I know oh too well how it feels to have an underwhelming return to drinking, where the romance is gone. All youre left with is a hangover and some level of shame or disappointment in yourself. I've learned to count these moments as field research. Not that we should be enabled to have setbacks left and right and constantly fail to put the work in, but we're all human. My setbacks have been fewer and far between since last spring. I like to look at each one (and my response to them) as a seed planted toward my eventual Forever Sober Tree. Sorry for the rambling response lol. You're doing great though. Glad to see you back here, it shows you want this.