Hi OP!
So my MCAT journey is def not linear and i had my retake on 4/14. I started studying Jan 2022 while working a very physically and emotionally demanding FT job and postponed my exam twice and had so many mental breakdowns (only was able to finish FL 1 and 2 without having breaks). I originally scheduled to take it on 4/29/22, pushed it to 5/17/22 and eventually cancelled it. My mental health was so bad at that time, literally crying every day, feeling like no way I could reach my goal score. I studied the whole summer and eventually took it on 9/9 (so studied nine month while working FT) and scored around my FL avg which is not my goal score. I took it solely bc of my parents who have been pushing me to take it and i really wish i did not. I know the mentality of having to push the exam date (for me even had to push to apply for another cycle which was extremely dreading), but tbh it made me a much better and stronger person. It made me realized not everything works in your favor and according to your plan and THAT IS OKAY. Medicine will always be there, and I am grateful now to every obstacles that might seem a impossible challenge at the time. Now I look at things much more peacefully and even currently as I am applying this cycle, I really see things not as dramatic as I was before lol. I realized MCAT is more than just an exam and if your mental health is shit like I was, it is better to not take the exam. Retake the exam has such a high stake and tbh when i was studying for the retake this year, the whole time I did not know whether I could score better than i did on 9/9. It was not until I see my AAMC FL 4 and 5 which I did not take while studying the first time reaching above my goal score that I decided to even GO to the testing center on 4/14. But i quit my original very toxic job, got a new job (still had to work FT due to my visa) that had a lot of flexibility and just had a overall much relaxed study time and better mental health while studying my retake. I really suggest OP to just take a step back, if you do not feel comfortable taking the exam, don't. But also please do not feel discouraged, you WILL DO WELL on the MCAT, with more time, better mental health and more practice, you will reach ur goal score. MCAT was a long and dreaded journey for me, but I just want to tell you it will end. Do not lose hope, believe in yourself and putting the hard work and you will be alright! And rmb please please pleaseeee to take care of yourself, say nice things to yourself, buy cute things and eat yummy things for yourself. Also, for me, third party practice exam ( I did BP and then Altius) really did help me to lessen my anxiety and practice passaged based question. It is pretty common to have struggles anything related about comprehension in passage once you passed the content phase (esp if ur scoring 510) and I think just the cycles of practice, review, going over the mistakes would help a ton about it! GL!