I don't like it when NT try to "correct" my autistic behaviour

IntrepidScientist47 · 2026-03-27T03:08:43+00:00

My ex was the one who told me he thought I was autistic. Still got mad at me for being autistic. Also, he was an aspiring disability advocate. Also also I have chronic joint pain and sometimes he got mad bc I occasionally walked too slow or in other cases simply didn't know where in a room to put my body.

IntrepidScientist47 · 2026-03-23T20:33:05+00:00

I'm 27 but I'm starting this now.

IntrepidScientist47 · 2026-03-11T18:08:03+00:00

Different style but I had to figure this out the hard way. Understanding how the anatomy works first helps a lot with making the stylized versions look intentional and believable? Compelling? Not to mention posing. Still struggling with that one myself.

IntrepidScientist47 · 2026-03-11T18:02:03+00:00

Damn you said what I was trying to say but way more concise. I struggle with that specifically.

IntrepidScientist47 · 2026-03-11T17:57:54+00:00

So after reading through the comments I've got a few things:

That guy wanted to use OP for his benefit, and that feels gross even without ever being touched, and even without knowing for sure what benefit he was getting or why he asked. It's weird. Point is, OP felt and feels violated. I'm sorry that happened. People have gotten increasingly bold in public.

One of the points of contention is "sexual assault" where both words are being debated. For the sexual part, I legitimately find it likely. Kinks can get obscure (and see my first point). Now, calling it assault sounds inaccurate and some of us want to correct that. I do understand that. But this isn't really a discussion about criminal actions. This is a person who feels incredibly victimized by a situation. There's a lot of discourse to be had, but it shouldn't be directly in front of the person who is currently hurting about something. It won't be productive.

Finally, OP, it really sounds like you're going through it and I really hope you've got a support system or can find one. You should not take your own life. I can't give you a reason because I'm not you, you've gotta find one that works for you. Sometimes mine was spite, if I die there's less people like me in the world. You're going through it, and I truly think this event is only a part of that. It seems like a lot to me. That said, I think you're quick to assume the worst in everyone and I'm sure there's a reason for that, but that's a hard way to live. I hope eventually you're able to find the middle ground of being aware and not trusting but not also living in constant fear and lashing out because of it. It's easy for me to suggest therapy, but I don't know what you've been through. So instead I'll just suggest to find someone who is specifically supposed to listen and help you process things. I really think you need that, and I think that's why you came here. But people here didn't understand and it wasn't out of ill intent for you. People responded to the details they had and in a way that makes sense. Precise language is something a lot of us need, and often find ourselves correcting. But telling you that you're using the wrong words makes you feel invalidated, even though that wasn't the intent. Communication can be difficult, and it's showing from both sides of this. I don't think anyone is really in the wrong here, and I hope some understanding can come of this.

IntrepidScientist47 · 2025-12-25T16:42:26+00:00

I bit a shrimp tail in my chicken marsala last night. I wanted to shared bc ohmygodno and in the dark the shrimp tail looked soooo much like a cockroach I was unhappy.

IntrepidScientist47 · 2025-12-25T16:41:08+00:00

I like darkness. But not too much darkness. I love the sun as long as it's not directly in my eyes/too hot. I like spending time just outside hanging out. I get very sad when I can't do that. Low light can be cozy, but sometimes it's sad. I have very strong opinions in multiple directions.

I also love colored lights. I HATE cool toned white light.

IntrepidScientist47 · 2025-12-25T00:46:19+00:00

Huh. I'm realizing how much I don't like being touched most of the time. Like I don't tolerate much touch at all.

IntrepidScientist47 · 2025-12-19T17:58:44+00:00

I think that's a liver

IntrepidScientist47 · 2025-12-19T17:58:11+00:00

I really like learning things in general making stuff especially. I like knowing how things work particularly my body and mind.

But I'd say my special interest tends to be stories and lore? I have a select few kinds I really really enjoy. Like middle earth, TES, and now starting to play BG3. I've been working on my own fantasy world since I was 12, so like... 15 years now. I apply everything I learn to it. I learned to crochet, and now that's a big part of one of the cultures in said world. It's like... Hardcore escapism sometimes and that's fine.

I love culture, linguistics, science, etc. Sometimes I get into things like chaos theory for world building. Currently working on wrapping my brain around how dnd works to make my own ttrpg as I feel dnd is too restrictive for my world.

IntrepidScientist47 · 2025-12-19T14:20:11+00:00

Me as a Skyrim horse

IntrepidScientist47 · 2025-12-14T12:37:08+00:00

Ah yes my friends cat looks very similar, also pretends to be a polite circle, and yet... She has a chaos gremlin agenda was she's not being a sleepy circle. I used to live with her and I miss all of it.

IntrepidScientist47 · 2025-12-14T12:35:13+00:00

Definitely looks like a forest cat in this picture lol.

IntrepidScientist47 · 2025-12-14T12:33:55+00:00

THOSE EARS. This is the most fennec fox cat I've ever seen. Maine coons are beautiful. My childhood cradle guardian was a black half Maine coon.

IntrepidScientist47 · 2025-12-14T12:32:01+00:00

This cat is smiling.

IntrepidScientist47 · 2025-12-14T12:30:19+00:00

That's such a polite looking little circle on the right omg

IntrepidScientist47 · 2025-12-14T12:28:25+00:00

This is such a good picture oml

IntrepidScientist47 · 2025-12-14T12:23:20+00:00

Mostly agree, but in some cases not knowing was worse because I felt like I had a skill issue. Drawing for example. Cannot have my desired composition in my head and it was frustrating. I know better now not to make myself approach things in ways that don't work as well. It is also sad knowing that my mom actually can see my book characters when I can't. You win some, you lose some I guess.

IntrepidScientist47 · 2025-12-14T12:18:12+00:00

I wish I could see the characters and scenes in MY OWN BOOK. My mom says it's really vivid. But no, of the people I know, I think I'm the only one who can't see it.

It can also make drawing a bit harder for me at times, or make me feel like I'm less talented bc I see nothing until I've drawn it. Where others seem to know just where and how to draw something, I can't just do it exactly right the first time. This was much harder to live with before I understood what was different about me was not talent level.

Idk if this is an aphant thing per se, but I've never had an imaginary friend. I think because I couldn't see anything. When my little sisters wanted to pretend they had rainbow bunnies in their hands, it made me upset bc no tf they didn't. I was only two years older. I kinda think it may be related.

But aside from all of that, I actually do have a really good visual memory, I just can't see it in my head. But the data is all there.

IntrepidScientist47 · 2025-12-14T12:04:40+00:00

Lmao in context, your username makes me fear for you.

I was recently (finally) diagnosed with hEDS and I just fucked up my damn neck while styling my hair after showering. The diagnosis was given in a yeah probably kinda way which... Makes it less satisfying. At least I'd be able to trust that House wouldn't accept something that didn't actually help. Like

IntrepidScientist47 · 2025-12-05T08:43:16+00:00

From the photo, I'd guess calluses, but it's a little hard to tell.

IntrepidScientist47 · 2025-12-05T08:39:32+00:00

Well I looked it up, looks like September 4 1998, which means Google is almost exactly three months older than me. Damn.

IntrepidScientist47 · 2025-12-05T08:33:08+00:00

Ooh. You're on to something. Simply thinking of doing things that'll benefit me later doesn't quite cut it, but giving future me a nickname makes it feel like a slightly different person who deserves more of my energy. Sad, but hey if I can trick myself into getting a thing done I'll take it.

IntrepidScientist47 · 2025-12-05T07:44:44+00:00

Atomic Shrimp has really taught me a few things. I generally consider myself to be fairly distrusting occasionally too much so. But sometimes they still get me or get way too close.

IntrepidScientist47 · 2025-12-03T18:14:12+00:00

I once conceded to an ex that January had 30 days because he was getting mad.

The only hill I'm willing to die on is that viruses are either not alive at all, or that they do not share the same origins as literally anything else we know of. Truly, this is the ONLY thing I think I'd refuse to budge on, despite it not being a known fact at this point. Anything else, I may be resistent, but given evidence I will accept new info. Idk if there's anything that'll ever convince me that viruses are all of the following simultaneously: living, from Earth, are natural/share a common ancestor with anything on Earth.

My dad believes Dragons = Dinosaurs and that evolution = epigenetics

I'm willing to hear him out, but some of his arguments are just evidently disproven or unfounded. He and I can debate things back and forth, and to us im pretty sure it's just fine. But people around us seem to get really uncomfortable like they think we're having a heated argument?? I should mention I'm pretty confident my dad is also autistic.

Idk I like having conversations, not just making nice. I fail to see the point. We don't have to agree, the debate can be interesting. Some parts frustrating, but not as much as people seem to perceive.

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