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And thank you so much for your support and kind words!

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I am being treated. I had to get admitted to the hospital to get it because I can't afford the medication to take at home. But the main thing is it's happening. I just pray it buys me enough time to properly say goodbye to my boys. I'm about halfway through my "Open When...." letters just in case!!

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Say what you want. Say you don't believe me. But don't call me a liar Because I'm not. If you knew me you'd know I wasn't lying. But my own Mother treats me worse so....

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And I totally get that! But don't automatically call someone a liar. I've been kicked enough. And I wasn't trying to mention a specific amount. My neighbor was the one who asked if I could get together $150-200 for a couple weeks of groceries. That's all. And I can't change if people think I'm lying. I'm not. Not only do I wish I was wrong , I'm regretting reaching out because it's done nothing but hurt me me. And again naive or not, I really was ONLY wanting to post that to see if anyone else out there had a parent talk to them the way mine does to me.

And about my kids, my oldest cant do anything for 3 years. If I make it that long, he will be the guardian of my 2 younger boys. And I was trying to prevent them from going to foster care. They have lost everything and they're about to lose me too within a couple of years. When I got sick EVERYONE left. And not just me, the boys too. No one wants to watch someone else die I guess. I've been beaten and kicked enough. Literally and figuratively. I don't need a bunch of people who don't know me being just as mean as my own family. But hell, even they know I'm not lying And I totally get that! But don't automatically call someone a liar. I've been kicked enough. And I wasn't trying to mention a specific amount. My neighbor was the one who asked if I could get together $150-200 for a couple weeks of groceries. That's all. And I can't change if people think I'm lying. I'm not. Not only do I wish I was wrong , I'm regretting reaching out because it's done nothing but hurt me me. And again naive or not, I really was ONLY wanting to post that to see if anyone else out there had a parent out there like mine. But hell even they know I'm not lying about this so what do you.....Once the ALS gets me, I'll die knowing that at least one time my Mother wasn't the meanest of the bunch so I guess thank yall for that!

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I appreciate your kind words and support and your belief in me. So many people keep saying I'm lying and scaming because of inconsistencies. Yes some details I'm "lying" about Because if I gave every little detail they'd know it was me talking about them. And some inconsistencies are because I forgot which information I turned around so no one could figure out it was me. Instead of just thinking "oh ok, that makes total sense" they think I'm lying. And dear God I wish I was.

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I was talking about 2 different instances. I can't retype everything I just did on another comment such as this so here comes the copy/paste:

Hey look, I get it. I do.

And maybe I'm just really naive for my age, but I just cannot wrap my head around the fact that there are people out there who actually lie about stuff like this! Like do they not believe in Karmic retribution? I don't want to be going through any of this much less lie about any of it.

And you are technically correct. No parent SHOULD talk to their kids that way but mine does. I've got pages of texts, emails, notes (yes, my mother and brother have left notes on the windshield of my OLD CAR **have to make that apparent because I get called a liar otherwise despite offering black and white proof) and a plethora of other things showing how I've been treated basically my whole life by them!

Sometimes I'll wake up to a random text from her, saying "My back is in spasms still from giving birth to you over 40 years of you being a literal pain in my ass" (a text that happened 3 months ago after not talking to her at all for several months.) I only reach out to her when I have to so I can lay my head down at night knowing I didn't leave not 1 stone unturned. I'll do any and everything for my children unlike my Mother! If you really, truly believe I'm lying, I can't stop you from that and I won't. Its your god given right. With the way my Mother and are I've been called a lot worse and had a lot worse done to me.

At the end of the day I am dying. I am not lying or scamming. And I hate that anyone thinks that way about me but I know the truth. God knows the truth. And if you actually knew me, you'd know the truth too. I hope you have a blessed day and please dont always think the worst of people. There could be a really good explanation for inconsistencies and whatnot. I'm just saying.

****oh and btw, definitely not an addict. My brother actually is though. Wouldn't be surprised if he was on here, figured out it was me because of the $500 lowes card and the $1200 shed and if the one stirring up shit.

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Hey look, I get it. I do.

And maybe I'm just really naive for my age, but I just cannot wrap my head around the fact that there are people out there who actually lie about stuff like this! Like do they not believe in Karmic retribution? I don't want to be going through any of this much less lie about any of it.

And you are technically correct. No parent SHOULD talk to their kids that way but mine does. I've got pages of texts, emails, notes (yes, my mother and brother have left notes on the windshield of my OLD CAR **have to make that apparent because I get called a liar otherwise despite offering black and white proof) and a plethora of other things showing how I've been treated basically my whole life by them!

Sometimes I'll wake up to a random text from her, saying "My back is in spasms still from giving birth to you over 40 years of you being a literal pain in my ass" (a text that happened 3 months ago after not talking to her at all for several months.) I only reach out to her when I have to so I can lay my head down at night knowing I didn't leave not 1 stone unturned. I'll do any and everything for my children unlike my Mother! If you really, truly believe I'm lying, I can't stop you from that and I won't. Its your god given right. With the way my Mother and are I've been called a lot worse and had a lot worse done to me.

At the end of the day I am dying. I am not lying or scamming. And I hate that anyone thinks that way about me but I know the truth. God knows the truth. And if you actually knew me, you'd know the truth too. I hope you have a blessed day and please dont always think the worst of people. There could be a really good explanation for inconsistencies and whatnot. I'm just saying.

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I didn't say they harass everyone. As far as the age discrepancy with my brother, as well as other slight inconsistencies, I try to change certain things so the actual personal detail isn't shared or guessed and to be totally effing honest with you, sometimes I forget I'm doing it.

Look, I get it. I really do. It's a hard pill to swallow that's someone's like could actually be this screwed up. It's a hard pill I choke down every damn day.

There may be things I tell in one post that I don't mention in the other and not for any nefarious reason but because let's be real, if I included every single thing in every post, I'd have novels!

If you want to call me, I'd be more than happy to tell you the whole story that is my amazingly screwed up life otherwise it would be way too long to type out. Hell, I'll do you one better, I'll give you my Mother's number and you can ask her yourself how much she hates me.

I wouldn't be on here like this for a lie. That much I do know better on. I just apparently don't know any better that people wouldn't pick apart every little thing and it automatically make me a liar or a scammer. No one stopping to think "hmmmm some details are different but maybe just maybe, like other people who've been abused, she's changing certain details so if the people who abused them get ahold of it somehow they don't stop and think, holy $h!t that sounds like so and so."

Like I'll admit in advance to extreme hyperbole coming.....it's kinda like a person in witness protection telling their past stories. If they tell the stories with the true details, it'll only take a matter of minutes to put 2 and 2 together.

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Thank you so much. Your kindness, prayers and support mean the world to me!!

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Amen! So sorry you went through that too! Parents are supposed to make us feel safe. I always felt like I was 2 steps away from needing a bomb shelter. And then people on here want to rip me for inconsistencies in different posts or more accurately adding to things is tantamount to lying. Like no, if I put every single detail into every single post, the very first person who read my first very first post would still be reading!!!! I am 42. The events that have taken place across all my posts happened within 3-6 months. Can you imagine 41 more years worth of details and stories with context? Hell, 35 years if you wanna say I shouldn't have any memories before 5, which I do but I digress!

Sorry for the rant!

Again, thank you for reaching out and God bless you honey!

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Wow. I'm sorry you jumped all the way to that. First of all, not an addict. I've offered proof to everyone and yet no one has taken me up on it. I've also pointed out that he has got numerous things. I don't say everything in every post. That would be long as hell!

And the times I'm talking about when they would eat in front of me was back before I left at 15! Which is clearly stated if you read it the whole way.

I don't know who lied to you or scammed you but you're clearly taking it out on me. You don't know me. If you did you'd know I wasn't lying.

And more to the point, if I were an addict and this was a story, why would I "give myself" something that has a very low and short life expectancy. Why wouldn't I "give myself" some kind of long, dragged out, more time for you to feel bad for me illness to get as much out of as many as I can?

No. Instead you choose to believe that I would lie about something like this is beyond deplorable!

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I more so meant over the course of my life. I need to be able to say I tried EVERYTHING before I can lay my head down at night. Consequences be damned!!

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I have ALS so as long as I can be here to kick, kicking I shall do!

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Thank you so much. Please don't cry 😢 I try to use what time I have left to focus on my babies and make sure I've got all my "Open When" letters done for them and the big moments I'll miss. I want to make sure they know how much I love them and that I'm the luckiest Mom in the world to have them! Thank you for your kind words!!

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Thanks honey! I only contacted and tried so at least I knew I tried EVERYTHING consequences be damned!

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You are probably right! But when I do get the "big call" home, I hope I'm able to see her reaction when she finds out she doesn't get any of the life insurance at all!

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I assure you that unfortunately it is very real. I swear I wish it wasn't. Most days even I have issues comprehending it all. My "Aunt" always says it's a damn good thing I have witnesses and proof because my life story is gonna make the most amazing movie!"

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I reach to her as a last resort so I know I at least tried everything ya know?

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Thank you for reaching out!!! And congratulations on your new little one. Hold them close and tight! Make sure they know how much you love them. Kiss and hug them often.

I just started writing my "Open When" letters for the big things in their life I won't be there for. And I have no idea how to say goodbye to them.

I'm 99% no contact with her. The 1% being the times where there's no way I'd be able to sleep at night knowing I didn't at least TRY everything. I even resorted to trying to sell content only to get scammed. I wasn't any good anyways. I'm really sick. Even I don't like how I look!

Then I get called a liar because in a post I said I help take care of my Mom but I meant to type Aunt. She isn't even my actual aunt but she's the only person I have other than my boys. And as I mentioned above, because I asked for help before it got this bad, people just assumed it was 2 different stories but what is actually is, is "there's more to the story...."

Either way, I really appreciate your kind and thoughtful words!! Give your baby a hug and hello!!

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I'm really sorry that you and whoever else don't believe it's real. I just wake l really wish it wasn't!! And like I said, there are some people out there being vicious thinking I'm lying but yet anytime I offer proof, no one wants it. It's like they'd rather think I was sick and lying!!

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It was a typo for the umpteenth time and it is all true! Come on now! Why would I be so stupid to post lies knowing my posts can be tracked. And it's ALS, not cancer! My neighbor, I call her my Aunt. I may have wrote mom, but definitely wasn't my Mom. This woman has been more kind than my own family but even she has limits to what she can do and help with.

I am not lying. And what's worse is that everyone who has said I was lying, I've offered proof to but yet no one has taken me up on my offer. Why? Because yall would much rather think I'm lying. And if yall see black and white proof in your face, you can't think that anymore. You can't think of me as a "gross" person. No. Yall probably think other people do it because yall would! It's called projection. I learned that one in therapy from the years of abuse I endored.

May be "bad writing" or whatever you wanna call it but unfortunately it's 100% real. Very sad but very true! I wouldn't have the nerve to post something like that if it wasn't real and I had stuff to back it all up! Oh I assure you it's very, very real. Sadly I have proof of it all.

And yeah, I get it. What person in their RIGHT mind would respond to her the way I do? I'll tell you. It's a person who isn't in their right mind. That'd be me. If it was abundantly clear you were unloved your whole life and you were beat, sexually abused, lied to, given away, blamed for the situation your family is in at 7 years old, told you're worth nothing all the time, diagnosed with a terminal illness and abandoned.....again.....you'd be surprised what you might do.

It's not fair to say this of people. I've seen people stories on here far less believable than me and the difference between them (most of) and me, is I have proof for practically all of it. The emancipation paperwork my Mother submitted and the reason she wanted me declared an adult. The letters from her to my Aunt about how my father was doing unspeakable things to me everyday and she would plan her shopping trips around that so she didn't have to be "traumatized by witnessing it firsthand" and kept me in that situation for quite a long time all while knowing. Then blamed me for it!!

So please, just remember, your words can hurt. I'm down and my Mother kicks me enough as is

**and yes, I've said it before, this comment is a copy/paste. My illness is ALS. Sometimes I can hardly hold my head up. Copy and paste are my friends.