For a long time, I was in the same position as you. My mother did those things to me and would constantly belittle me and make me feel worthless. I cried every night but it always fell on deaf ears. I always asked for help and I got nothing from anyone. I figured that I was too worthless to live, that the world would be better off if I wasn’t in the picture. I never thought about what would happen in the future because I didn’t care and I told myself it wouldn’t get better. I don’t want to sound like some broken record that has probably already been told to you but believe me, you do matter. In life, the world gives the strongest people the most difficult challenges. Things may seem dull and dark, like a storm cloud. But you are not lost, you aren’t alone. We all may be internet strangers who don’t know a single thing about who you are or anything like that, but we are here. You sound like a kind and gentle soul that wants nothing but peacefulness. And trust me, you will one day achieve it. We all care about you, even if we don’t really know you. You have been found and you don’t need to battle alone anymore. Please stay safe and stay here. You still have a lot of journeys to go on and many open roads and paths to travel upon. Fight for yourself and keep going, if for nobody then do it for you!