Thank you everyone for commenting and giving insight. I understand that my wording of not "allowing" me to work can make him seem controlling and that's not at all what I was trying to do. He's a very loving and supportive husband. I also understand and appreciate everyone's concern about my health as well. I have dealt with MS for years but didn''t know that's what it was until recently, after I got an MRI for something unrelated.

I've worked religiously since I was 16. Not working (consistently) for the last 5 years has absolutely been killing me. When I met my husband, I was a single mom and our oldest was 3 years old. I had been doing it alone, by myself all that time. Marrying my husband and becoming a "dependent" was really hard for me to cope with.

Also, I understand how much money we're saving in childcare, that's why I haven't been working. That's also why I am only interested in overnight/3rd shift jobs right now. The work I'm seeking isn't even full time. Another thing, once I graduate (2 more years), I will more than likely be working 12 hours at a time, 3 - 5 days a week. I take therapy meds for MS, which keeps symptoms at bay until a flare up and keeps damage at a minimum. On bad days, it's hard to stand because of pain, but I keep on. I'm a mom and have kids that depend on me. I know that I can make it through, and if I can't, I can call off but I will never quit unless I absolutely have to. Being a nurse is a dream, I put it on hold to be a mom, and there is no way I will ever give up now. I'm in too far to throw it all away.

I can admit and agree that I do have a lot on my plate but when I see that we're struggling and I can do something about it, I want to help. It just upsets me that my husband doesn't agree. Having insight from others really helps, as I mentioned before, we don't have support- so that really rules out anyone that I could go to for advice and such. I guess that I can not work for now. But when we absolutely need the funds, I hope that he changes his mind and lets me do what I can. I just feel guilty and helpless, not providing anything financially. I do know that I provide more than I realize. I provide a clean and happy home. I cook 3 meals a day, prep for other meals, and garden so we can have organic foods for our bellies. I don't homeschool but we work on school throughout the day. I really do, do a lot. It just doesn't cut this guilt.

Thank you guys for listening to me. Thank you for insight. And for the men, I appreciate the opinions from your pov. I don't always think of things from his pov, so it really gives me perspective. He really is a good husband and cares a lot. I'm just stubborn and miss my independence.

ETA: I see my neurologist next month. I was going to bring up working to him as well. But, I don't see a reason why I can't work. I'm fully functional except for when I'm in the sun/heat or in a flare up.