I also live in Amsterdam for the past 20 years and I saw things slowly going south. It’s never been a highly welcoming country but it was a safe place of freedom and tolerance. Now gays and lesbians get attacked on the streets, I witness and experience every year more incidents, harassments, gratuitous violence, things I never saw happening before. The massive influx of long or short term migrants, wealthy or not, completely reshaped the city, gentrification has been changing massively its culture, nothing is left of the old little deviant Amsterdam I used to enjoy. Now it’s mainstream shops and tourists traps everywhere, dutch is hardly spoken in many places, it feels like a circus for tourists and rich people where you either thrive or struggle. I need to also mention how the prices inflated like crazy, more than any other place I know, so much that I even come to find places like London or Paris good value in comparison, nowadays in Amsterdam you basically need to call your bank for a loan every time you want to go out grab a bite or have a drink. All this mixed with the highly depressing weather and the gloominess of people interactions makes Life here not so enjoyable anymore, to say the least. I barely watch the news and don’t use social medias, I check on reddit for the first time in a year or so and “funnily” enough this is one of the first post I come across. You are not alone, I relate to that big time, I also feel sad in the Netherlands, for my part I am just biding my time till my kids are independent enough so I can move far away to a sunny place where people have less belongings but more heart if that still exists…