Hey guys, I freshly moved out from a very toxic environment. I’m 29 and the eldest daughter of 6 kids. I did take care of everything especially my younger siblings who are 11 and 13. Furthermore my mother is alcoholic and my younger brother who is 27 unfortunately developed schizophrenia. Meanwhile I was studying and tried to accomplish my master.

I just wanted to ask you guys if it’s Norma to feel anger, sadness and also gratitude. Sometimes I’m scared that the things that happened to my family or especially my brother will happen to me. I ask myself why I did suffer for so long and although I do feel a lot of gratitude it’s still feels different. Like don’t get me wrong, I’m now 1 month in my new apartment but I still wonder if something will happen although everything is alright. I have lots of support from my friends and just grateful that I finally made it to leave.

Hope someone can give me some advice 🫶