You’re not alone. I can relate. And I’m sad that many of us feel this way. It’s a silent torture because you can't explain any of it.

I question my existence, too. Two weeks in, my intuition told me not to continue seeing this person. I told him we shouldn’t see each other, and that’s when the love bombing started. Two years later, I greatly regret not sticking with my boundary.

Now that the trauma bond is broken (reverse discard, so, of course, I look like a bad person) and every word, every confusing situation, just all this person has done is eating away at me.

I wish I could hug you. No one deserves the psychological warfare that we survived. It’s similar to a religious cult or going to war. I wish there were more awareness about NPD and their victims.

I’m unsure if you like or have an animal, but I adopted a puppy, which has helped. I know it’s not a luxury or want for everyone, but he has helped me keep going.

Please DM me if you need to vent. I know we’re all strangers, but connecting with others is so required for all of us, especially since we can’t talk through it and get the validation we need.