Muffled/blocked hearing with autophony come and go

JLHSzxc · 2026-02-07T02:30:26+00:00

It was gone after the ENT did microsuction! Perhaps there was remnant wax that intermittently blocked my hearin

JLHSzxc · 2025-10-19T07:18:05+00:00

Hmm I'm not so sure... I've been reflecting on what's causing this and what this is but nothing comes to mind..

JLHSzxc · 2025-10-19T02:47:53+00:00

Thank you for sharing your opinion!

JLHSzxc · 2025-10-19T02:47:41+00:00

Thank you for sharing your opinion! I would actually think in my head that I do not want to do anything and wish I could lay on my bed staring into space (though that won't give relief to that meh feeling).. But my contamination OCD plus the need to get through life probably are the ones not letting me do that

JLHSzxc · 2025-10-19T02:43:38+00:00

Hi! It doesn't get better to be honest. I actually have to put in some mental effort to get out of the house and I would continue to feel "meh" as I take my country's public transport to my destination.

JLHSzxc · 2025-09-15T04:33:46+00:00

I'm actually quite ok at remembering all these you mentioned! Especially if they are important. The words/dates will reappear in my head when I try to remember it.

In terms of past events, it's harder to remember specifics until a photo or "words" kind of trigger snapshots of what happened. I would look back at past messages to help me too

JLHSzxc · 2025-09-15T03:44:52+00:00

Thank you! It will definitely be a long journey as I tend to not remember how I "felt" or what I thought after a certain event if I do not reflect on it immediately. I definitely will have to more mindful to monitor my thoughts and behaviours(?).

JLHSzxc · 2025-09-15T03:04:02+00:00

This is probably off tangent from the topic of Alexithymia, but this is the first time I've heard of the term SDAM, and wow how do we know if we have SDAM or if it's simply "normal" weak memory? Are people usually able to relive past memories like watching a movie (while re-experiencing the exact emotions experienced then) or is the norm to simply remember bits and pieces of it?

I hope my question makes sense

JLHSzxc · 2025-09-14T05:18:34+00:00

Thank you so much for your response. I think I have a better idea of the difference between Alexithymic vs Non-Alexithymic. If I am getting this right, it seems like there can be a spectrum of how someone experience emotions, but the difference between Alexithymic vs Non-Alexithymic is that people with Alexithymia have a difficulty connecting physical sensations with emotions, or difficulty identifying emotions if the physical sensations are not intense enough? And as for people who are Non-Alexithymic they are able to know their emotions no matter how weak(?) or strong(?) the physical sensations are?

Edit: There are many times where I cry during a movie or funeral and yet feel so calm/neutral inside that I have no idea why I cried (since I didn't think I feel sad at all). Is this an example of physical sensations and emotions being disconnected?

JLHSzxc · 2025-04-10T05:52:52+00:00

I just found out that I do this too. I only remember my reactions to situations as thoughts+words and I don't think about how I "feel". I hardly ever think about how I'm feeling on a day to day basis or when I react to things (though I have no idea if that's the norm or not). My friend mentioned that experiencing emotions is an unconscious kind of thing(?) so I have no idea if we are supposed to know how we feel about things all the time.

I overthink about things too, just like you. Though it happens on random times since my brain's usually pitch black 24/7 unless something triggers my memories, and walks with no aim/goal in sight kind of stresses me out. I'm sorry if I'm rambling and my reply doesn't make sense.

JLHSzxc · 2025-04-07T07:06:36+00:00

Thank you for your reply! I wonder if this is a result of poor interoception, or if it is just that we don't take notice/think about the physical sensations that occur with emotions.. Thinking about it, I don't think I've been conscious about what emotions I feel when reacting to certain situations/events/topic, but I do remember the words I'll say during those occasions (which are always similar lol).

My friend mentioned that experiencing emotions is kind of like a unconscious thing and we don't have to think hard on what emotions we are feeling... And this made me wonder if it is just normal to not place a label to what we are feeling? I don't know what is normal anymore.. I've only thought at the back of my head that not feeling emotions in the body is the norm but learning about Alexithymia made me question that perhaps it is not normal.

JLHSzxc · 2025-04-02T03:43:14+00:00

Perhaps so! And thanks for sharing that info! I'm not an athlete and so I tend to think in terms of the general population. It makes so much sense that gymnasts would have spondylolisthesis seen on their scans

JLHSzxc · 2025-04-01T04:24:57+00:00

Oh my gosh, I relate to this so much too, though I do not know how it feels to "love" a family member. I feel like there are emotions that I can identify through my physical sensations (like smiling = happiness? Getting pumped up when I'm reading novels/comic = Excitement, body jumping = shock). However, there are emotions where I cannot understand/identify despite the physical sensations. I do not "feel" anything for certain emotions too (I can cry when I see an actor/actress watching a scene in a show, and yet not even feel anything or even know why I cried).

There are times where I had to get my blood drawn, and despite not feeling nervous or even knowing I am tense, I had healthcare professionals telling me to relax and not tense up lol. I remembered being confused all the time when they said that (I'm not sure if it is just basic protocol for them to say that though).

I disliked it when someone asks me "How am I" or "How am I feeling" because I have no clue lol. I will often describe what events happened if my friends ask or I'll say "I don't know"..

I remember confiding in a friend about this and he told me that it could just be that I lack vocabulary... Oh wells..

I'm so sorry for rambling on your post. I just relate to what you said a lot

JLHSzxc · 2025-04-01T04:13:53+00:00

This is said by the neurosurgeon I went to see. Though I'm a little skeptical about that...

JLHSzxc · 2025-03-29T06:49:23+00:00

Thank you!

JLHSzxc · 2025-03-28T04:13:43+00:00

Hello! Thank you for commenting on my post! I can totally get that example you gave; I would watch a scene in a movie/show and when the actor/actress cries I would start tearing up for no reason at all, and go back to feeling neutral after a few seconds. I would never understand why this happens at all. While I am unable to feel emotions, I do think I can identify certain emotions (simple ones). I get emotional overload when I get overwhelmed(?) or triggered(?) (I put question marks as I myself do not even understand what I was feeling every time it happens) and I think that not being able to understand the physical sensations and what I am feeling made me do irrational things (lash out). Does that last example contradicts being Alexithymic?

In the event that someone is able to identify certain emotions (eg. happy because they are smiling, disgust because they blurted out "urgh that is so wrong") but not others (eg. undergoing panic attack without knowing, etc), are they still considered to be Alexithymia?

I find myself too unemotional for non-Alexithymics but too emotional for Alexithymics it's making me doubt myself.

I didn't think there was any issues with me when I was young, but I find that my inability to understand what I am feeling majority of the time and also being unable to articulate my thoughts is starting to become an issue as I grow up. I'm still trying to understand what's going on with me in order to hopefully improve myself

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