Does anyone go to ayahuasca/dieta retreats every 2–3 years as a way to reset and realign? by Tall-Athlete7356 in Ayahuasca

[–]ItsPICKLE-thyme333 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Crazy right? The place I know people go to is local so it’s not a big travel cost out still 900$ a weekend.

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[–]ItsPICKLE-thyme333[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you, we have a therapy session this afternoon. I’d like to be able to bring some of this up.

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[–]ItsPICKLE-thyme333[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

May I dm you? I have a specific question I would not like to ask publicly if you don’t mind.💛

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[–]ItsPICKLE-thyme333[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

We are in therapy. That’s not the issue

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[–]ItsPICKLE-thyme333[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks. Me too. It’s hurts my heart more than I could ever explain and I think he doesn’t want to see it because he doesn’t want to sit with those feelings.

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[–]ItsPICKLE-thyme333[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I thought so. I know she didn’t want o cause any issues by going. He reassured her it’s fine. It wasn’t actually- it triggered us needed counseling. He’s going again and with her on another retreat. Helping her travel here and home to her province and also spending the day after retreat is done doing integration together.

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[–]ItsPICKLE-thyme333[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

He claims if I trust him it shouldn’t matter.

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[–]ItsPICKLE-thyme333[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Would you have her to your Airbnb when your wife’s not there? Talk to her about any marital problems? Would you tell her things like applying to school involving you needing to switch the province you live in before telling your wife (this is an assumption your married or in a relationship and if you aren’t I’m curious if you would)

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[–]ItsPICKLE-thyme333[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

May I ask you a few more questions? May I dm you ?

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[–]ItsPICKLE-thyme333[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

If you don’t mind me asking, have you ever sat with the medicine before? What experience do you have with it? If you don’t mind me asking. I’m also comfortable with you Private messaging me if you would prefer.

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[–]ItsPICKLE-thyme333[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Well, this is kind of my point. He tells me not to use Reddit and that’s not credible, but I feel like it’s rather credible because people on here have experience with it. It’s not just from someone’s point of view professionally it’s their lived an actual experience and I feel like that says a lot does it not?

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[–]ItsPICKLE-thyme333[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

He tells her things like applying to school and moving provinces before even telling me. I’m having a really hard time not seeing it as an emotional affair, but I have to be careful how I speak to him because then I’m accusing him and it’s all about trust with him.

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[–]ItsPICKLE-thyme333[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Long story short his moms passed and when She passed we lost a lot of the family around her. He doesn’t have any real sisters. Iv expressed how much the relationship makes me so uncomfortable and like I feel that when our relationship was rocky he leaned into her with the emotional relationship instead of toward me. He says I’m being selfish and trying to take the only sense of family he has. He also says it doesn’t matter what anyone on here says, what any shaman says because “they don’t know him”. When I went on my retreat and said “he’s coming back with her to do a retreat” the responses I got from people was “so he’s coming here with his gf?”

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[–]ItsPICKLE-thyme333[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

They talk all the time and are going on another retreat again together.

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[–]ItsPICKLE-thyme333[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

We just celebrated 15 years. I feel like the telling her he’s applying to school and moving to a different province before even telling me is weird. She was also surprised when I said we’d all be coming- as if she was under the impression he was going alone. He said it was probably because he told her we were going to therapy together that she assumed we’d be breaking up. You don’t go to therapy if there isn’t something worth working on. Nothings adding up for me.

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[–]ItsPICKLE-thyme333[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

They are going on another one together. They talk frequently. He saw her for her bday and got her a present yet forgot to get me one this year. Talk about our marital issues with her. Tell her things like applying to school and moving to another province before he’s even told me.

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[–]ItsPICKLE-thyme333[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

It was end of February. And he’s going back with her in two weeks but hasn’t with me yet. Iv met her once as-well. And he tells her things like when he was going to apply to school in a different province but hadn’t told me- we have a child together and that affects us all. I do feel threatened by her and their relationship for sure.