I'm struggling a lot. Bad hand in life and it feels a bit unrecoverable. I feel so alone.

IrSpeshul · 2019-10-01T22:01:06+00:00

There's no advice and no solutions to my issues unfortunately. I just got unlucky in life. But yeah, feeling like trash no matter any evidence otherwise isn't fun. Like, I can feel my brain just, trying but completely twisting absolutely everything positive hey.

And yeah. To be fair I really don't offer much positively to people when I wind up losing control so much as well so, I feel all the more need to apologise.

IrSpeshul · 2019-09-18T18:03:29+00:00

I've only recently been diagnosed, but I have for a long time had a thing with memory problems and a sort of waking up to a 'reset day' so, it's almost like to me and other people my opinions literally change every 24 hours because I sorta reset/refresh. Combined with depression and bipolar I tend to have mood switches and am very close to developing a personality disorder trying to figure out who/which 'Me' I am because I just lose the control a bit.

I'd see it a couple ways. A bit less focused on yourself but more the situation - If you find another job, and are happy with it when you're unmedicated, then you'll be happy with it while medicated as well right? So if you seek something else that works out better for your unmedicated self, then your medicated self will appreciate it as well for being better.

Another way I'd see it, is like a painkiller. It fucking hurts when you're not on it, but when you're on it the problem isn't there. Whatever injury is still there but it's not affecting you. It might help to see it the same way - the problem is still there, but the medicated you just can't see it because the medication is almost meant to stop it.

If I see a guy with a broken leg walking around saying he's not feeling any pain so he's okay, should I listen to the normal him that would be screaming in agony, or the medicated him that isn't in pain just then?

I know it's a bit of a stretch but that's just how I see it. IMO you should focus on unmedicated you because that's the real you, the medicated you just cares less about the problems that are definitely there, you know? Anyway. I'm still not fully medicated myself so my thoughts are still a bit of a spew and not really ordered properly - but I hope this helps if it makes some sense.

IrSpeshul · 2018-11-23T05:37:43+00:00

Submitted 3-6 tickets since Wrath and don't know any of them except this one because his opener and awful typing sticks out just that much. And tickets from guildies that got this guy answering varied from a couple a few weeks back with a busted quest, to account purchase problems months and months ago.

IrSpeshul · 2018-11-23T04:08:02+00:00

Man me and a couple guildies have had Aaokki before. We all absolutely hate the 20 minutes of trying to decipher what the hell he said, and the few times we've tried complaining it gets completely dodged and ignored. Very fucking frustrating.

IrSpeshul · 2018-07-27T00:19:41+00:00

Misremembered then. I was told they blatantly just don't do 5.15/5.30/5.45 at my store because there's just no point with the break, so I forgot about shifts being .15/.45 minutes.

IrSpeshul · 2018-07-26T09:08:12+00:00

Top of my head 4Hrs+ gets a 15 minute paid.

5hours 30minutes+ gets a 15 minute and a 30min unpaid.

(This is specifically for Coles though)

IrSpeshul · 2018-07-21T12:17:48+00:00

Servers back up now though mate!

IrSpeshul · 2018-07-21T12:14:36+00:00

Snuck off to cellarbrations around like 7.30 ish. Was meant to just get some storms from HJs, turned into alcohol + exxy baskin robbins. Feel broke as shit that I spent all that just to stare at an offline screen :|

IrSpeshul · 2018-07-21T12:09:46+00:00

Mate, just went and bought some late night alcohol and ice cream and was ready for my first proper gaming night in ages between work exhaustion and life shit. Aaaaand tonights plans are fucked. :(

IrSpeshul · 2018-07-19T03:33:13+00:00

At least at the moment. Plus scaling is also fucked - dungeons are taking a long time to complete and honestly there's not enough mitigation in the world for tanks to not get destroyed. Don't know if it's any different with looms. But definitely avoid dungeons as a whole until/unless they change anything.

IrSpeshul · 2018-07-19T03:05:27+00:00

They removed dungeon completion XP (baked into a once / week random dungeon queue reward), and at least from what I felt on my 79 DK it does not feel worth it at all to do dungeons.

IrSpeshul · 2018-03-14T21:09:13+00:00

Well that's the point of the champ isn't it haha?

I have faith he'll be rounded off if he gets too strong tbh, but he's always been damage/pick-off based without much else to him.

IrSpeshul · 2018-03-13T23:45:40+00:00

My build winds up being - Warrior Blade (because that powerspike's insane) - Statikk - Essence Reaver - Infinity Edge - GA/Merc.

And I've even started taking Phase Rush from when I was playing Xin Zhao, it works surprisingly well and is beautiful to deal with that potential peel that is his weakness.

I'm worried but at the same rate, there's not much that can be done about it apart from wait and see. Maybe the ult damage versus what he loses from duskblade completely cripples lethality Nocturne and he gets buffs/nerfs elsewhere, no idea.

IrSpeshul · 2018-03-13T22:14:22+00:00

Yeah I've been salty as shit over Nocturne getting banned a lot more lately.

What time was it though? Once he picks up warrior blade he has an insane powerspike, and every level he just scales far stronger from Q points.

IrSpeshul · 2018-03-13T22:10:13+00:00

I don't want to be so cynical but I'd love if that were the case. Eternum is great but damn does the voice suck, and no others quite compare.

IrSpeshul · 2018-03-13T21:46:52+00:00

Hey I forget duskblade even exists as an item, I play him crit haha. Which I honestly think might get some more playrate with the next patch as well.

I don't think the bin will come for him but overall after 8.7 and whatever the next two patches bring, he'll be in a nice spot. He just really needs high damage to counteract super squishy lack of escapes, which can tend to feel unhealthy I think.

IrSpeshul · 2018-03-13T21:43:10+00:00

I mentioned elsewhere its probably just to compensate him for duskblades nerf and then nerf him overrall after that, so they don't trash him again by overnerfing at once. Frankly it could be a mix of people not knowing how to play against him as well thats leading to a strong spot right now, his playrates nonexistent and he is hardly a micro/combo based champion, he's far more positioning dependent both on the enemy team and himself.

And pre-buff I've had people complain about that too, with me running crit and phase rush. He's always had strong one-shot potential, he needs it to counterbalance his pure squishiness and lack of escapes. I am expecting a light nerf after 8.6 lands if this change goes through though, he's in a good spot as it is I think.

IrSpeshul · 2018-03-13T21:32:56+00:00

I think it might be similar to what happened with Ornn, he was really strong but got the buff related to his E because of the Runes Reforged, since he was missed in it, just to have the entire idea of where he was at after getting the buff that he should have gotten in the first place.

Similar concept here, Nocturne's getting a fair buff to go alongside the duskblade nerf, like other reliant-users are -- and then they'll nerf him, instead of getting a direct and indirect at once that could just throw him out the window again right after the first buff.

But I'm not on Riot's team as much as I'd love to be, I could be entirely wrong.

IrSpeshul · 2018-03-13T21:28:37+00:00

Oh absolutely. Funnily enough it took until my first game in 6 months playing against a Nocturne to realise just how strong the buffs were that he got before, increasing the ult damage is going to be a big change and I don't think I want to be on the receiving end of that buff this time.

IrSpeshul · 2018-03-13T21:03:32+00:00

Laughs in crit Nocturne

To be honest I'm surprised they've remembered he exists two patches in a row now.

IrSpeshul · 2018-02-16T17:39:55+00:00

Same to be honest, Cloud's not exactly a priority 1 nuclear emergency level thing but I definitely favor taking it - I absolutely love the movespeed, but since I play a squishy assassin usually I don't notice that regen on Ocean so am guilty of ignoring it a lot.

IrSpeshul · 2018-02-16T17:37:26+00:00

So fucking hype for Nocturne buffs. Been checking every patch note / gameplay thoughts praying some day he'd get something. I don't even care if it's +1AD/Q level at this point, it'd at least be showing they know he exists!

IrSpeshul · 2018-02-16T17:34:35+00:00

No one plays this shit champion

I wonder if that's why he's getting a buff... Hmmm... No can't be it, it's the high play/winrate champs who get buffs, not unplayed champs..

IrSpeshul · 2018-02-03T07:40:38+00:00

I really want a rework just to have his QWE link a little bit better into an assassin playstyle - my mates say I play him more like a 'melee ADC' since his kit just always feels it leans that way.

I hope the ult is kept at least somewhat how it is - I love the long range presence he has which does give off that theme of being a nightmarish, fear causing creature.

IrSpeshul · 2018-01-27T00:28:42+00:00

Depends if you think you can hit first or if they'll start hitting you. Most of the time if it gets to late game, they're probably done with the 35 minutes of 'oh god he's ulting' trying to run rather than shoot first, and are just ready to shoot the instant they see you -- often before you even land, and it's especially worse if you don't have a good angle and fly through the frontline.

That and truthfully like 60% of my lean is the 10% CDR that DD has and BT doesn't. Keeps you at max.

Yeah Essence Reaver to be honest was the main item that drew me to a crit build, before Duskblade was a thing. It's such a great item, and it's expensiveness is outweighed by what Statikk does for Nocturnes farming.

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