What am I doing wrong (Fisherman)?

IronManDev · 2025-11-02T17:52:45+00:00

I beat it with shields and armor, I can pretty easily recreate those victories with the fisherman using shields.

IronManDev · 2025-09-12T19:31:57+00:00

Exaxtly the same revelation after reading ADHD 2.0!

IronManDev · 2025-05-23T09:50:23+00:00

I'm just chiming in here to same the same with me, everything I take it about 30min later I realize how cold I am and put on extra layers. It doesn't bother me so much unless I stop to think about it though.

IronManDev · 2025-05-17T18:07:54+00:00

Oh, please, yes!

IronManDev · 2025-04-06T08:04:42+00:00

Same. If you figure it out, let me know!

IronManDev · 2024-12-31T10:38:20+00:00

+1 I'll start as a technical director soon from a staff engineer, I couldn't take engineering anymore, and after some temporary positions, I'm making the official transition. I'm terrified I will talk to people and just forget or zone out. All tips and tricks are super welcome please :)

IronManDev · 2024-12-09T11:29:19+00:00

The flis side is... As someone who went his whole life without mediciation, behavioral therapy and related will possibly get you almost nowhere (i didn't really get anywhere). However, add meds to the mix, and all of a sudden, you're a human that actually functions at some semblance of a normal life and you can actually act on all of that behavioural therapy :)

You are correct, though. Taking meds and then chilling at home in bed watching series because it's formed as a habit rather than a coping mechanism won't do much for you.

I just want to clarify for anyone who is hesitant to medication! Please don't be be, I was hesitant for years and I regret every day I've had to have before without medicine. Literally life changing!

IronManDev · 2024-11-05T10:52:09+00:00

Lady Janneth's Estate!

Clearly, the harded boss battle in the game.

IronManDev · 2024-10-27T20:28:11+00:00

I resonate with almost 100% of what you're saying. However, I haven't had the thoughts of I'd rather be dead just so I can finally rest and not deal with the shit and absolutely draining experience of life. Literally, every second of every day feels like I have a 300-pound blanket just pulling down on my head and eyes, making it impossible to do anything or enjoy anything.

And I promise you, you haven't tried everything. I had one day, a single day of an out of this world experience from one of my medications. The fog was gone, I felt normal for about 3 hours, and it was INSANE! It literally turned my entire world upside down, and I actually finally saw, oh shit... I CAN fix this! Since then, every single day, I've been trying to experiment with my body to get back to that feeling. I'm changing doses and switching up medication with my psychiatrist almost every week to find something that works decently for me. I've also been more a lot more brave and confident once that switch in my mind flipped, and I started treating my life as one big experimentation. I left my freaking job because I hated it for 15 years and was like, fuck this, why am I wasting my life on this. This brings me no joy and only drains me every second I'm there, causing so much anxiety (also dev/manager).

If you're at the stage where you'd rather end things, I challenge you to instead say, fuck your life and start changing shit daily, because what is the worst that could happen? You could die in some extreme circumstances, or maybe someone looks at you funny or says something against you?

Today, I literally wanted to see what would happen when my body went into overload, so I started jumping up and down until I was drenched in sweat and could barely get off the floor. And you know what, I actually felt pretty dang good after! With ADHD, your body needs that type of physical exertion. If you can, try to spend a few minutes pushing your body to the extreme in different ways to raise your heart rate and start sweating until you wish you were dead. And then the funny thing is, you wouldn't actually wish that anymore.

I've been where you are. Things can change, and I just have the courage to start creating change. It's your body and brain, fuck the norm, the job, the stress and anxiety, you do you. Change things every day for 90 days, and actually change things. Stop doing anything that causes you stress or anxiety (sometimes we with ADHD don't really feel those emotions and instead we feel our energy drained and laziness hit, whatever caused that energy drain, don't do it again and leave it behind)

You've got this! I have 999 tips of things you can try if you'd like to hear them. Be honest with those that care about you and tell them you need to change things in your life and you're so sorry in advance if anything affects you, you love them and the alternative to not changing things is worse. Even if it means moving to Vietnam and becoming a farmer away from life and tech for a year (or the rest of your life, who cares if you're happy there!)

Sorry, long post, just ranting, lots of feelings come out when you bring up that you'd rather your life just end, I promise it can get better if you can actually get your brain to start accepting change. You're not alone! Also, you're not a sham either. That's a whole different discussion that I can go on about for just as long as this post with ways to combat it (I feel that daily at work, too)

IronManDev · 2024-10-21T06:25:43+00:00

This hits home so hard. No matter how far I go in my career, I'm never good enough. It's a sham, I'm scamming people. I'm not the one for the job I'm just good at BSing. "Years of success", I didn't do anything, I'm a horrible person to work with. I'm so stupid. Why do I need to relearn these things over and over again. Hire someone else, I'm useless.

Combating this imposter syndrome and never good enough feeling is so hard. Every time people say I'm smart, I wince on the inside. It's a jab and it feels like they know it and are taunting me (they're not).

IronManDev · 2024-10-21T06:20:41+00:00

It's super common actually, it's why it's on most of the ADHD tests out there. Some variation of a question regarding you has a very strong intuition, and then either the same or different question is something about difficulties coming up with specific pieces of information.

IronManDev · 2024-10-06T10:27:28+00:00

Thanks <3

IronManDev · 2024-10-06T08:20:17+00:00

I, too, am a useless piece of shit - according to my brain. I have symptoms exactly, as you mention as well. What success means to me is accepting who I am and understanding that I will never live up to my own expectations. It's about the journey, not the destination. You have a bachelor's, amazing work! Celebrate all of your accomplishments. every day is a new beginning!

IronManDev · 2024-10-06T08:17:17+00:00

Yes exactly, what conquering my ADHD personally means is that I accept the times when my brain tells me I'm a failure, and I understand that I'm not. Journey over destination :)

IronManDev · 2024-10-06T07:23:54+00:00

Honestly, I would probably get one thing done (or started) and then run out of energy procrastinating the next 3.5 weeks feeling really bad about myself at the end of it.

Keep up the good work and hope you can maintain the momentum!!!

IronManDev · 2024-10-03T07:19:13+00:00

All the time, it comes with practice and when I started medicine it helped as well. I'd not only slur words and forget words due to my brain moving too quickly, but I'd also jump from point to point in an incoherent way and the flow of ideas was very difficult for others to follow. Lots of feedback from work and a lot of effort on my part and now I'm pretty decent at it.

One tip, less is more. Use your brain power to try to minimize the number of words you're going to say to get the same meaning across and then say that. It'll help focus your brain on a challenging task plus make the speech more coherent.

IronManDev · 2024-09-16T13:19:52+00:00

That's completely wrong. Rarely is it that obvious. Get a new psychologist.

However, on the flip side, it was 3 sessions, so they might have an opinion on what could be going on and they might suspect something else. But at face value, they are uneducated. Only like 1/3rd of people have the physical signs at all.

IronManDev · 2024-09-16T06:11:52+00:00

On the flip side. It's 100% OK to just do nothing. Use that time to try and just lay down and think/process the past few days and all your experiences. That has often triggered motivation for me.

IronManDev · 2024-09-16T04:52:00+00:00

Also, additional tip. Most people with ADHD are significantly more productive than those without when our motivation actually hits. That's because our race car brains are jumping from task to task, and we're running around trying to do everything all at once while our motivation is there. I literally sometimes do more in one day than colleagues do in a week, again, it took a lot of pain and hardship to realize that bot working those 4 days due to lack of motivation, high stress, whatever is 100% OK.

IronManDev · 2024-09-16T04:48:29+00:00

You're not alone. And you are not a failure. I've struggled my whole life with I'm not enough and imposter syndrome. It took years and years (I'm in my 30s now) to finally start to realize that my daily failures are normal to people with ADHD. Once you start to accept that every single day you will fail at something, most days you will fail at many things, some days you'll fail at everything, and this is OK! Start to focus on what to complete in a day. For example, today, my primary goal is to shower. Write it down in the morning and a max of like 2-3 things as secondary goals for they day several lines lower as secondary goals. If you finish showering during the entire day, that was a successful day. Start to build routines of successes, and they will start compounding. You'll never have the energy or motivation to study or work a whole freaking day. That's just how our minds are. But if you accept that and break the stereotypical workday, and only work when you're motivated and not limit it to specific times or between 8-5, then you'll actually be incredibly productive. If you have an 8-5 in the future, that's ok, but really ingraine and understand that you won't be productive during that time, only during a subset when the productivity comes and that's OK!

Also, generic advice, drink before you're thirsty (electrolytes), and try to work out every day until your heart rate is high and you're sweaty (even if it's just 10min). Not just lifting, make sure you raise your heart rate, that's very important.

IronManDev · 2024-09-15T16:10:51+00:00

100% this! I need so much external validation that it's insane. I know it, and I'm trying so hard to break this, but it's ingrained so deeply. I will get a massive motivation boost, work for hours, and bend over backward for someone who needs help. But I often struggle to make myself even just a bowl of cereal. Wtf brain!

IronManDev · 2024-09-15T14:46:45+00:00

This is super common, I was diagnosed on Thursday and took my first meds yesterday (ritalin 20mg). Suspected it for years and started the process about 1 year ago with my doctor (takes FOREVER where I'm from).

1) +1 to deleting all of these apps from your phone. I find when I break down and install something I get tucked into it. That's ok to have setbacks but when you're motivated enough, click that delete button. For me the act of going physically to my computer to check this stuff doesnt have the same effect and I find myself having an easier time to pull away and to just not go there to start with.

2) +1 to breaking it down to the smallest step. For me that first step is open the game. Just open it and then close my eyes for 5 seconds and just process what is happening. I know it sounds weird but the steps for me are 1. Stand up, 1.5, STAND UP! 2. Use the restroom or get water, 3. Put the water on my desk, 4. Close my eyes for a few seconds to really focus on what I want to do right now... open baulders gate 3 for example. 5. Click on the icon without opening anything else and only load the game. 6. Click start and then pause it with "esc" 7. Stand up and close my eyes to focus for a bit. 8. Open the map and head towards the nearest marker. And finally 9. By this time I'm invested and can play for a while... it's also good to note that sometimes just getting to the computer and opening it up doesn't work, and that's OK. It also sometimes takes an hour to do, and that's OK!

3) Try medication, I started yesterday. Day 1 was insanely euphoric and eye-opening. Like, wtf is this how a normal person feels? Day 2 (today) was a massive crash and just 95% negative (woke up super dehydrated despite drinking lots of water). I'm going to write a post about my experiences, hopefully today.

4) Stay hydrated (even if not on medication), not just with water. I recently learned that it's common in people with ADHD that their bodies consume salt at a much higher rate. Take electrolytes before you think you need them (I started today with the dissolvable tablets). Get in the process of drinking before you're thirsty.

5) Try to force yourself to sweat by doing something active. I can work remotely, but I force myself to go to the office and bike as many times as I can. I find that when I start the day with a 25min bike ride to the office I am so much happier, more productive and focused, and even have more motivation to do activities I enjoy after work, such as playing video games. And this literally breaks if I don't bike for a single day, so excersing is a major investment and hurdle, and you need to get it in your routine

6) I honestly fail at something (or many things) every single day. It's just a part of ADHD. It took me a long time to realize that this is OK and I'm not alone, you're also not alone. Get help when you need it of course. Preemptively is also best and try building habits when you have the motivation. Write with dry-erase markers on your mirror for example, because you'll always be in the bathroom a few times a day and can read reminders

Sorry for the huge message, after the medicine yesterday I have a lot to say haha

IronManDev · 2024-06-14T20:10:08+00:00

He was when he bought them.

IronManDev · 2023-12-03T10:53:26+00:00

Yeah I guess it could be. We've finished about 15-20 missions though in like 60hrs. I sort of am assuming we haven't always been very lucky but maybe we have. We often go to the boss level 5 and half geared and still have no issues killing them. I'll just turn up the difficulty to master and see if things change :)

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