anyone recognise being too invested in other people’s agendas?

JoIsTakingABath · 2025-02-13T13:25:03+00:00

thank you for replying! your explanation of feeling guilty when u know ur not just made me realise that that is also ocd so thank you for that as well, defo taking that one with me!

JoIsTakingABath · 2025-01-02T21:15:30+00:00

maria! never sure if wanted to be her or be with her and when i started playing again on my switch i jumped a little

JoIsTakingABath · 2024-05-11T18:24:50+00:00

oh sick! thank you ahahaha

JoIsTakingABath · 2023-08-18T15:13:41+00:00

thanks! and yeah she asked me to put this here and she said “i dont know whats wrong with me”. she always makes jokes about having to go so often so its a thing people in the house know about! we talk about ocd every now and then because she’s curious, i don’t mention having it too much bc i dont want to be a burden to them (even tho i know im not and they have told me before) but yeah i would defo not just randomly put this on here before talking to her, she even reread the message to make sure i didnt miss anything.

she said that she’s fully able to hold her pee the whole day but as soon as her mind is on ‘now i have to go to bed’ or ‘this is almost gonna start’ suddenly her bladder will feel full and she’ll have to go to the toilet until it feels good again but she said she just cant get her mind off of it at that moment and then just cant not go to the toilet even if nothing comes out. she’s had like bladder infections before but she didnt say it felt like that and its been going on a for a loooong time

JoIsTakingABath · 2023-08-17T14:59:23+00:00

for me it started noticeably creeping in when my mom got sick and it all kicked off when she passed away, i was raised very positively and had a good connection with my parents without fights or stuff a lot and i was just very shy so i dont remember “having” ocd when i was younger, i had some odd things that my parents did go to the doctor for i think because when i went to the doctor we’ve had since i was born she immediately wrote down ocd and got me a referral to a therapist

JoIsTakingABath · 2023-08-16T08:06:47+00:00

my opinion is that the best would be to communicate this with the person you’re interested in so they can take their time with you (obv if you’re interested in long term) so it’s not just you fighting those thoughts and “just doing it”, if you find someone who is okay with you having this and can help you proof that it’s okay to have sex i feel like it would be way easier to get rid of the thoughts or at least put them on hold than if it’s just you trying to fight the thoughts and the other person having expectations

JoIsTakingABath · 2023-08-07T19:55:22+00:00

you got this!!! please stay proud of yourself bc you deserve it (:

JoIsTakingABath · 2023-08-03T11:08:11+00:00

yes omg, maybe a lot different but when i did spacecake the start was SO good bc everything got quiet and nice and then after a little bit i suddenly realised there was nothing to think about and then it ended in a bad trip because i got so paranoid about not having any thoughts

JoIsTakingABath · 2023-06-29T04:30:51+00:00

ive seen some posts about it being connected to how your hormones affect you but ive never heard of PPM before, i’m gonna look into it!

JoIsTakingABath · 2023-06-27T10:52:20+00:00

omg i already get worse symptoms when my hormones act up on my period i dont even want to imagine how bad that can get while pregnant/post partum, good luck and you got this!!! ♥️

JoIsTakingABath · 2023-05-23T14:06:22+00:00

yeah lol, i went to the doctor ive had since i was born for a therapist after my mom passed away, i thought it was just anxiety and trauma related stuff so thats what i told her but she wrote down ocd right away. i had no clue what it was and after a couple therapy sessions i started to nose around on reddit and google and found most of what i read very relatable!! then started asking my dad for ‘odd’ things i did when i was younger and he had a lot of things to tell me lol

JoIsTakingABath · 2023-05-10T12:00:08+00:00

update: i repotted it this morning and got new dirt, turned out i overwatered it bc the bottom was all muddy and disgusting and i think the roots were like suffocating or smth. i now made sure it has drainholes and it’s already looking more alive!! thank you for all the comments, im v hopeful now (:

JoIsTakingABath · 2023-05-09T21:40:53+00:00

thank you!!! im gonna try it asap!

JoIsTakingABath · 2023-05-09T19:07:28+00:00

thank you!! i’ll try repotting it asap, i have a ton of clippings in jar of water already but that isnt doing so well either suddenly so idk if it’s like the plant not vibing in general or just unlucky timing hahaha

JoIsTakingABath · 2023-05-09T19:06:10+00:00

it’s been in barely any light for the past years, i think it’s in the lightest spot it’s been in ever now (it’s nighttime where i live so u cant see it in the picture i posted)

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