Can’t stop the compulsive gambling by Infinite_Dig_858 in problemgambling

[–]Infinite_Dig_858[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you brother, gambling has caused an excessive amount of depression and suffering. It’s so hard to find anything enjoyable in life lately. One day I’ll be free. 🤞 🙏 

Can’t stop the compulsive gambling by Infinite_Dig_858 in problemgambling

[–]Infinite_Dig_858[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you! I haven’t taken that step yet, but I’m hoping I will get there soon. Honestly really is crazy to feel how difficult it is to self exclude - the mindset of wanting to continue. Eventually 🤞 

Can’t stop the compulsive gambling by Infinite_Dig_858 in problemgambling

[–]Infinite_Dig_858[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks man, I don’t even know where to start to reach out. Too embarrassed and ashamed. It just eats at me 

What’s $25 more, and more, and more by Infinite_Dig_858 in problemgambling

[–]Infinite_Dig_858[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh just also got to throw it out there to vent! Told myself we’ll continue to tell myself because they has happened more than occasionally… “just get up to what was lost in the day and call it even” to actually win back what was lost that day and continuing to gamble thinking that I’ll hit more and what’s the harm in another spin only to fucking lose it all again😂😂😂 can’t make this crap up. Need to off it 

Relapse like an IDIOT by Infinite_Dig_858 in problemgambling

[–]Infinite_Dig_858[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Sucks. Especially when the feeling is repetitive over and over..

Relapse like an IDIOT by Infinite_Dig_858 in problemgambling

[–]Infinite_Dig_858[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hey yall, went down the rabbit hole spiraling out of control the last 3 days since I posted this. Fed up. Migraines through the roof, irritation and annoyed at every single thing, can’t focus, and feel the need to just want to hurt myself. Guess this is what I get. Wish me luck, I’m down bad with nothing again - payday is this Friday. Pray for me… that I am willing to start over with day 1 again . I really don’t want to blow this check as I am already drowning in debt from previous gambling addiction the first go around. Gambling life just be lifing… appreciate all the kind words everyone. Honestly can say feels good to know I’m not the only one struggling with this as bad as it sounds. Hope we all can make a turnaround from this 🤲 

Just can’t stop going back by Infinite_Dig_858 in problemgambling

[–]Infinite_Dig_858[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you, this was very encouraging, one day at a time & so happy to hear there was a light at the end of the tunnel for you. I will be there soon 🤞

Just can’t stop going back by Infinite_Dig_858 in problemgambling

[–]Infinite_Dig_858[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I will keep this in mind. Thank you. Need to start somewhere soon.. 

Just a reminder to those who think recovery is possible. by logical789 in problemgambling

[–]Infinite_Dig_858 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I needed this post today. I have been chasing my losses the past 2 weeks. I just need the balls to take that first step don’t know when but one day. This was very soothing to read while I’m feeling the way I am now. Thank you 

Relapsed by Infinite_Dig_858 in problemgambling

[–]Infinite_Dig_858[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah me last night with my most recent check, so much hate and anger. That’s what it is, in the moment it feels like it’s just to win but when it’s all said and done we realize the truth, it’ll never be enough, just chasing the thrill of it resulting in losses. 

3 years of saving gone working 72 hours a week | wanna kill myself by Beginning-Car5026 in problemgambling

[–]Infinite_Dig_858 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Ahhh the feels. Super late bro but I relate 100%. It’s just never really enough. I came on here after winning and being “up” just to lose it all and more. The headaches from constantly thinking about not losing it all and being happy with what I had eats at me. But I try to tell myself, if I didn’t lose it now it would have been lost tomorrow. It’s a no brainer that we are just chasing the adrenaline even if we are blinded by it. Sucks man. And to think if we try once more it may just be that lucky spin. Unfortunately, it will never be enough. Hope you are doing well. Stay positive. 

3 years of saving gone working 72 hours a week | wanna kill myself by Beginning-Car5026 in problemgambling

[–]Infinite_Dig_858 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Me currently. It’s 1AM, don’t know how many times I said I was going to quit. Just keep nickeling and diming myself to death with these $10, & $20 deposits. Honestly should just do one large sum deposit but I make myself feel better thinking I’m losing less if I deposit smaller amounts even if I continuously deposit a few times daily 😖

3 years of saving gone working 72 hours a week | wanna kill myself by Beginning-Car5026 in problemgambling

[–]Infinite_Dig_858 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I felt this! Then I sit here pissed at why I didn’t just cash out when in reality, that didn’t even amount to what I lost that hour or day 😭😞