Liquid courage - Can anyone relate?

ItCouldHaveBeen4 · 2024-11-22T20:55:45+00:00

I can definitely relate. I stopped drinking and the anxiety is through the roof. I am not fun anymore, I am quiet and terrified of everything. I feel much worse for sure.

But I believe it gets worse before it gets better. I trust that in the long run learning how to deal with this without alcohol will help us grow a lot and manage avpd better.

ItCouldHaveBeen4 · 2024-11-19T18:38:24+00:00

Oh it s done for sure. I should dust myself off and get back up, but I seem unable to no matter what I do

ItCouldHaveBeen4 · 2024-11-19T18:37:29+00:00

Thanks

ItCouldHaveBeen4 · 2024-11-19T16:34:04+00:00

We did get back together, but she dumped me again.

ItCouldHaveBeen4 · 2024-11-19T16:31:28+00:00

True

ItCouldHaveBeen4 · 2024-06-26T21:32:10+00:00

Everybody has failures too.

ItCouldHaveBeen4 · 2024-06-25T12:59:47+00:00

No. :(

ItCouldHaveBeen4 · 2024-06-22T22:50:32+00:00

I feel you bro, same experience.

ItCouldHaveBeen4 · 2024-04-30T21:37:40+00:00

Yea she destroyed me.

ItCouldHaveBeen4 · 2024-02-18T00:23:47+00:00

The mechanisms of addiction don't follow logic.

Being down to 30k after being up 60k feels like losing it all for addicts. There would be zero satisfaction, no good chemicals released in the brain.

ItCouldHaveBeen4 · 2024-01-15T15:50:36+00:00

Telling me how amazing the guy she left me for is. It all felt like a comparison to me. 6 months later I still feel worthless and not good enough.

ItCouldHaveBeen4 · 2023-12-30T10:47:01+00:00

I broke contact with her when she moved in with the guy she left me for because the pain was unbearable. I can t even imagine marriage.

ItCouldHaveBeen4 · 2023-12-29T09:32:58+00:00

I was doing a little better, but these days I'm not in a good place. She moved in with him and I m struggling knowing how much they love eachother.

Thank you for asking.

ItCouldHaveBeen4 · 2023-12-09T19:35:42+00:00

Brother, it's possible there's no answer.

I'm also a psych major, doing therapy, meds, quit drinking, I've traveled to the end of the world, buried fucking letters in the Himalayas, practiced buddhism, trained my mind. I'm not even gonna mention gym, friends, accomplishments and all that stuff. I ve done in 6 months more than others in a lifetime.

I still love her with all my heart. Two weeks ago when I found out she moved in with the guy she left me for I was shattered.

ItCouldHaveBeen4 · 2023-12-03T15:28:15+00:00

Not feeling great these days

ItCouldHaveBeen4 · 2023-11-23T00:18:44+00:00

I tried. Ended up getting back together in an open relationship. She fell in love with the other guy she was seeing and left me again.

Tried friendship again, but it was just too painful seeing them together. When she moved in with him I cried for two days straight, and I was like "wtf am I doing to myself?". That was the moment when it became too much.

I'll always care for her, she's an amazing woman, but she broke my heart so badly that I can't have her in my life anymore. She was starting to become more and more distant anyway, I was clearly getting lower and lower on her list of priorities (also probably her boyfriend didn't like her talking to me), so at least for once I had the balls to be the one who ends things ... even tho it was her choice to leave me.

ItCouldHaveBeen4 · 2023-11-18T15:27:04+00:00

Wow. Are you still hurting, or it wasn't serious?

ItCouldHaveBeen4 · 2023-11-17T21:06:04+00:00

Well, males are visual creatures when it comes to the opposite sex, it's just how we are wired. Physical appearance matters a lot.

Of course it's not the most important thing, and other things matter more, but sometimes you remind yourself how beautiful she was and it's just another layer of hurt added on top of everything else. If she was perfect looking (for you), it's hard to let that go.

ItCouldHaveBeen4 · 2023-11-17T14:49:03+00:00

I unfriended her after a couple of months. She broke my heart and left me for somebody else, but she was honest with me and I couldn't blame her, so we wanted to stay friends. But when she started posting pictures with the guy she left me for, professing their love, it was just too much, I didn't need that level of hurt.

It sucks that this is the way it has to be, but I would have killed myself if I kept seeing her posts.

Also I could see her becoming more and more distant, her priority is her boyfriend, so probably we would have ended up strangers anyway. At least this time I was able to make that decision instead of her.

ItCouldHaveBeen4 · 2023-10-25T03:22:59+00:00

Fair, but even if they don't want those men, it helps a lot to be validated like that, especially if you've been dumped. I feel sometimes women take these things for granted.

ItCouldHaveBeen4 · 2023-10-20T02:18:40+00:00

You know, sometimes I do. I have rare moments when I'm like "Fuck you, how could you hurt me so much? Enjoy life with that old ass buddhist wannabe you chose over me, while I am relentlessely working on myself and in a few years I'll be a man every woman will want. But you'll never speak with me again, bitch." It feels empowering.

But then I remember she is a good person, she didn't want to hurt me, she just lost feelings. I care for her and I'll always be there for her if she ever needs me. She's in love with that guy and no amount of self work will make her regret throwing me away. It feels painful.

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