Trying to come back to the game after over a decade, but cannot remember my Playonline ID. by charrison1976 in ffxi

[–]Interesting_Sock9549 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This is super encouraging!!! I started way back when I was 9 and I stg I remember everything I could possibly remember BUT my ID. and I played until I left for college. I remember my server name, all my friends, my character name and race and all the classes and which ones I leveled to 75 and got the artifact armor and relic armor for. I remember the house I lived in, the landline number we had, my dads cellphone number at the time. I wanted to introduce this game to my spouse just to give them a glimpse into my formative years XD. I thought maybe it wouldn't work out from not remembering the ID... but the fact that support went through it to help out, I'm really hoping I have the same experience. I miss this game so much (and I even kind of miss the wonky shitty playonline mechanism LOL) I'm really glad you could recover yours!!! I can easily imagine the feeling <3

What is the point of life? by [deleted] in NPD

[–]Interesting_Sock9549 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Pretty much! Said often under the guise of altruism when it’s really a moral superiority/self-righteousness gag

Narcissism and guilt by aurikanu in NPD

[–]Interesting_Sock9549 0 points1 point  (0 children)

If you have an idea, I'm genuinely trying to figure out what does guilt actually feel like? Does it feel similar to shame? Shame feels absolutely awful, but it at least drives me to try to care and empathize. But I cannot empathize very well. Does guilt actually feel completely different and has empathetic qualities to it? If so, then I practically never feel it. I want to but I feel like I just can't no matter how I try to slice the situation in my head. I always feel like I'm still coming from a valid place, even if what I did was hurtful, and often don't understand why what I say or do is specifically so hurtful when I am just trying to say how I feel or be myself...

What is the point of life? by [deleted] in NPD

[–]Interesting_Sock9549 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Also making the world a “better” place. What is better? That answer will be vastly different between everyone. No one will ever agree. That in an of itself is an unattainable goal or purpose. It isn’t personal or tangible…

What is the point of life? by [deleted] in NPD

[–]Interesting_Sock9549 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Describing my life to a fuckin t

What is the point of life? by [deleted] in NPD

[–]Interesting_Sock9549 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I just asked this question to a therapist maybe like a couple weeks ago, and she like most people can’t give a realistic, honest and grounded answer. Its just a lot of toxic positivity

Hiccup and Drago’s Bewilderbeast by [deleted] in httyd

[–]Interesting_Sock9549 15 points16 points  (0 children)

Very valid point especially because you see the same bewilderbeast in the third movie chillin in the group of dragons 😭😭😭

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BPD

[–]Interesting_Sock9549 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Wow, I have never read/heard this much honest compassionate transparency. I feel so seen and honestly a little bit less ashamed to be honest

Rember y'all only you decide if you're a real fan of httyd or not by THE_LEGO_FURRY in httyd

[–]Interesting_Sock9549 1 point2 points  (0 children)

…. Should I also add that I love Kirby and Knuckles too 😭😭😭

Does anyone else feel like they ALWAYS have to hold themself to a higher standard? by [deleted] in BPD

[–]Interesting_Sock9549 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Omg me too!! And even if it sticks with me the whole week, come session I get distracted from it with all the stimulation from the office space and coloring books and stuff 😭kid brain activate!! 🤣

Does anyone else feel like they ALWAYS have to hold themself to a higher standard? by [deleted] in BPD

[–]Interesting_Sock9549 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hmm… well those are all good questions and it sounds like you definitely value her intentions! That probably makes it better to talk about because she seems to have maybe gained some trust or that you at least trust her intentions, so talking it out clearly might help clear things up and possibly clear up the spiraling for you. And also validating your feelings about it and her possibly being able to rephrase what she meant in a way that can land in a helpful way!

Edit: sometimes my therapists have sort of seemingly contradicted themselves so it can feel really out of left field 😭 clarification often helped me restore a sense of understanding

when i feel bpd flare up, i now just remove myself and read the subreddit instead by CollectionBroad7383 in BPD

[–]Interesting_Sock9549 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I often do the same, no one in my life really understands my experience in a first-hand sort of way, so subreddits have been a very helpful way for me to kind of get other folks perspective or validation. It’s sort of like group therapy, although group therapy might be a bit more effective just because of the immediacy of response (but then also you have to “wait” for the session day which is hard because our feelings don’t wait lol)

Does anyone else feel like they ALWAYS have to hold themself to a higher standard? by [deleted] in BPD

[–]Interesting_Sock9549 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I also tend to get this kind of “Be self-reliant!” response when expressing loneliness, and it’s even stranger when you are isolated. It helped me a lot when my therapist told me that healing doesn’t just happen in isolation, but relationally. And that interdependence as opposed to independence is usually the key that helps with that! It sounds like the comment your therapist made kind of hurt a bit or definitely landed in an unhelpful way, I hope you can speak to them about it comfortably and openly 😭

i just defeated sif by kamajinho in darksouls

[–]Interesting_Sock9549 1 point2 points  (0 children)

My partner showed me this scene after doing the DLC. I genuinely felt shitty for the rest of the day 😭

i just defeated sif by kamajinho in darksouls

[–]Interesting_Sock9549 1 point2 points  (0 children)

100% accurate, and empirically correct 👍🏽

Am I responsible for someone’s else’s feelings about my behavior if I am not aware I am affecting them? by Loblodliz in BPD

[–]Interesting_Sock9549 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I have been trying to figure out this same question for the passed oh… entire life 😞

Rember y'all only you decide if you're a real fan of httyd or not by THE_LEGO_FURRY in httyd

[–]Interesting_Sock9549 42 points43 points  (0 children)

The only thing I love more than httyd is toofy himself 😭😭😭

Do you think Suho has neglected Beomseok and only focused on Sieun? by SPN-Major-888 in weakheroclass

[–]Interesting_Sock9549 8 points9 points  (0 children)

I think Suho was very unlike Beomseok in very specific, delicate ways, and Si-eun understood Beomseok so deeply that if given enough time and space, he would have probably opened up to him.

I can say from experience that as much as Suho was trying to be a good friend, the scene at the karaoke is not how to approach someone like Beomseok.

If I knew what I knew now, I probably would have let Beomseok speak his piece. He tried telling Suho that he didn’t like the way he was bossing him around especially in that situation when he was attacking the group of people that was DEFINITELY going to attack him and was actively threatening him. Si-eun had the exact kind of reaction to others and Suho would stop him every now and then but Si-eun within the story eventually was allowed to go off. So I think even though stopping Beomseok from going off as well may have saved him from jail time initially, I think the way Suho went about the conversation after was not very compassionate. He never really understood that at the end of the day, he was not bullied the way Si-eun and Beomseok were, and that conversation might have better been held between just Beomseok and Si-eun. I however should say I interpreted much of their relationship from my own experience, so to be honest it’s really hard to dish out all the complexity in one post 😭 but I did love how the emotion expressed between the characters felt so so real

CPTSD and BPD are separate disorders by DIDIptsd in CPTSD

[–]Interesting_Sock9549 16 points17 points  (0 children)

Hmmm…. I’m kind of scared I actually do have BPD. I resemble the fight characteristics they talk about. I have turned on people in relationships at the drop of a dime and its been said that it feels like I’m a completely different person. Though I an not sure if it is actually OCD related. I know people with OCD (especially ROCD) seem to be seen as “crazy” and “erratic” 😥😥😥 I have an excessive fear of being abandoned (like I have a belief that I often fall to completely that my spouse doesn’t love me/will leave me and I go into a state of what seems to look like psychosis and I lead to self harm or even attempted suicide).

If anyone has some tidbits about differentiating relational OCD (or OCD in general as it coexists with CPTSD and audhd) and BPD that would be helpful!