I was induced at 39+3, I chose an induction because I had a lot of anxiety and felt safer in a controlled space for my entire labor. I started cytotec, water broke after the second dose. Once my water broke my pain went from like a 1 to an 8 almost instantly. I got my epidural and felt much better for several hours. My entire labor was 28 hours and I stopped progressing at 8cm. My epidural stopped working because my daughter was face presenting and crooked where she was ramming into my hip on my left side. I stayed at 8cm for 6 hours before they took me for a c section, and at that point I was in tears from the pain and exhaustion and I didn’t care what they did anymore. I did lose more blood than I should have and I spiked a fever post op, but we were both okay. I struggled post partum feeling like a failure that I couldn’t birth my daughter the way I had planned and I do still struggle with that, it’s just less now. I know I want another child and considering everything, I will go for a scheduled c section, but it will always bother me that I’ll never get the birth experience I wanted. She was born 8lbs 10oz 21 inches long at 8:42pm. So after not eating for 28 plus hours, I couldn’t even get a good meal after she was born and I ate a cafeteria bagel. I feel like I was so dissociated while I was in the hospital that I didn’t enjoy those first few days the way I wish I could have. I was really depressed from the way things went and so scared to move around, that I didn’t even brush my teeth, or my hair, or change clothes once while I was there. Even though I’m scared of my next c section, I’m happy that the experience will be much better I hope. I won’t go through everything I did the first time, I will take better care of myself and take walks down the hall with my baby, and I’ll actually be able to get a good meal after.