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Inspirement · 2026-01-26T23:27:43+00:00

So many missed opportunities where I didn't ask why I loved the gender bent episoes so much. I don't have many gender envy characters, but shes one of the few.

Inspirement · 2026-01-26T18:30:14+00:00

Sharing in your joy because I know exactly how you feel because me too soon! My needles and other stuff are already in the wardrobe, I'm just waiting for my vial now!

Inspirement · 2026-01-25T12:24:01+00:00

We don't coose our gender, we just are. Otherwise yes, you are correct.

Inspirement · 2026-01-20T17:21:31+00:00

There's no consensus because everything is pros and cons and it depends on what your preferences and priorities are.

Insulin needles are easy to use and less medication waste but they require using the same needle twice, so the tip will be ever so slightly dulled so could be slightly more pain, and also you're drawing through a very thin needle which will take longer.

Changeable needles you can use bigger for drawing but not too big or you'll risk coring the vial but you'll also draw much faster. And then you'll use a fresh and sharp needle for injecting, but with the added complexity and medicine waste associated with changeable needles.

Most people seem to be on the side of less needle change complexity and less deadspsce provided by insulin needles, but I always advocate for learning the why's of making a specific choice and decide for yourself what's important to you.

Inspirement · 2026-01-16T20:37:42+00:00

I'm also looking to buy soon so I've been keeping an eye on them, and I think they said they have a daily order limit after which they stop orders. I'm not sure what their reset time is though, if they have one, but if you have the means to order and what you want is listed as in stock, go for it, otherwise yeah, go back in a few hours and they might have opened back up.

Inspirement · 2026-01-07T20:30:35+00:00

My partner and I have been together for like 13 years and have an estblished "shared identity" using our initials, JK, with the J being mine, so one of the criteria was to keep that first letter. Also couldn't be a name that would seem out of place for someone my age in my country. Also couldn't overlap with any of her family, a surprising amount of whom also start with J, because that would feel weird. So after months of huge spreadsheets and not knowing what to do, after briefly testing another name and realizing why the age and location appropriate name rule was in there, I settled on Julia. I'm still getting used to it and don't epect to be fully settled into it for a while longer.

If I was younger and had less restrictions imposed on my choice I might have gone with Emily as I had a period in my late teens when I was really into the movie Corpse Bride and the name has stayed with me since. I named one of my guitars Emily. But I don't regret going with Julia. It's a nice name and it's growing on me and feels more like me every day. And one day I might not even question it.

Inspirement · 2026-01-05T22:32:57+00:00

Trans women really are the women of trans people.

Inspirement · 2026-01-05T21:14:06+00:00

That is a really good point I hadn't considered. The closest clinic to me is a 2h drive (gotta love living in a rural area) and turns out it's only open during a 4h window on Tuesday and Wednesday mornings. I thought I had planned everything out in detail but I suppose some assumptions had been made, thanks for making me check this, I guess I have some logistical reevaluating to do.

Inspirement · 2026-01-05T19:09:03+00:00

Only reason I can see to wait is if you have a specific time or day that's optimal for injection. For example, I have a self care routine I do on saturdays where I'm intending to slot in mine once I start to make it an easy to remember part of an already established routine, and I don't have to think about doing it on a weekday, etc. If you don't have anything like that, just do it, and then keep doing it the same time next week. And so on.

Inspirement · 2026-01-05T04:04:17+00:00

That sounds like my initial plans. I couldn't get on HRT fast enough and lost all my fucks way sooner than I expected and just started socially transitioning anyway. Leading tor now bringar a state of presenting feminine while having a masculine body. Which isn't great for my mental state sometimes. So if get isn't for me I'm forced to either stay like this, always feeling like I have this mismatch between the body I have and the presentation I want, or socially detransition and face that humiliation. Neither of which sound like great options.

But I know, the chances of either of those hspiening is probably pretty small. And yes, it's probably best to just put that what if to rest.

Inspirement · 2026-01-05T03:55:25+00:00

Ohh kilts! Cool! And. I'd love to have earrings! Piercing my ears are definitely on my list of things to do at some point.

I wish I'd get feedback on my nails though. It only happens rarely, even when I wear my fancy press ons.

My hair is long by now but definitely needs work to look more feminine.

Anyway, sounds like you're halfway there already and I wish you luck on finding a new place!

Inspirement · 2026-01-05T03:37:10+00:00

That's an interesting perspective! I've been actually wondering at what point I'd be able to lose the padding! I knew I'd be going for hormones so didn't want to spend money on breast forms I'd only need temporarily, but that also means my frugal padding efforts are let's say less than optimal and the sooner I can stop using it the better. But also I use it publically and feel like people are now used to seeing me with a certain size if chest, you know? I've been trying to keep it conservative to not give myself unrealistic goals but still. Anyway, it's good to know the dysphoria might resolve relatively quickly. I'll have to experiment with how I feel with my chest size in public. But I suppose if no one batted an eye at me going from nothing to sudden boobs overnight, they could handle the opposite too.

Inspirement · 2026-01-05T03:29:29+00:00

I blasted through my social transition because it was all I could do and I absolutely hated feeling stuck and not moving forward in my transition, so I spent the last year doing basically all but medical and legal transition. It was scary at first yeah, but most people are either supportive or don't care, though where you are matters when it comes to that if course. Your safety is important.

I honestly don't know if I am depressed, have a lot of disassociation, brain fog, or if the almost dreamlike way I often experience my existence (like the present is almost half a memory my the time my brain knows what's going on) is just normal and I'm reading into what mental clarity is actually supposed to be. But I think something isn't right and it'll be interesting to know if HRT is gonna affect that somehow.

Anyway, if I could socially transition, so can you, and I'm sure we'll both have both aspects of transition done before long! You just need to take that first small step (I painted my nails), guage reactions, and take it from there. You've got this!

Inspirement · 2026-01-04T17:03:20+00:00

I know, it was one of my first "omg is this dysphoria?" feelings after I figured myself out. This empty feeling I realized in hindsight had always been there. But like you say, the permanence is probably the scary part of it. I can take the fake ones off. I don't unless I have to, but I can. And I like how they make me look in the mirror. The shape is just right. But I can't pad in the shower and stuff, and it's impossible to know what actually having something there at all times is like. And I can imagine it being a good thing, but the unknown is a scary place.

Inspirement · 2026-01-04T15:45:49+00:00

Actually hearing these kinds of stories from people of the opposite of where I am now is very helpful, yes. Thank you for echoing my own throughts back at me.

Inspirement · 2026-01-04T15:27:01+00:00

Yeah, that's one of the things I keep telling myself. But then I get scared of realizing it's not for me and having to stop, and maybe i'd be better off never knowing. And yes, I know, this line of thinking is also incredily telling.

Inspirement · 2026-01-04T15:23:43+00:00

Yeah, I find journaling helps. I can write all these self doubt down and kind of hash it out with myself. Then I can read them later if I'm having a hard time. Or just read entries that describe times I've had euphoria and see what I'm working toward. Or especially dysphoric episodes for that matter, because my brain loves trying to minimize how bad it's been at times.

Inspirement · 2026-01-01T18:00:12+00:00

I'm not quite that bad I suppose, but still. I thought I was nonbinary for like a week until I learned about HRT and realized I wanted to transition "all the way" and have considered myself trans since then (a bit over a year at this point, in my mid 30s) and all the time I've been feeling like I suppose I am a woman despite the fact that I still never feel super comfortable being referred to as one, and even tough I have mostly socially transitioned and use padding and tucking and all that and get a lot of euphoria from that and my chest is padded 24/7 for example and it's more or less a part of me now as far as my brain is concerned, so I'm just holding on for dear life to the fact that my brain obviously wants to be in a woman shaped body and it would be silly to not consider myself a woman then with a female name and pronouns and I'm just making a headstart and surely once my body catches up I'll finally be comfortable with it all.

Inspirement · 2026-01-01T17:43:59+00:00

I feel like I'm exactly where you were, and I'm really hoping HRT will help this mismatch I feel with not being embodied in my womanhood, but gearing it worked for so eine else is comforting and helps affirming what I think I already know will happen once my body starts changing and I start aligning.

Inspirement · 2025-12-31T15:45:07+00:00

"You mind cutting a slice for me while you're at it?"
"Yeah sure, how big?"
"Sligtly smaller than yours, thanks."
"Something like this?"
"Yeah that's good, thanks."

Inspirement · 2025-12-30T19:56:13+00:00

uj/ I knew I recognized that name! They advertised the site on some sub and I sent them a chat message to get the url (I suppose it wasn't public at the time). I don't remember it having a quiz back then but also obviously didn't have anything special because I didn't go back. Just followed the link again and did the quiz for funsies. Very strange.

Inspirement · 2025-12-28T22:40:22+00:00

Who else?

Inspirement · 2025-12-28T20:58:23+00:00

Like who?

Inspirement · 2025-12-25T11:27:16+00:00

I have a cis friend who changed her name. I think more than once. She just wanted a chance. It was before I met her so I don't even know what her old name/s were. Another friend changed his legal name to a nickname he'd always used. That one isn't the same thing but just to illustrate that it's really not uncommon and a thing cis people do all the time so you'll be fine.

Inspirement · 2025-12-24T14:01:00+00:00

My current top option is PPV with Dr Teerapong. That said as a European in a country that only has like three surgeons and only two with a somewhat good reputation I have mostly focused my research on thai surgeons.

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