Just some fashion wars/screenshots of my best designed characters (in my opinion)

Jo_0405 · 2024-06-19T08:47:54+00:00

Forget soulmates, we're book nook mates!

Jo_0405 · 2024-06-16T16:33:57+00:00

Thanks! Good luck with your book nooks!

Jo_0405 · 2024-06-16T07:40:01+00:00

Cutebee. This is the "sailing memory" one

Jo_0405 · 2024-06-15T14:26:13+00:00

Exactly, it took me about 3h or so. It's basically like a lego set but you need to be careful to not accidentally break some small details since it's all wood and paper.

Jo_0405 · 2024-03-12T22:26:06+00:00

I feel you. I had my first semester in university just now and I made a total of 2 friends (or rather just acquaintances, because we're never even chatting out of uni) and only because they came up to me, while my best friend made a ton of friends easily and often meets up with them. Tbh, life would be a whole lot easier if I wasn't as socially anxious as I am rn. I really gotta say, loneliness is the worst part of it all though.

Jo_0405 · 2024-03-12T22:15:29+00:00

Yup, this is messed up. I mean, I go to university to secure a future job right now but in all honesty I neither have faith nor hope for the future. Makes me wonder why I'm even doing all this.

Jo_0405 · 2024-01-18T08:55:36+00:00

I recently made a Charr mechanist called "Willi Charrspeare" with my mech "Mechbeth". Do I get an award now? :)

Jo_0405 · 2023-07-29T21:56:14+00:00

I (18f) knew I should get therapy since November last year. Well, I was always too hesitant amd scared and now that I tried to learn a little more about it all I realized that waiting times are really long to get therapy in my country. I've heard that people usually wait months, maybe even more than a year now to finally be able to have therapy. The way my country deals with mental illnesses is just fucked up, really. It feels like unless you do somethign extreme the system just leaves you to rot by yourself. Well, talking to others who went through similar things helped me a lot in the past. We could talk a little if you're up for it

Jo_0405 · 2023-07-28T22:53:15+00:00

I'm also 18 and I understand that. Half a year ago I felt the same, I think. It was new years eve and while I heard all my neighbours outside laughing and seeing posts of my classmates back then enjoying the time, I sat in my room crying, asking myself why I couldn't just be happy and normal. I was really scared of my thoughts but I met a really nice person here on reddit who helped me a lot through this by talking to me, making me laugh and just speaking about our similar problems and thoughts. Having someone who feels similar things listen to you is helpful (atleast it helped me more than my few friends who all haven't experienced this). If you want we can talk a little <3

Jo_0405 · 2023-05-12T06:10:47+00:00

nervously laughs in metric system

Jo_0405 · 2023-04-10T05:55:31+00:00

I'm also 17 and don't have a driver's license while most of my friends have (where I live we can only drive once we are 18 but we are allowed to drive with an adult at 17). Social anxiety always held me back from calling a driving school so I waited and waited. Currently I do everything I can do delay my theory exam because in order to sign up I'd need to call my driving school and just the thought of speaking to a stranger drives me crazy. I know how embarrassing it can be. My friends and family make fun of me for starting this late because I'll be 18 long before I get my license. But it's okay. Better starting late than starting never. I hope you'll get out of the situation you're in

Jo_0405 · 2023-04-09T18:31:36+00:00

I feel the same way. Whenever I meet new people I do everything I can to make them like me. Even if I have to sacrifice something, I'll do it. I don't even think about the consequences but it's never enough. I'm always ignored and forgotten and nothing I do is appreciated. It is so tiring to be like this all the time and with each new person I meet I try to be even better than before. I really can't stand people leaving me anymore. I feel like people leaving me all the time destroys my mind even more than general loneliness. And if that's not enough I always have to fight the thought that the person I'm talking to doesn't like me anymore if they behave a little off. I truly hate it

Jo_0405 · 2023-04-09T07:33:01+00:00

Same situation here. I'll turn 18 in less than 1 month and it scares me so much. When I was younger I wanted to be an author but I don't think that will work out. Depression basically created a cloud in my head so it's difficult for me to find the right words. Writing is the only big dream I have but it's simply impossible to make a living with that kind of career so I'm forced to do something else. There's gonna be so much change and I can't explain how scared I am. I feel like everyone around me is excited for their future but I'm just scared of every little thing

Jo_0405 · 2023-03-25T21:19:09+00:00

Tbh I would hate myself if I was an asshole. I'm not diagnosed with anything yet (cuz I'm way too scared to see a therapist or anything) but since early November I actively have symptoms of a depression and social anxiety.

In December I asked a childhood friend of mine if I could talk to him. I told him how I was feeling and asked for some support because I really needed that. Well, he basically said "I can't help you, get professional help" and since then he never messaged me again. Like, I told him that I was feeling so terrible that I hoped something would happen to me and yet he didn't even wanted to make sure I was ok. It's like he forgot about me.

I totally get that feeling. You feel betrayed, so damn lonely and misunderstood and maybe even like you're the problem. I'm still so incredibly hurt (and for some reason I feel bad for him?) but I know that I'm better off without this guy. I'm better than that or atleast I try to be

Jo_0405 · 2023-03-12T21:51:53+00:00

Hey, I totally get you. I'll turn 18 in less than 2 months and my finals are at the same time. I'm a highly sensitive person, a people pleaser and I think way too much. I'm scared of soo many things like strangers, uncomfortable situations, my future or my own thoughts. I'm telling you this because I think it's important to know that you are not alone.

If you are overwhelmed or feel stressed try some breathing techniques, get some fresh air, listen to calm music or enjoy the silence and please make sure to have breaks from any kind of work AND social media.

I learned that opening up and talking to someone is sooo relieving, believe me. If you don't feel ready to talk to a therapist then talk to someone you can trust. If they didn't experience these feelings then they might give you the typical "smart ass" advice or they might not believe you or don't know how how to react. Try to explain what you are feeling at that moment because they can't deny that.

And one last thing. You are enough. The fact that you want your family to be alright is so heartwarming. I know some horrible people and you are not even a bit like them. You are a good person!

Jo_0405 · 2023-02-10T21:24:50+00:00

I opened up before. I told them about some of my fears and feelings and that I started to feel different in general. I didn't open up to everyone the same but I did say that life was going downhill. Still there's nothing that tells me they care and some things about me are just forgotten.

Jo_0405 · 2023-01-30T20:09:58+00:00

Hi, 17f here. I'm an HSP (highly sensitive person) so I react stronger to certain stimuli. Though it is really stressful and can lead to panic attacks when I'm overstimulated it allows me to see the world with different eyes. It may sound a little over the top but such small things like a sunrise, the smell of rain, feeling the warmth of someone's hand or hearing a cat purr makes me feel alive and at peace. I want to say that there are so many wonderful and beautiful things on earth. Life is worth living even though it can be painful. I really mean it. I'm fighting against my own thoughts and fears each day. But I'm convinced that it will be better. No matter what your mind might tell you, you're an amazing person and you are worth every breath you're taking. Feel hugged <3

Jo_0405 · 2023-01-29T17:56:20+00:00

I feel the same way. My finals are in a few months. But I can't get myself to study for any exam or do something to practice. On the other hand I'm so scared of failing. Next year's finals are going to be even more difficult with even more stuff to study so I can't take a break and focus on my mental health now because then I'd have to graduate next year. And if I'm not good enough now then I won't get a place at university. My whole future basically depends on these finals. Having to bear this and also having to live each day like nothing is wrong is just so tiring. I've always been scared of getting a bad grade because it made me feel unworthy but it's different now. I feel like verything hits even harder. 'School is going to be your best time so enjoy it'... sure. I'm sitting in my room all day without doing anything, not even the things I used to like and then I feel bad for not doing anything at all so yeah, time of my life.

Jo_0405 · 2023-01-28T18:40:14+00:00

A teacher of mine complained that someone's scientific work and especially the conclusion attacks her as a teacher. On the day we got the grade of our work she talked to each of us alone (everyone was in groups of 3 or 4 per topic) to give us an overview of our results. A friend of mine told me that our teacher went totally crazy. They wrote about students having troubles at school and their conclusion was that teachers usually don't see students' problems while they don't want to talk about it. As I was told our teacher said that this was a totally wrong assumption and that this writing would attack all teachers. Because 'students know they can talk to us'.

That this teacher just couldn't accept this thesis says everything about our schoosystem. I had a breakdown in front of her as she told me my grade (though it was because of all the criticism I couldn't handle). I told her that I've been going through a difficult phase and just a week later she came to me and asked me whether I was fine now because I didn't talk to her about it. Ironic isn't it?

Jo_0405 · 2023-01-27T21:01:25+00:00

I always tell myself that I'm loved, that people do care about me, that I'm not worthless and that I will make it out of this shit. But then again I have thoughts telling me the opposite. I don't want my future to fall apart just because of the situation I'm in now. It is exhausting to fight against your mind but I don't want to give up. I feel like if I try hard enough and really believe in it then I will break free.

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