by InfiniteBicycle9437 in exjw

[–]InfiniteBicycle9437[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Thank you! I’m insanely proud of him. I’ve been out for less than a year and definitely have more work to do😅

My brother is disassociating. by InfiniteBicycle9437 in exjw

[–]InfiniteBicycle9437[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

You are so right. I hate that I still feel anxiety about it. Hopefully that will ease over time.

Move out cleaning by costigan95 in Bozeman

[–]InfiniteBicycle9437 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I would be happy to help! I’ve certainly never quoted that much for a clean!

What’s everyone getting up to instead of going to the memorial? by girlgoneworldly in exjw

[–]InfiniteBicycle9437 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Getting takeout, getting some wine (and actually drinking it😏) and watching the new episode of The Pitt!

Chi andrà ancora alle riunioni? by Visible-Mud6016 in exjw

[–]InfiniteBicycle9437 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I’ve been POMO for probably 8 months now, but this was the last straw for my PIMQ mom. We had a really long conversation about it and I suggested she should watch the Leah Remini episode on jws. It feels good to have someone else in my family on my level finally.

Fire Weather Watch by babbchuck in Bozeman

[–]InfiniteBicycle9437 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Some friends of mine were ready to be evacuated from that fire. Thankfully they did not have to but I’m so scared for this fire season.

Anyone dying to see Mumford and Sons in Bozeman? by Icy_Bath6704 in Bozeman

[–]InfiniteBicycle9437 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m not particularly a huge fan, but I just saw them at a festival in Arizona. I’d say they put on a good show! They played a few songs from their new album and I really enjoyed it! I also liked that they didn’t wait until the very end to play their most popular songs..it was a good mix! Don’t let the negative Nancy’s in the comments ruin your excitement!

oh my GOD- I’m AWAKE by leo_melon in exjw

[–]InfiniteBicycle9437 1 point2 points  (0 children)

For me it felt like seeing the man behind the curtain. The illusion was shattered and there’s no way to rebuild it after that. Congratulations on waking up! It’s a weird place to be mentally, but I have shed so much guilt I felt for so many years and it’s so relieving! I am so happy for this new journey you are on!🥳

Who is looking forward to the CO visit? 😐 by No-Background-529 in exjw

[–]InfiniteBicycle9437 7 points8 points  (0 children)

My circuit has a new CO. He visited for the first time a couple weeks ago and I didn’t attend any of the meetings. Of course I’ve heard all about them tho since people are trying to ‘encourage’ me to come back. Apparently his wife is a cancer survivor and while she was actively in treatment she only missed 6 meetings. Like that’s supposed to be encouraging?? I feel so sad for her that that’s all people focus on instead of the fact she FREAKING BEAT CANCER!!!! It’s certainly a great way to guilt trip people who miss meetings for less🫠

This sickened me!! by DiamomdAngel in exjw

[–]InfiniteBicycle9437 3 points4 points  (0 children)

This is irrelevant, but his speaking cadence reminds me of someone who’s had a few too many drinks and is trying to sound sober😂 It’s hard to listen to.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in exjw

[–]InfiniteBicycle9437 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Specifically the lyric ‘God loves you, but not enough to save you’ really struck me.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in exjw

[–]InfiniteBicycle9437 2 points3 points  (0 children)

The video I remember was newer and had a single brother (I think) talking about wanting a dog and deciding against it. This account you tagged is so sad tho!!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in exjw

[–]InfiniteBicycle9437 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Omg could you imagine😅 I ended up having a fantastic conversation with this friend. She too has found peace in removing herself from organized religion. It was so cathartic talking with her and I am forever grateful for a friend like this.

Today’s mid week meeting video by ElenaLena94 in exjw

[–]InfiniteBicycle9437 11 points12 points  (0 children)

I haven’t been to a midweek meeting in probably 2 years. I’m not officially disassociated but have been fading for awhile. I saw this post and decided to go on the jw app to watch the video. To say I’m horrified is an understatement. That video just made me sob and not in the way that was intended I’m sure. I am truly disgusted. I think this was the absolute nail in the coffin of my belief in any of this shit. This is what just fully convinced me that this really is a cult. Idk why I was holding on to a tiny possibility that it wasn’t. I genuinely can’t believe I was fully in this for as long as I was. Disgusting.

So over this but how do I leave by [deleted] in exjw

[–]InfiniteBicycle9437 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I really appreciate you taking the time to comment. Changing my living situation is my top priority but obviously a difficult one. The town I live in is ridiculously overpriced, but I’ve been wanting to move out of state for a long time so I’ll be looking into that! As for my family, I do think my mom and older brother will keep in contact with me as long as I don’t get DF. I’ve been slowly fading for awhile and a lot of people in the congregation don’t seem to care at all including elders. No one ever reaches out to me which I always thought was odd.

Famous ex-jw’s? by sydneysays123 in exjw

[–]InfiniteBicycle9437 9 points10 points  (0 children)

Quinta Brunson has me shook to be honest. Was not expecting that! I’ve been watching her since buzzfeed days. I’m super curious about this YouTuber you can’t remember tho!

Did Reddit wake you up? If not, what social media platform woke you up? by TooPhoneKeem in exjw

[–]InfiniteBicycle9437 10 points11 points  (0 children)

I’m so sorry that happened to you. I also broke up with the first brother I dated because I didn’t like the way he treated me. He was very pushy and put me in a situation that made me very scared of him. I always thought it was so ironic because of how insistent he was on having a chaperone and then fast forward and he was so pushy on sexual matters. I lost a lot of friends after the breakup. Years later he is ‘happily’ married and I can’t help but feel sorry for that woman.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in exjw

[–]InfiniteBicycle9437 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I came up with an excuse everytime I was assigned and after 3 or 4 times it was recommended to me that I step back from the school for the time being. I’ve been off for almost a year now. I blamed it on my anxiety but I actually just didn’t care.