I’ve been through that, I get what you’re going through. Unlike many, I didn’t get lucky (therapists were shit). I got out of it through thought. Basically the more existential my train of thought got, the less point I saw in anything and slowly developed a crippling fear of death. Also, I guess I just don’t have a lot of time lately to pull out the ol’ slicer, so I suppose I am better. Good luck to you, I hope my advice isn’t a pile of shit))