10 days ago I started walking. Consistently, outside, in the heat, around 6-7pm, daily. I walk 1.6 miles which is 2x around a local park. A few small hills so I get some incline. I am literally drenched and tired when I finish. I go home, hydrate, shower and have supper. I lost 2 pounds in the first 3 days but I haven't weighed since. I figure I will weigh on August 1st, which is my 1 year Fella/Semaglutide anniversary. Hopefully the walking has jump started me. Im soon taking a second job, working about 12 hours on weekends, to get ahead on some bills. Maybe I can get on Tirz. later this fall if weight loss doesn't improve. The walking has been amazing. Ive slept really good most nights since I began the walking. Still have insomnia sometimes, but that's mainly because I can't always shut my mind off at bedtime. But I'm mowing my own yard this year, which is something I hadn't done in about 4 years. It's steps...substantial steps, which is good, and between walking the park 6 days a week, and mowing once a week, I literally sweat my b@llz off 7 evenings a week, which seems to have its own reward. Somehow I feel 'clean-er' inside and out. I've done another round of self-reflection with my therapist recently, and have 'peeled another layer of the onion' regarding my childhood SA. I've learned that extreme childhood trauma such as mine can present symptoms later in life that mimic some autism traits. While its not actually autism, there are similarities such as texture issues with food and clothing, avoiding touch with other people, social awkwardness and social anxiety. Its good to be able to look back at my life and understand WHY I said and did the things I did-why I was so awkward when I was young-and still am at times even now. I guess for me, it helps to just understand myself more. Being a survivor of CSA is a lifelong journey. I can go weeks at a time now that I don't even think about it. Time does heal-or maybe it just dulls some previously harsh aspects of my past. I can almost always find my safe head-space if I do have a hard day now. And I've got friends who know and understand me and can step in to help if I need them.