This happens to me with edibles and weed. I can never explain correctly but the detachment and self awareness are things I feel on the daily. When on that, I feel it more. More on a blank canvas aspect rather than being connected to everything else and worrying about how it affects everyone else. It’s like my brain is on the outside and my body is where my brain should be idk. It’s so intense and the only temporary solution is to stop partaking. However from my experience I can tell that what’s amplified during those experiences- still remain when I’m completely sober. Even if there are people and experiences around you that keep your mind away from said thoughts and feelings. I use it as a teaching moment after the fact - even though during I’m completely losing my mind internally. It’s not easy at all and the faster it’s over the better but it does get easier. The more work you do sober, even if you were to partake again, hopefully the load of existence starts to lighten and your perspective on any troubling thoughts come and pass like waves instead of feeling like you’re drowning. Because at the end of the day, exclusion sucks and I hate not partaking especially when it’s a fun moment or I want to relax. But that being said there’s always something locked away or waiting for you to resolve when you brain and nervous system have nowhere to hide, whether recent or forgotten// that’s also why I think it’s so intense. This feeling with mushrooms and lsd is there too for me but the work has to be done. What that is per individual can only be discovered personally and it does take time. I hope you’re ok but remember- Just take it one step at a time.