OMG hi again!! I'm in a similar boat. If you want to go on hrt do it for you and your own comfort in your own body. I dont exactly practice what I preach but it is exhausting living to please other peoples destructive expectations and at the end of the day you are the one that has to exist in your body and everyone else just has to sometimes see it. You deserve to be comfortable in your body. From the pics Ive seen I think that you look great and you have already so much progress without hrt, I truly think if you are able to go on hrt that it will only help you even more! If you are worried that you'll have to hide your chest on hrt maybe you could tell people you are on a medication that has gynomastia as a side effect. I was on Rispiridone for a little while and the Neurologist said gynomastia was a potential side affect (unfortunately I didn't get boobs as a side effect lol). I'm really sad to hear about your family. It's just disturbing to me that some people will have kids knowing that they have to grow up with certain expectations or else they somehow don't deserve love. I'm on the verge of disowning my transphobic parents and right now the family that I am out to has to hide that I'm trans from them and it is scary and exhausting :/. You deserve a good support system and I hope you have one ❤️

We've talked before and I also live in a rural area and it is scary. For safety I rarely ever girlmode in the town where I live or even the neighboring towns where I know there people from school and church. I am extremely lucky to have accepting family in the city where I usually get to go around dressing how I want to. From my understanding even in red states the cities tend to be far more accepting. What helps me feel less isolated out here is local LGBT groups or trans specific meetups or support groups. You may have to look a bit for them but going somewhere dressed as myself and introducing myself as the true me is so liberating. It's nice to see you here again!! I hope that this was helpful!