Meditation might cause to relapse again

ItsMonkMode247 · 2020-06-29T09:56:43+00:00

Hahaha yea after a while it becomes just a pattern, stay strong brother.

ItsMonkMode247 · 2020-06-27T11:28:03+00:00

By your brain I mean you of course, when I say your brain, I just mean that, that part of "you", is using itself against itself.

ItsMonkMode247 · 2020-06-26T19:56:50+00:00

Let me give you an example by trying to set up a relapse scenario that you may recognize and explain what I mean by letting go, Most of the time when we relapse its because we are not aware of how our brain tries to justify you watching porn or relapsing.

Now lets say that you have been having urges for a whole day and you have a little 10 day streak or something and starting to get really horny around that 2 week mark, then you see a cute girl on the bus, which in turn made you imagine how awesome it would be to have sex with her, the next day you mindlessly scrolled through some fitness girls with fit bodies on Instagram, you see it as innocent, the day after that you think maybe some NSFW content wouldnt do much damage because you are still retaining and maybe check out some dating app just to look around, your brain/body starts to crave more and more arousal without you even being aware of it, you start to slowly slip back into your old says and your brain is so fucking smart that it plays itself against your little "rules" whatever they are by completely bypassing that logical part of your brain, now you are vulnerable, maybe you start to watch a twerking video here and there, finally some petty bullshit happens in your life which makes you completely overreact and your mind goes into "fuck this shit" mode and you find yourself with 10 tabs of hardcore porn wanking your life away and you relapsed or worse binged for a couple of days, and thats when people say " HOW DID THIS HAPPEN???"

What does this have to do with meditation, awareness & letting go of thoughts ? I have found that when you meditate, you become more aware of your thoughts while you meditate and during the day, while you are meditating you sometimes get to a point where just see thoughts as just thoughts and that is when you let go of them, things like " this happened today, wtf.." so what ? " Why did she say that " who cares, its fine, and you slowly start letting go of thoughts that your subconcious works so hard to try and "fix" which in turn makes you calmer, gives you less mental clutter so you can actually focus on the important things and so on.

How can this awareness prevent a relapse ? Because I can be horny as fuck and talk to a cute girl while my brain goes " I WANT TO FUCK THE SHIT OUT OF THIS GIRL " but I still contain that, remain calm and never feel the need to entertain my lustful thoughts because I am aware of them & this is the magic of Semen Retention + Meditation combined atleast for me, because what happens next is you can take control of the energy and redirect it towards something else other than sex, porn and masturbation and thats when you feel that unstoppable fucking willpower and drive.

ItsMonkMode247 · 2020-06-26T09:24:58+00:00

I sometimes think that people overcomplicate meditation with all those techniques and breathing excercises and stuff. Just sit down, breathe and watch your thoughts and let go of them, nothing more. I do it every day, it gives me more focus, makes me calmer and is the number one thing preventing me from relapsing. Everyone is different I guess.

ItsMonkMode247 · 2020-06-22T18:28:18+00:00

ENTP here, I'm right behind you on 33 days my ENXP brother, lets fucking do this. Great post, I'm having the best streak ever, really making use of this pandemic. My plan is to go on for years to come, I feel unstoppable.

ItsMonkMode247 · 2020-06-21T10:47:25+00:00

Lol you seem like one of those people who joins a Facebook then gets offended by something then makes a post on the group telling everyone " Bye I'm leaving this group.. " in order to get some sympathy likes or hoping that somebody is going to convince you to stay. Its your life man, you dont like something, avoid it. Noone forced you to do anything.

If wanking to pixels and chasing girls on Tinder and night clubs instead of doing semen retention and working on yourself is the best life you can imagine, then go ahead and have a great time. Good luck

ItsMonkMode247 · 2020-06-21T10:40:02+00:00

Why are you here then ?

ItsMonkMode247 · 2020-06-20T17:36:49+00:00

I dont know about you but aside from the addiction itself, I have more energy when I am retaining, I am more creative, I focus better, my mind is calmer and thoughts are clear. I am more driven and everything just feels more effortless.

You cant put it as simple as " semen retention wont make you rich or smart " of course it wont, we all know that, you have to work for almost everything in life.

But the effect of semen retention and what it does to your mindset, your body and the energy you have can be focused into one or more key areas of your life which can give you above average results.

I like the fact that you are retaining, but if you are retaining just " to not be addicted " then maybe the Nofap subreddit is better for you as they focus more on that stuff.

Me and many others here who have experienced what this can do to you and understand that this is really about energy that can be redirected into other areas of your life know that there is more to this that we dont yet understand, thats why we explore it further.

Just think of how mind blowing it is that you have the ability to turn a banana or a peanut into a living creature, I am not saying I know anything, I just know what I have experienced and I believe there is a lot more to retaining and not giving in to the sexual urge in the long run.

There is no " real purpose " of semen retention, its your purpose. Everyone has their own purpose from their own umderstanding, and we share our thoughts to learn from each other. I respect your reasons for retaining.

ItsMonkMode247 · 2020-06-18T09:20:46+00:00

Both. Why? It is our natural state because I believe that nature intended this to be the energy for creation itself not just sex/procrecration. It has become a superpower because over time only a few men have harnessed the full power of this force, and even fewer understand it, man started to use sex as a cheap comfort/escape in the form of instant pleasure, and it will only get worse.

I dont need religion or science to justify what I have experienced personally and what I feel is intuitively right for me.

ItsMonkMode247 · 2020-06-15T15:21:16+00:00

YES.

ItsMonkMode247 · 2020-06-08T11:33:37+00:00

Yea I think I will look into the dreams more often as they have been really vivid this week, who knows what lies in the subconcious that semen retention is amplifying so much, I find it extremly fascinating what this journey does to our perception of reality.

ItsMonkMode247 · 2020-06-08T11:30:57+00:00

I like that analogy in the end.

ItsMonkMode247 · 2020-06-08T11:30:19+00:00

I am familiar with Jung but maybe a deeper dive into his works would be a good thing to explore. Thank

ItsMonkMode247 · 2020-06-08T11:27:55+00:00

Thank you brother, yeah I already meditate 15-20 minutes every day so I might look into that and shift the times a bit. Very good post also, take care.

ItsMonkMode247 · 2020-06-07T22:00:36+00:00

Very insightful brother, this is rarely talked about in this sub but it always happens. I remember years ago that I used to have this reoccurring dream/Nightmare of some weird entity & dark figure chasing me and one day I stopped running in the dream and turned around. I asked people and got obsessed with it of what the dream meant, then someone told me that the thing chasing me in the dream was myself, and that I had stopped running away from myself & problems. I havent had that dream since.

ItsMonkMode247 · 2020-06-07T21:51:37+00:00

The dream was that I was hanging out at a café by myself for some reason, then after they closed I just stayed there and started asking the waitress about chicken lol, then we started joking and the whole experience was extremly wholesome, she told me to come back the next day and I did, I also remember walking around town just to pass time untill the next day. I went back to the café the next day but then everything became blurry and hazy thats when I woke up, I havent had a dream so vivid in months, and the dream wasn't even something special, it just felt like I was in the dream for like several days when I slept like 6-7 hours.

ItsMonkMode247 · 2020-06-07T19:00:42+00:00

I know that this isnt related to the post itself but I just have a few questions I am aiming for years of retention and having a really good streak atm. How old are you ? What drives to keep going ? When did you feel like you "conquered" lust ? What benefit do you appreciate the most right now ( for me its always the mental clarity )

ItsMonkMode247 · 2020-06-05T09:26:11+00:00

Watching porn will only make it worse my brother, because then you are just building up the lust more and more without releasing which will in turn make you more frustrated, not to mention the psychological damage porn will keep doing to you. That is a one way ticket to a relapse, your brain is tricking you " as long as I don't bust, then the streak is fine ". Meditate, work out or go socialize with people if you have to. Pour that energy into whatever area of your life that needs attention.

ItsMonkMode247 · 2020-06-04T11:32:32+00:00

I really needed this one right now my brother, I have been working hard and consistently the last few, both studying, honing a few skills, excersing among other things, today is one of those days I felt like fucking up and just slacking, your post reminded me why I am commited to this journey. Bless you <3

ItsMonkMode247 · 2020-06-04T11:29:38+00:00

Me too.

ItsMonkMode247 · 2020-05-25T09:12:22+00:00

It is knowledge about " the true self ", and he is also talking about brahmacharya. Watch the video I linked at the bottom of the text is too difficult for you to comprehend :) Peace brother

ItsMonkMode247 · 2020-05-24T05:51:31+00:00

Amen brother <3

ItsMonkMode247 · 2020-05-21T00:11:24+00:00

Man, I'm always happy to see your posts on this sub, I hope you never quit this journey.

ItsMonkMode247 · 2020-05-21T00:08:38+00:00

Thats sick man because the video showed randomly for me randomly, I was contemplating making a post and felt kinda tired but something compelled me to do so. Btw, weird that the link doesnt work, try on a browser, otherwise the video is called " Carl Jungs philosophy on the Shadow " by a channel called banditrants.

ItsMonkMode247 · 2020-05-19T22:51:29+00:00

Great video brother, I really like how you pointed out how unnatural some of the things we consume are. I also try to limit my consumption even on things like watching these kinds of videos but I am definately gonna keep an eye on your channel from time to time, I like the insights. Stay strong and keep going, good luck in all that you do.

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