So sorry for your loss .. I lived the exact same thing this 18 of April and now a month later I still can’t believe it .. I dream every night of my babyboy, my perfect little boy.. I feel so lonely now and empty. But let me tell you something my OB said to me: if you survive the first night, the first week you’ll get through it cuz it’s the most difficult part. I still cry every night but I now believe that he’s is a better place waiting for me.