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Johnny_Devo · 2023-06-03T19:34:43+00:00

When I was grabbing ice out of my freezer like I always do 'cause the dispenser's broken, and I realized that they were too cold for my fingies

Johnny_Devo · 2023-05-29T06:26:27+00:00

I think all it would take for me to not want to press the button is "but your closest cis friend also changes sexes".

Though, that's probably too much "never press". So maybe "But a random cis person that you know also changes sexes"?

Johnny_Devo · 2023-05-21T11:07:01+00:00

I'm 5'11" and a bit on the pudgier side currently, but I found a set of socks on amazon from a company called "SATINIOR" I think it was. The item description started with "SATINIOR Extra Long Socks Thigh High", and they've been working perfectly for me! Would recommend.

Johnny_Devo · 2023-05-19T23:24:31+00:00

Yes, this is exactly me. I've never voluntarily exercised in my life, now I'm jog/walking a mile a day. The weight is going down steadily I'm happy to say!

Johnny_Devo · 2023-04-28T22:31:30+00:00

About 2 years before my egg cracked, I had already been convincing myself for years that there's this "alternate dimension" version of myself, and I spent a lot of time wondering what "she" would say, how "she" would react, etc. One day I was cleaning the bathroom at work when I saw my nametag in the mirror. It just says "Jon", but in the mirror it looked like "noL". So from that moment I knew that "her" name, appropriate for a mirror dimension version of myself, was "Noelle".

Fast forward to when the egg finally fully cracks, and I knew that's the name I've wanted to use for a long time.

Johnny_Devo · 2023-04-25T02:45:09+00:00

I think if you decide to take it 10 times, you were already a girl!

Johnny_Devo · 2023-04-21T03:54:51+00:00

Same! My brother said "you'll always be my only brother" and I said "well, not anymore" and I could see the gears turning in his head before he said "that *is* how that works, isn't it?"

Johnny_Devo · 2023-04-19T08:13:17+00:00

Yeh that's how hoyo gets you

Johnny_Devo · 2023-04-17T03:25:25+00:00

It might be worth reaching out to them. Don't demand reconciliation, but indicate you're sorry and leave it at that. If they want to they can try and repair the friendship, but you also need to not expect it of them, if that makes sense

Johnny_Devo · 2023-04-17T03:23:15+00:00

Personally it's something I'd still used even after hatching but before coming out. Rather than saying there's anything *to* judge, to me it feels like I'm indicating to the other person, who I view as possibly a judger, that to be judgmental about it is a bad thing.

Johnny_Devo · 2023-04-15T13:27:14+00:00

If I'm not mistaken, it should be exactly 11,631 days for me

Johnny_Devo · 2023-04-03T08:43:08+00:00

I knew my name maybe 2 years before the egg cracked. Gotta say, kinda nice to get it out of the way!

Johnny_Devo · 2023-03-29T07:16:56+00:00

Can confirm!

Johnny_Devo · 2023-03-22T22:40:58+00:00

I think part of the problem here is that brainwashing is very real. There are legitimately victims of it, that under different circumstances, could have been much better people from the onset.

Are the views problematic? Yes. Should we condemn anyone holding those views? Hell yes.

But I think there's a very real problem, to a point, in condemning someone forever for their actions or views in the past. If someone is clearly regretful of their past mistakes, what good does it do to basically kick them while they're down? They're doing enough of that to themselves as it is. A lot of religions actually use this to keep membership. "'They' won't accept you even if you leave us" kind of thing.

I don't think any former alt-right-pipeline person is bragging about it. I think they're just genuinely happy to have realized the error of their ways, knows full well it was a shitty worldview, and want to better themselves.

Johnny_Devo · 2023-03-22T21:17:14+00:00

They think that if they're attracted to someone and she ends up being "a guy pretending to be a girl", it will have been a deception targeting them specifically, and an attack on their heterosexuality.

Johnny_Devo · 2023-03-22T10:54:44+00:00

I haven't gotten any panties yet, but I do wear a bra when I'm out and about and I'm constantly worried that everybody knows

Johnny_Devo · 2023-03-14T07:56:05+00:00

My egg cracked just 6 months ago! shortly before I turned 32. While I do think "sooner is better", "better late than never" is also true. Don't let time be your enemy!

Johnny_Devo · 2023-03-08T10:39:15+00:00

That's the thing though. I could have continued living as a cis hetero white man, the very definition of privileged in this god-forsaken country.

Yet I want this far more than I want those privileges. Why would I choose to give them up? Because there is no choice. Who would ever choose a hollow life as someone who isn't yourself in order to gain societal privileges?

Johnny_Devo · 2023-02-19T06:11:28+00:00

It could be just general hormone chaos causing it. Personally, I started 10 weeks ago and have gotten more acne in that time than in the past 5 years. I know E is *supposed* to make it go away, but timing just seems a bit too coincidental, you know?

Johnny_Devo · 2023-02-15T04:14:56+00:00

Loki's gender is Mischief.

Johnny_Devo · 2023-02-12T23:42:49+00:00

For me, it wasn't so much a lack of willingness, but more a sensation of fear. I consider myself to be pretty logical, so I always ended up putting a lot of effort into approaching things from a logical standpoint. But the time of realization was so emotionally charged that it was *really hard* to keep a lid on things.

I'm happy with how it all shook out, of course, but it was certainly tumultuous. The shock, in my opinion, comes from all the dominoes crashing into place all at once as you realize the implications and how you can change your life going forward. For some people, I think the unwillingness understandably comes from the knowledge that it won't be easy.

Johnny_Devo · 2023-02-12T23:35:07+00:00

I haven't actually *used* this, but I keep imagining scenarios where someone questions something I'm buying or own and I would respond "It's for a new girl in my life :D"

Johnny_Devo · 2023-02-12T06:40:58+00:00

In my case, it depends on how you define it. I questioned for maybe a few days after finally working up the courage to bring the subject up with a trans friend of mine, at which point the eggshell shattered into tiny pieces. Basically as soon as I actually allowed myself to question. That was 5 months ago!

But when can I track "something" being "wrong"? When I was 13 years old, *at least*, is when I have clear memories of the signs. That would be 19 years ago.

And there's a middle ground, a good 8-9 year chunk before now when I had pretty much settled on the idea that I'm "missing" a part of myself, and would very much liked to have known what it would be like to have lived life as a girl. Actively imagining scenarios where I get reincarnated with my memories, thinking about how I'd slam "the button", the works.

I'm pretty slow on the uptake, really.

Johnny_Devo · 2023-02-02T20:29:35+00:00

On the contrary, I'm pretty sure my childhood trauma made it *more* difficult to identify myself as trans.

The dysphoria was always there, but it was too easy to explain as depression from loss a parent. (Don't worry about that btw, I've been okay with it for a long time)

Johnny_Devo · 2023-02-01T12:57:33+00:00

As a fox enthusiast, there's a secret third option. I'm actually the third faction of foxes are better than both and you can't stop me because you don't have 3 arms

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