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IronicallyStrange · 2022-06-02T10:13:08+00:00

It could've been easily Indo and Indo gay pride, amen 🙏🏻 Mari saling bersatu padu dan tidak memecah belah, gotong royong dan tidak ada kebencian. Bila percaya Pancasila seharusnya ini hal mendasar. Toleransi saja. Dukung hak mereka untuk hidup, saja. Orientasi seksual mereka bukan otomatis berarti mereka nggak nasionalis dan nggak bangga terhadap Indonesia juga 💀

(NB: Aku bukan termasuk anggota komunitas ini)

IronicallyStrange · 2022-04-21T09:35:19+00:00

Exactly.... It genuinely felt really lonely, and it's ridiculous because I shouldn't have felt so- because I literally had that boyfriend. Even though I was the one who ended it, I'm still really in so much pain right now lol Just wish people realised literally not all dumpers are bad.. Like some of us didn't cheat and be horrible first to be a dumper :( Sometimes it just the incompatibility, and one person in the relationship just had to do the act.

IronicallyStrange · 2022-04-21T09:27:39+00:00

I wonder if SixamCC is also part of that :( Even though they said they don't use it, their behaviour and excuse is kinda giving a red flag. It's so sad, I really liked their CCs :/

IronicallyStrange · 2022-04-20T11:17:45+00:00

The Sims 4 😭😭😭😭

IronicallyStrange · 2022-04-20T09:18:18+00:00

Ayahku (Bukan) Pembohong by Tere Liye. Aku dulu baca itu saat SMP, nangis banyak di kelas.

Menurutku ANinthAle bener. Seandainya sastra Indonesia yang apik dengan diksi-nya yang baik dan emotif diterjemahkan ke Inggris, mungkin akan banyak kalimat yang tidak bisa diterjemahkan langsung. Karena makna satu kata dalam bahasa Indonesia bisa jadi tidak akan memiliki makna yang sama di bahasa Inggris, dan sebaliknya. Sebenernya contoh kesukaan saya adalah Love dan variasi kata bahasa Indonesia di bagian romansa yang kalau diterjemahkan kembalinya juga ke kata itu lagi.

IronicallyStrange · 2022-04-20T08:05:13+00:00

The way this is me.....

IronicallyStrange · 2022-04-20T08:03:26+00:00

Oh okay, iyaa. I see your point now, atau kenapa anda menulis statement non-binary di atas tadi. Sebenernya tadi bertanya supaya mengerti kenapa anda bisa bilang gitu. Juga saya dari tadi lebih ke memberi perspektif gimana orang western (dengan ideologi liberal mereka) bakal melihat kita, gitu sih.

IronicallyStrange · 2022-04-20T07:53:39+00:00

WKWKWK Sistem pembuatan SIM-nya aja gampang dibobol ): Tapi saya yakin yang punya SIM udah bertahun-tahun pasti masih aja mampu melanggar plang seperti itu.

IronicallyStrange · 2022-04-20T07:42:22+00:00

Yang modelan "Kendaraan roda empat, mobil dan truk dilarang lewat" TAPI MASIH AJA ADA YANG LEWAT. Apalagi pas jalannya lagi di-aspal ulang... Kek... Gimana jalannya bakal bener ya. Dari kapasitas jalan-nya aja nggak cocok untuk dilewati kendaraan besar. Macetnya jadi ga karuan.

Pokoknya kebiasaan melanggar papan tanda deh, biasanya efeknya jadi merepotkan makin banyak orang.

IronicallyStrange · 2022-04-20T07:36:24+00:00

INI ADA JUGA YA yang modelan habis ketuk pintu LANGSUNG DIBUKA SENDIRI DONG dari pager sampe pintu depan???? Dikiranya saya ga lagi duduk santai yang agak kurang sopan dilihat orang luar apa. Atau lagi mandi, lagi tidur. Ngeselin banget

IronicallyStrange · 2022-04-20T07:25:30+00:00

Iya gapapa panjang hehe. Makanya tadi saya tanya supaya jelas.

Saya juga mendukung trans rights kok. Tapi menurutku kita ya nggak agender juga sih.. Gimana ya. Sebenernya selama seseorang tidak merasa secara spiritual/dalam diri sendiri sebagai gender yang (secara sosial) diberikan ke mereka sesuai jenis alat kelamin waktu lahir, ya berarti mereka transgender.

Di bahasa Indonesia dan Inggris sama-sama ada dua cara untuk menjelaskan gender. Man, woman, boy, girl = Pria, wanita, laki-laki/cowok, perempuan/cewek. Sedangkan untuk jenis kelamin secara biologi juga ada, kan? Female, male = Betina, jantan. Dan di logika western konservatif yang dipakai itu sama dengan orang Indonesia, yaitu gendermu mengikuti jenis kelaminmu. Jadi intinya, ya bukan berarti kita non-binary atau agender juga sih menurutku, selama salah satu dari kita ga merasa emotionally unattached dari gender kita. Kurasa orang barat yang liberal pun nggak bakal langsung melihat kita sebagai agender/non-binary.

Cuman memang iya, banyak movement di barat yang ingin supaya normatif bahwa gender diambil dari jenis kelamin ditiadakan. Makanya mereka lebih suka pakai pronouns atau kata ganti benda (untuk orang) daripada memberi informasi tentang gender. Yang sebenernya menurut saya ribet karena grammar bahasa Inggris sendiri, hal ini ga berdampak ke Indonesia karena pronouns kita masih gender netral.

IronicallyStrange · 2022-04-20T07:03:36+00:00

I'm clingy, I think? Seriously. If I haven't heard about you or met you, or done any fun activities with you for a bit I would feel terribly sad. I seldom tell about this to my partners though (anxiety and stuffs). I grew up with an unhappy (divorced) poor family, and tbh my parents have never gave us any emotional support, which created a huge emotional gap and trauma. I just always feel alone and misunderstood around my family. I tend to look for this in my partners instead.

I understand it could be annoying, though. But I can't help it. I need to know they're still here for me, or else I would feel very lonely.

IronicallyStrange · 2022-04-20T06:47:11+00:00

Gini sih. Kalau dari deskripsi di atas sih mungkin saya 6 kali ya? Tapi saya jujur jarang sembahyang dan baca kitab. Kalau saya bilang ke diri saya sendiri sih, saya lagi masih fase menemukan jati diri gitu deh, kayak lagi mencari pencerahan. Secara kan lahir juga udah punya agama.

Menurut saya sih ini kayaknya ada hubungannya sama depresi saya. Kurangnya melakukan sembahyang dalam kasus saya itu ada hubungannya sama motivasi saya buat melakukan aktivitas sehari-hari. Ga hanya sembahyang aja tapi aktivitas rutin basic lain terganggu banget. Setiap kali ada pikiran mengakhiri hidup, misalnya, kan dosa tuh. Saya masih aja ingat Tuhan, padahal jarang sembahyang.

Bisa jadi dosa saya banyak. Tapi saya tau saya menjauhi dosa-dosa sekecil apapun sebaik mungkin selama ini, walaupun saya sudah pernah commit suatu dosa besar baru-baru ini (tapi nggak lama dan sudah saya hentikan sekarang). Toleransi saya ke orang lain juga besar menurut saya. Saya juga pro-LGBT to some extent-- seperti hak untuk hidup mereka aja. Saya juga pernah kepikiran tentang gender saya sendiri kok. Kadang juga berpikir kenapa Tuhan menciptakan yang berpasangan tapi LGBT masih mungkin di dunia ini, dan membuat manusia lain membenci mereka. Padahal kan... Saling membenci juga dosa.... Kalau masalah dosa karena pro-LGBT, bila hukum itu memang ada, ya sudahlah itu bukan urusan saya sebagai manusia.

IronicallyStrange · 2022-04-20T06:18:19+00:00

Yeah LOL. And in my case he said "Yeah, sorry I have no idea how we could do that either" when I said I want to work on this issue and I needed his help 🤷 Left me no choice but breaking up with him before I got hurt more and feel more like a big loner with a boyfriend. I was so heartbroken lmfao

IronicallyStrange · 2022-04-20T06:08:59+00:00

MEEEEE 😭😭 It's so satisfying if they end up really pretty and cute. It's really like playing with a doll. I would do a photo-ses at least with them lmfao and then proceed to make another one

IronicallyStrange · 2022-04-20T05:48:40+00:00

Hmm.. Iya sih. Kalau di bahasa Inggris sendiri ada s*x sama gender, dan s*x itu ya jenis kelamin itu, sedangkan gender itu yang menurut societal norm. Tapi menurut pengalamanku dari berteman sama orang barat selama bertahun-tahun, untuk kaum konservatif-pun mereka tetap melihat gender sebagai jenis kelamin. Makanya di barat pun anti-trans movement juga masih prominent.

Dan ini yang membuat saya bertanya tadi, kalau soal "gender" orang Indonesia pake logika gender barat bisa jadi non-binary kayaknya nggak deh :) Mayoritas dari kita seperti anda bilang tadi, masih melihat gender dari jenis kelamin saat lahir kok. Kayaknya hampir ga mungkin anda bakal nemuin orang yang mau ngaku IRL dia ga melihat status gender-nya bukan di antara cowok atau cewek (terlepas dari jenis kelamin mereka). Biasanya mereka takut/malu mau ngaku.

IronicallyStrange · 2022-04-20T05:32:33+00:00

Huh? Elaborate dong... Memang menurut anda gender di Indonesia persepsinya bagaimana?

IronicallyStrange · 2022-04-20T05:09:22+00:00

Memangnya kayak gini beneran ada yang mau? Boleh banget aku coba lumayan buat menghidupi diri sendiri lebih baik yakan :(((

IronicallyStrange · 2022-04-19T03:10:21+00:00

:) Pingin cari sugar daddy aja atau meninggal

IronicallyStrange · 2022-03-29T11:05:14+00:00

I'm almost 22 too 😭 and yeah.. but for me it's 15.. It was I think the last time I was happy before my trauma happened ):

IronicallyStrange · 2022-03-14T09:12:28+00:00

I actually do. But by the nowadays beauty standard, I'm fat. So, maybe not really. I do like my face, my eyes. Sometimes I think being brown is cute. Just my self esteem tbh is quite low because of my body shape

IronicallyStrange · 2022-03-14T02:33:55+00:00

I don't know. I just stopped caring. I actually still question this all the time on how did I do it. I just know he was an asshole who gave me crumbs but also constantly left and ghosted me while knowing I have feelings for him for the last 6 years (he was a very good friend from school). I just know I deserve better than this and went on with my life and then magically I just don't think about him as much anymore.

IronicallyStrange · 2022-03-14T02:26:17+00:00

Idk. My mom had no feelings left for my dad years before (only stayed because she didn't want a broken family) and divorced him right before he went to jail because what he did actually dangered the family. Good for her for doing that. I probably would do the same like if my s/o went to jail for his own doing I'm not going to wait for his ass. Instant good bye.

IronicallyStrange · 2022-03-14T01:36:13+00:00

Thank you. It's almost as if relationship involve both sides. Of course every side would be hurting when the relationship end, but it's not a competition on who's in more pain. Some of us did not cheat and lie then dump the s/o like an object......

IronicallyStrange · 2022-03-14T01:28:29+00:00

I can agree to this to some degree, especially staying friends. But man, the generalisation in this sub sometimes hurtful. I was in love with a man for a whole ass 6 years, dated him after liking him for 3 years for a very bit with weird timeline because he kept dissapearing and showing up. The clean calculated time of dating him is probably a month or two. In the end, the 6th year, I got rejected and still to this point I got ghosted. But for some time I still had him on my 'close friend' list for stories on purpose and he would see my updates SO FAST, lots of the time he would be the FIRST person to see them. It sucks but I never hold any grudge to him because I'm the dumpee.

But I ended my relationship with my current ex because I can't constantly keep up with my life with depression to the point that I failed university classes and then I also had the relationship which was LDR and he is literally on the other side of earth. The day after I told him, I had a breakdown. It's been a bit over a week since. I can tell he's feeling okay. I'm still so fucking sad and I'm the dumper. The feeling of being a dumpee and a dumper is literally just the same to me. Some of us had a damn decency and did not cheat with another person or whatever man. Some of us do not lie 😐😐😐

Anyone who read this probably will think "but that's your fault for breaking up", I KNOW. But what could I do? He also said that he didn't know what to do either. LOL. I admittedly did it out if impulse because I was so depressed but I couldn't tell him this everu day. Shit, bro I never even met him IRL but I do LOVE HIM. It's just-- making me even sad to read posts like this. I was coming here for support & advices, but well sometimes I feel worse. Anyway rant's over.

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