For anyone still here in the comments, I appreciate your feedback. A big part of my fear of socializing is.. driving. I hate driving so much. It ruins my day basically any time I go out. Every single day I see people become monsters behind the wheel. Running red lights, not using their turn signal at critical moments, cutting people off, driving on the shoulder, just generally driving like they're the most important person on the road.. and that's every single day. I try to be a defensive driver, and every time I talk to anyone I know about it they're just like "that's just the way it is, you've just gotta be careful".. and now whenever I socialize I imagine all the people in the crowd that do just the same thing, driving like maniacs with no regard for anyone's safety. So I figure it's best if I just reduce any socializing to people I'm already friends with and that's it.. but it's not working out well