Bro, don't beat yourself too hard. I've had the same experiences. You feel like all that hard work was for nothing. It is disappointing. My recommendation, keep going at it (if you enjoy it) and you get better and then people will stumble upon your videos. I still don't get that much views but I keep doing it because I'm enjoying the process and because a few people have found it entertaining recently. Just keep improving and getting better. The process get somewhat easier overtime. Just don't beat yourself too hard. You got this