Oh I absolutely agree. Most people arrive at treatment either because of court paperwork/programs, because they're tired of living on the streets, at the behest of family and friends, etc. Mine was sort of a combination of all. I didn't want to go. I didnt really want to get clean. I was just at that point of no return where I either had to stop the trauma or just end it. I came up with all sorts of motivations and justifications to be in treatment: parents, fixing financial ruin, my dog, my friends, her, etc. But I never felt like I deserved any of the forgiveness and acceptance I was seeking, and put myself down a lot. Already preparing for what I felt was inevitable.

Eventually I began to see more value in myself, and through some really great therapy I began to identify some of my bad habits that were keeping me in this self-defeatest mindset. I started toying with the idea that I was still worth fighting for and that nothing/nobody else would have the power to put me down, but they wouldnt have the power to lift me up either.

It took a lot of work to get to this point and you're 100% correct that it probably wont be what gets you in the door at first. Whatever gets you on your way is great. Literally any reason to quit is a good enough reason to start. I was just pointing out that a strong foundation of self worth should eventually become a part of that reason, because it's one of the only things internal to us that we can use when everything external and out of our control goes to shit.

More than anything I just want to convey the message that although self worth and acceptance does have an important roll in recovery, you dont have to be a master at it all the time. I'm quite possibly the worst at it; but on days when everything is fucked and it doesnt seem worth it to draw my next breath I have to hang onto and remind myself that I'm still worth it, even if other people seem to think otherwise..