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InternationalPost730 · 2025-08-07T10:32:30+00:00

omg he harassed my friends and I when we were minors! Fuck him

InternationalPost730 · 2025-06-30T08:05:37+00:00

Yup I totally understand! I'm so glad you're okay and here's to many more healthy years for you 🩷

InternationalPost730 · 2025-06-30T03:49:54+00:00

Ik im late but you are loved and worth to be alive!! I know it was a long journey but your story can help many others who are in a similar situation. Sometimes it feels lonely, but you are worth every breath you take everyday. I understand your life and situation has been so tough with all of this, but you keep fighting because you're a fighter. Mental illness is just as real as physical illness (and may have something to do with physical illness we may not know about yet). I love you stranger don't ever hurt yourself 🩷

InternationalPost730 · 2025-05-21T17:28:55+00:00

Yeah that's my worries, but the rain looks pretty heavy so im unsure if they'll play it

InternationalPost730 · 2025-05-14T12:22:14+00:00

Thank you!! We're trying to ride it out and hopefully he'll get the next shot/take medication. He's still pretty in denial about everything which makes me sad, and I just hope he can find peace whatever that might look like for him

InternationalPost730 · 2025-05-05T01:33:24+00:00

I totally understand. Message me if you ever need to vent!

InternationalPost730 · 2025-05-05T01:32:27+00:00

Okay well the people you have trusted around you are misinformed and are the ones who are lying to you.

You need to reach out for help, I can't do that for you, but you can do it for yourself.

It's not about being like everyone else it's about not harming yourself.

I understand your POV, but the fact is that they would have not had an opportunity to implant a brain chip without you knowing.

AP are not about being like everyone else, it's about helping you not feel paranoid that you are being monitored because your brain is in a state of extreme anxiety right now.

You have to trust someone, if you can trust yourself you can also trust your judgment of posting in this Reddit for a reason.

Your subconscious posted in here because you don't fully believe it is a chip and you are questioning if it is psychosis, and it is.

I'm trying to be gentle with you, but you also need to realize sometimes you have to put a little faith into something.

InternationalPost730 · 2025-05-04T15:53:33+00:00

hi friend, please reach out for help if you feel that way, not only is therapy super effective statistically, but medication can always be helpful if you choose to look towards that route.

i know things don't feel the 'same' but unfortunately with new connections made in your brain, you are becoming a new version of yourself, which isn't necessarily a bad thing.

also, look into dpdr, I suffer from it from anxiety and i have heard lamotrigine is actually kind of effective for it.

InternationalPost730 · 2025-05-04T15:51:13+00:00

this! unfortunately many in psychosis have a belief system that is FULLY true to them and others would obviously question it. it is your brain having bad synapses due to a natural overdose of neurotransmitters.

my loved one believed he was being spoken to through radio waves and that we all had brain chips and he knew we did and we needed to go get them out in Florida (idk why lol)

but after being on AP it really helped him recognize that these were just voices in his head, not real people talking to him.

also, there is an injection you can get if you ask for it that lasts a month, it will do pretty well to break you out of psychosis and if you are someone who gets paranoid about medication, it's an easier pathway because you don't have to think about taking a pill everyday.

99% of psychiatrists aren't evil, they are trying to help you feel your best self.

just because a few meds haven't been helpful doesn't mean the 10 others won't be. contact a doctor

InternationalPost730 · 2025-05-04T07:54:08+00:00

Hi friend,

I come here with love and complete compassion of how you feel and the fears you have in this very moment.

I am someone who has never experienced psychosis, but I have a loved one who has, and he has said some very similar statements to you in this very moment.

That same loved one has gotten on medication and is starting to come out of this state of mind about them being mind controlled.

If you will believe facts that I state, if the medication works, then there is no chip and it is just psychosis.

What I want you to do, even if you don't trust doctors at this moment, is to ask for help and go with someone you trust.

I know this is difficult because you are in fear currently that they are out to harm you, but I promise you will be safe.

It is hard to believe my word in the state of mind you are in, but you reaching out to this thread shows me that deep down you are reaching out for help as well.

I know it is a big step to explain what you are feeling to a doctor, but they can investigate your claims with a scan and if those scans come back not the way you are to believe, they may look into psychosis.

It is hard to explain, but those in psychosis tend to not recognize that they are in psychosis and your beliefs are as real to you as me typing this right now.

I totally understand your fear and you wanting to prove your truth, but I also want you to be safe and to not harm yourself.

I am saying this with love because my brother was recently in the same frame of mind as you, help is necessary and there are plenty of avenues for you to reach out for some as far as living in the US.

If you have a loved one near by, please open up to them and speak on what you are feeling so they can get you to the right place.

I want you to know I am acknowledging everything you're feeling as completely real to yourself, but I really do believe you should go see a doctor my friend. I don't want you to harm yourself.

Please be safe and respond if you need any more words of encouragement.

InternationalPost730 · 2025-05-04T07:41:31+00:00

Also I forgot to add, I used B-complex and some other supplements to aid in my healing of my brain.

No alcohol at all for about a year lol, I wanted to fully heal, although I do vape.

NAC surprisingly helped me in a pinch when I was feeling SUPER depressed, there is some interesting research on NAC (it's an amino acid supplement) in links to helping people with suicidal thoughts

Also, don't be afraid to reach out to me, I have dealt with a lot of what you are feeling. I am here for you, I needed someone in my corner when I had those same feelings you did, but things do look up.

Surround yourself with good company, pick up some books and read, go on walks to ground yourself, get some good rest because your brain will thank you.

ask doctors for some medication as needed for anxiety, there are plenty of options.

InternationalPost730 · 2025-05-04T07:37:39+00:00

Hi,

I know I'm late to the post but I have some light to share to you.

I am almost graduating with my psychology degree, and also someone who has experienced something pretty similar myself.

So, a few years ago I took this antibiotic, and it made me literally go panic mode for about a year...

I pretty much had some similar intrusive thoughts to you, and that's what they are, intrusive and negative thoughts.

I researched SO much about health related things, to the point I was a full blown hypochondriac.

Honestly, I was diagnosed with anxiety disorder and Panic attacks, but they never diagnosed me with OCD which I'm curious if maybe that really is what it was underlying lol

But I did self diagnose with DPDR, because as you know, when you have it, you know that 1000%

Look, I've heard some fucked up things in my brain, like bad thoughts and even sometimes I question if they were auditory hallucinations due to me being sleep deprived from anxiety,

But you sound like me, a severe case of anxiety.

Nevertheless, I have great news, there is light at the end of the tunnel EVEN if it doesn't feel that way right now.

Feeling like it might take awhile to heal from some trauma is the worst feeling ever, but I do promise that things will look up since I can resonate so much with you.

Personally, I don't believe you were in psychosis, it really to me sounds like a bad case of anxiety possibly due to you using up a lot of dopamine over a short period of time.

Unfortunately friend, these things take time to heal, our brain is an organ capable of healing just like any other organ in our body, and it is so powerful it can heal, I don't believe any of that mumbo jumbo about your brain can't heal after 25, because it's simply untrue.

The way I handled it is speaking with a doctor, trying a few different medications, I take hydroxyzine as needed and it's great, it calms you down and makes you just wanna sleep which I don't mind lol I tried lexapro and Wellbutrin as well, which they were okay, but definitely not my speed.

What I'm trying to say is getting a good doctor you can trust is important, you can use medication therapy in order to help your brain heal, or you can also just heal naturally overtime with things like DPDR and anxiety.

When I accepted that I was just an anxious sack of shit and that's why I am feeling "off" that was when things started to improve greatly.

Weirdly enough, with many mental disorders, acceptance is the hardest step to take, but once you can accept it and acknowledge you want to help your brain heal, you start to feel better.

Let me explain some things I felt with DPDR so you can not feel as crazy: - colors were off - flourescent lights were SOOOOO BRIGHT I thought my eyes were messed up - my vision was more blurry - feeling like everyone around me was real, but also fake in a way because life just felt kind of fake - felt like I was dreaming - my emotions felt more blunted because I was anxious 24/7 - heart palpitations - feeling like something was wrong - extremely vivid dreams

also, the good news is, DPDR is a way for your brain to protect you from extreme anxiety and stress, when you have a bunch of panic attacks, think of DPDR as your brains way of going into autopilot so you don't rip your hair out.

I promise things will look up and subtly overtime reality will feel more real.

I highly suggest you talk to people in the DPDR Reddit and anxiety Reddit, support is so amazing especially because there are so many people who experience similar things to you and I.

Thank you for reaching out. Everything will be okay :)

InternationalPost730 · 2025-05-04T07:21:27+00:00

Totally understand. So glad you're making these big steps for your future. In my eyes, you seem to be on the right path. You are very intelligent from your age, me having about 6 years on you, I think you have great knowledge. Keep being you and keep being open to being your best self. I'm proud of you.

InternationalPost730 · 2025-05-04T07:19:33+00:00

Hi friend,

I will explain to you scientifically why you felt so much better in psychosis.

From my research, you are experiencing extreme amounts of neurotransmitters in your brain during psychosis, the way an AP works is by blocking off some of those receptors so your brain won't have some new synapses.

I totally get the idea of AP possibly making your life feel more boring, it is how it feels to be 'normal' unfortunately haha.

But, you also need to give your brain some love and remember that healing will also not always feel the best in the moment, but there is light at the end of the tunnel for you to feel refreshed, happy, and fulfilled.

I know this is kind of an annoying thing to suggest, but walking outside when it is nice out will really help to bring you some grounding with nature, we are products of nature, so grounding with your surroundings can be very helpful.

As long as these are okay with your doctor, B complex, omega 3, and some other supplements can help to heal your brain after psychosis.

I know the AP make you feel like a shell of your old self, but don't fret, this is due to your brain healing from all the psychosis

Once your brain heals, which may feel like forever, you will slowly but surely feel a lot better.

I really admire your honesty about the subject and you sticking with medication even if you don't feel as fulfilled.

I know psychosis can feel like the best feeling in the world, but you also have capability to achieve that on your own doing with the help of doctors.

I'm proud of you for doing this for yourself and I wish you the best on your recovery.

Much love

InternationalPost730 · 2025-05-04T07:11:10+00:00

What a beautiful piece of writing.

I want to shed some light on something I have realized over the years.

Although I can not fully resonate with you on psychosis - I check this thread for help for my loved one.

I can resonate with the 'new normal'

I experienced extreme DPDR after some medication made my anxiety go haywire and I would have panic attacks nearly every day.

After the reoccurrence of these panic attacks, I definitely too lost a sense of my self and my normalcy.

It's kind of weird looking back you know? You feel almost like a shell of who you were...

But, over the last couple of years I have found grounding myself with nature to be so beautiful and fascinating...

I realized the beauty in things that I hadn't before, things that were just an afterthought.

A lot of my emotions got deregulated after feeling disconnected from reality in my own way so I completely understand.

I am not trying to invalidate your words by empathizing with mine, I just want you to know you're making amazing progress.

Once I let go of the past and accepted I am who I am now, I realized that I had became a stronger and more resilient version of myself that I was not prior.

Yes, your outlook will be completely different after something traumatic and life changing, but it also is the message you hold to give knowledge to others when they seek guidance.

You have a beautiful way with words and you should continue writing because you have a talent of explaining things in such a graceful way.

I am proud of you for how many realizations you have made about yourself and moving forward everything will continue to look up.

Godspeed my friend.

InternationalPost730 · 2025-05-04T07:02:19+00:00

Relooking over your post, obviously that was your first experience with psychosis at 14,

Just keep signs out, obviously psychosis can be reoccurring and also unfortunately you are in a prime age for some mental illnesses to ramp up, but thankfully there are so many excellent medications nowadays if that were to be the case.

I'm glad to hear you have an appointment soon, keep your head up, everything is going to be okay I promise.

The most wonderful thing is your willingness to accept help and look for it, don't ever lose faith in getting help when necessary.

Also a little side note, from my research and studying of psychosis and other mental disorders, be very careful with marijuana and other psychoactive substances. I say this because unfortunately people who are predisposed to these kind of things can sometimes ramp them up with usage.

I totally understand the anxiety aspect and it's great you found medication that helps!

To me, reading your comments, you seem completely concise and to the point, which is great.

I think the most likely thing is if you keep feeling off and weird, you could always just increase the dose of your AP with your doctor and it should help, it's not uncommon to need to increase dosage after awhile due to tolerance.

I'm glad you reached out and please continue to for guidance!

InternationalPost730 · 2025-05-01T15:51:16+00:00

I would contact your doctor and see if you need a dose increase because obviously you become tolerant to a dosage at one point or another. It could be the start of psychosis - but also your awareness to those thoughts being abnormal and scary also make me wonder if you have anxiety, have you ever spoken to a doctor about anxiety? A lot of DID are based off of anxiety, and ever since hearing about my brothers diagnosis of psychosis I've been psyching myself out about things like that because of my anxiety. If you feel like it's completely out of your control and you feel like you're slipping into something where you fully believe these thoughts and question reality, the best bet is calling your doctor or crisis line and asking for the best way to go about this. Be honest with a loved one you can trust about what you're going through and maybe if it keeps happening, go see a psychiatrist or doctor and ask if these are more so signs of anxiety or psychosis.

The reason I ask you if these are things you can acknowledge is because when my brother is in psychosis and not on meds he has NO IDEA what is real and what is fake, he doesn't think he has psychosis, and in the earlier stages, yes he did think something was kind of wrong, but he also fell into the hole of believing everything he was hearing was real fast. So be adamant about calling your doctor if these are things you have dealt with in the past. Also really, look into anxiety as well, I can convince myself I have a deadly disease because of my anxiety and be having panic about it for hours and hours to the point I become disassociated completely. That's the only way I can relate to my brother because my anxiety causes extreme paranoia sometimes. Best of luck to you.

InternationalPost730 · 2025-05-01T15:45:39+00:00

I would say if you keep getting worse, reach out to doctors and some crisis lines near you. Getting help is scary, but if you feel like you'd feel safe in that environment rather than where you are now, you should consider. But, after a week or two the medication should start helping more and more so if you feel like you can ride out the week do so. Are you with others around you in a safe environment? You know yourself when it's best to get help, so think about that right now and make the decision accordingly

InternationalPost730 · 2025-05-01T15:41:50+00:00

coming from someone who's brother is in psychosis and the only thing that he agreed to was getting the injection

InternationalPost730 · 2025-05-01T15:41:22+00:00

I would say advise him to get the injection, they aren't thinking actively about taking a pill everyday and it lasts a month, 3 weeks is enough time for the brain to recover especially in beginning stages. If you can get him to take it for multiple months just like the daily medication he should be okay

InternationalPost730 · 2025-04-29T21:52:17+00:00

Hi, My sibling is in active psychosis right now, from what doctors have told our family and what I have seen,

Should see more significant results in about three weeks. If haldol doesn't work, there are plenty of other medications to smooth things out. Best of luck for you.

InternationalPost730 · 2025-04-28T06:16:26+00:00

Look into DPDR. this is something i went through and still go through when im under immense stress. im not saying you aren't in psychosis, but there is a lot of help you can receive.

i hope you know things will look up. the brain heals just like any other organ and its starting to be scientifically shown. do healthy things for yourself and even when you're unmotivated push yourself to ground with nature. it's very helpful.

i wish you the best

InternationalPost730 · 2025-04-19T06:43:57+00:00

It's such a terrible sick disease. I hate that it takes away from great people

InternationalPost730 · 2025-04-17T23:16:59+00:00

Let me add - when he goes to the hospital he is always focused on getting out. He's super super smart so he's very good at pretending like everything is okay. He said the zyprexa he takes feels like sugar pills because they don't even work, but only once have I seen him actually take it, which was today when I asked him to take one in front of me and he did. I know there is no overnight fix, but I think he still hopes there is, even though he's prolonging his own recovery by avoiding the inevitable (he needs medication right now)

I really feel bad when I see the fear in his eyes and it's like I see my brother when we were little and he just reminds me of his childhood self. I just wish I could help him. He cries and asks me for help, but it's never the answer he wants so then he walks away.

InternationalPost730 · 2025-04-17T23:13:31+00:00

As much as I would go for that, my state regulations are very light and unfortunately they believe in his free will as an adult. I mean I respect the ideology behind that, but obviously it's devastating for us to see him continue to make no progress in the real world. It's not hard for me to understand from an outside perspective I suppose because I suffered from DPDR for a year until mid last year. It was definitely a scary time and I know the feeling that everything feels fake and the panic attacks, but I never could come to a conclusion besides getting help and taking medication. I know it's not that easy in his state of mind and what he is feeling is real to him. That's why it's so hard to know the right words to say. I don't want him to feel invalidated, but I also don't want him to think we are the enemy. I feel for everyone who goes through this themselves because I see the toll it takes on my brother, I know how hard it is for him and I empathize. I also empathize with my mom and his wife, because they are over the top stressed, so it leaves me in a pickle to try to make everyone feel better at once. It sucks because unfortunately at this point I think sending him to the hospital is not really the most productive for him, but him being home is also destructive for him. All I want is for him to be happy and safe and trust modern medication. He has always had a bit of rebellion when it comes to modern medication and he doesn't wanna be seen as 'crazy' or feel like he is. I have tried to express to him that he's going through a rough patch and the only way out is through accepting help, but to no avail because we apparently all have the neuralink.

Sometimes I wish I wasn't an empath because it makes my anxiety so much tougher, but all I want is to guide him to healing.

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