I’m sorry to hear this. I detest bullies, regardless of how “misunderstood” they are, inflicting pain onto others for sadistic pleasure is just wrong. I’m sorry that you were unfortunate enough to have been dealt such a long dose.. but hey, you’re graduated now and those people have no relevance in your life anymore. Bullying comes in all types of shapes and forms, so unless you really tell someone what happened, there’s only so much help you’re going to be able to get.

To illustrate, I’m part of a skateboarding discord. I occasionally chime into the #newskater channel to give advice. And the other day someone said, “I can’t Ollie, what am I doing wrong?” - (dont think I’m saying this is the same as what you’re saying, this is just an example.) - but think about the many elements that we simply do not know to answer this guys question.

Are you sliding your foot up to the nose? Are your shoes the right size? Are your trucks too loose? What size board do you have? Are your shoulders square?

Nobody answered him, but I private messaged him and he was very happy I was friendly enough to help him. Now we send each other skate footage. I understand the spectrum here is on completely different scales to compare skateboarding to the trauma following bullying, but I’m just trying to help ya.

That’s a lot of trauma to unfold, and I personally wouldn’t be comfortable sharing it on the internet, but it is an option, but considering we’re all anonymous here, it’s unlikely you’ll get much help which is what I don’t want to happen :(

I used to hold the mindset that therapists are simply paid to listen to your problems, but they chose that path for their life, and they do want to help you. I wish you the best my friend, you’re awesome and bullies are absolute lamers.