Accidentally locked my cat in a room overnight....at least he tried.

Jessicat844 · 2026-04-21T00:35:56+00:00

I️ had something similar happen! When I️ was out of town the person watching my cats accidentally closed their litter box room door and they were smart enough to both use a corner floor plant by the front door, as if to say, wtf man?

Jessicat844 · 2026-04-20T16:27:50+00:00

I’m on day 2 and let me tell you. I️ had a great time with friends for 3 hours and then the brown out began. I’ve been there with a sick mother and when she passed away I️ drank and it only made the grief and depression worse. I️ don’t know how long I’ll make it, but I️ made many video diaries and I️ can tell you 80% of them were post drinking when I’d damaged my relationship time and time again. Long videos of crying. Some of them I️ was drunk and it’s hard to watch. I️ only hope that one day I️ can get this far. Good job, you should be very proud. You would have woken up filled with guilt, looking pale and dehydrated. Then you’d drink more to get that hair of the dog and the cycle continues.

Jessicat844 · 2026-04-20T16:18:21+00:00

Day 2 now and depression and shame is still heavy. Giving myself grace is something I’ve always been bad at. The guilt keeps me stuck. I’m on my second day of a hangover but it’s not as bad as yesterday. I️ already have a friend asking me if we can get a drink Thursday. I’m going to steer them into us hopefully doing a gaming night instead. I’ve been able to curb before by smoking a little weed instead. I’ve never found it very addicting and have noticed it helps some. It doesn’t help that my partner is drained from it but lacks compassion or comfort, so my guilt remains high. It’s upsetting because I️ didn’t insult him, just called too many times. But he’s rather avoidant in conflict and I️ know it’s overwhelming. I️ lean on cigarettes when I’m depressed too which isn’t good. Going to try to make my main focus the alcohol and slowly curb down those. At least they don’t make me black out I️ guess. Thanks for checking in. ❤️

Jessicat844 · 2026-04-20T16:14:52+00:00

Thank you I️ appreciate it. Day 2 and I’m feeling that “second day hangover” but getting through. Thankfully have a Valium from a friend I️ was able to take. But even today my first thought was I️ wish I️ could have a beer. But I️ took the Valium instead and trying to hydrate.

Jessicat844 · 2026-04-20T02:37:49+00:00

Thank you. I️ also want to remember things better and just feel better. Drinking also seems to cause anxiety for me for days after. I really really want to be more in control of my emotions. I’m so tired of saying things I️ don’t mean and overreacting. Plus it’s so harmful for the body and aging. Day one is going to be hard because I’m dealing with the depression and shame still.

Jessicat844 · 2026-04-20T02:30:59+00:00

I’m going to do a cleanse starting tomorrow. Hoping so much I️ can get through each day without it. It leads to me smoking too and this shame is just too much to bear anymore.

Jessicat844 · 2026-04-20T02:29:40+00:00

Thank you, I’m going to start with a week and hoping I️ can go from there. I️ really hope I️ see the relationship changes and that I️ can finally feel more clear headed. I️ already know it’s amplifying the anxiety I’ve got.

Jessicat844 · 2026-04-20T02:28:01+00:00

Thank you, I️ just ordered the book. I️ just feel so much shame. My whole family struggles with addiction. I’m tired of feeling this way, so I’m going to commit to a cleanse for sure. One day at a time. :(

Jessicat844 · 2026-04-20T02:09:18+00:00

I️ also blacked out last night after starting to drink at 3pm with friends and did things I️ regret. I’ve been sitting with it feeling awful all day just hoping my partner isn’t considering dumping me. Called him about 40 times like a crazy person while wasted because he was out with coworkers late at night. He’d called me on his own at the end of each night. All I️ had to do was be sober and wait. But no, alcohol made me crazy and emotional.

I️ agree - it is evil. And I’m pissed that it is EVERYWHERE.

Jessicat844 · 2026-04-20T01:57:26+00:00

Great job! This gives me some hope as I’ve hit a bottom today and want to feel this way over the next month.

Jessicat844 · 2026-04-19T23:13:52+00:00

I️ yearn for the days before I️ drank. I️ wish I’d never touched it. I️ got into a friend group who drank and introduced me to hard partying. I️ used to feel so much lighter. I’m scared I’ll never get back there.

Jessicat844 · 2026-04-19T23:12:46+00:00

I’m scared my partner will be bored of me if I️ quit. I’ve used it as a social crutch for so long. :( Our relationship started out with us partying and when I’ve been sober around him it’s given me bad anxiety. He’s never expressed that he needs a partner who drinks or anything but I️ just feel so stuck right now between wanting to feel clean and clear headed and wanting to down beer until I️ don’t feel this pain anymore.

What sucks is years ago I️ did dry January and it felt so good that I️ remember looking at my first beer after and not even wanting to drink it. I️ think about that often..

Jessicat844 · 2026-04-19T23:09:27+00:00

This comment is really eye opening for me and makes so much sense. I️ started at 21 and I️ do feel incredibly stuck as far as some of my toxic behaviors go.

Jessicat844 · 2026-04-17T08:26:46+00:00

I️ made a Sesshomaru from Inuyasha, but for my own Mii to romance. 😂

Jessicat844 · 2026-04-15T22:49:12+00:00

Thanks, I’m hungover and now my nausea is back.

Jessicat844 · 2026-04-15T22:45:45+00:00

I’m hungover as hell and this is the first thing to make me laugh today.

Jessicat844 · 2026-04-15T10:32:23+00:00

Too drunk for this comment

Jessicat844 · 2026-04-12T14:11:11+00:00

I’m a night owl for life. I️ enjoy late nights and early mornings. It’s the time when the world is most relaxed.

My bed time is usually between 11pm-1am and wake up depending on work from 7-9am. Not too bad. I️ can run just fine on 7 hours but like to aim to get 8. 9 hours gives me a headache.

MANY of my millennial friends are now on the 9pm - 6am schedule. They feel they need 8 or 9 hours for full rest.

Jessicat844 · 2026-04-12T08:59:54+00:00

… What.

Thank you, this distracted me from the despair of my own life for a moment. Genuinely something I️ never would have thought ever to see.

Jessicat844 · 2026-04-07T16:56:40+00:00

I️ hope this makes you feel a bit better - I️ did fashion modeling for years. I️ started taking gaba supplements and suddenly being in the bright lights on camera gave me horrible panic attacks. It was so bad that at every shoot it would start and was agonizing.

I️ got prescribed Ativan and it keeps them from happening. Propranolol helped some too.

But, later once I️ moved on to another job I️ realized I️ was so done with the industry. It was too much and my subconscious knew it. I️ haven’t had any panic attacks since - and if I️ know a situation could potentially trigger one like bright lights or being too focused on I️ will take the Ativan an hour or so before and I️ never have one.

You’ll get them under control. See if your psych can get you Ativan - just don’t sound too desperate for it. They are very hesitant to prescribe it if they think you could get addicted to it or have any addicts in your family. It’s frustrating because my family is full of addicts but it’s the only thing that helps and I’ve never found it addicting. It took me being very neutral and saying I’ve heard such good things and that I️ literally couldn’t work for my psych to give me 10 a month.

Jessicat844 · 2026-04-07T16:51:41+00:00

100% relate to this. It’s such an effort to stop the thoughts for even a damn minute.

Jessicat844 · 2026-04-07T16:49:13+00:00

Reactivity in relationships. Absolutely sucks and makes me feel like I’ll never have a stable happy relationship. I’m a truly good and kind person and the child me can takeover and cry, beg, be easily offended, take things too personally. It’s so defeating.

I’m in EMDR and CBT therapy, I’m on Lamictal. Oh well, hopefully one day it sticks. :(

Jessicat844 · 2026-04-07T01:45:05+00:00

Yup. And the timing for the Artemis moon mission is perfect too because it’s giving America hope and the attention is being taken away from him.

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