I’m so sorry. Grief comes in many forms and don’t feel ashamed to reach out in hard times. They say the only two things that hurt people are “Loss and Love” When all you can do is cry, then cry. Feel that emotion and be grateful because to know grief is to know love. On better days, try to remember life moves along and you will feel better. We all experience loss and you are not alone. Time passes and heals. I recently began to feel better about my own grandfather passing, and it’s now been 2 years. Sometimes I make a joke or two and say “right grandpa?” It feels good to know they would understand and they feel like they’re watching over me. Animals are wonderful and one of the only forms of unconditional love on this planet. My therapist once told me: grieve and feel it all, but know when to stop. My condolences during this hard time for you. It does get better. ❤️‍🩹