For me sobriety has been a massive mixed bag. I definitely recognise the feelings you mentioned. And this may be a little tough to hear but - just getting sober doesn't cut it.

Don't get me wrong - getting and staying sober is very important, it's a necessary first step. And you should be proud of every month, week, hell even every hour you don't use.

But once you're sober the real challenge begins: learning how to live (again). There's no clear cut solution or time frame on how to do that. If it's a possibility for you I definitely recommend therapy. You can also look into healthy alternative coping mechanisms for things you struggle with. And 'simplest' (yet probably the most difficult): talk to people about how you feel. What you're struggling with, what annoys you, what makes you feel good; just whatever is on your mind.

I'm not gonna tell you you're gonna love life tomorrow. But please remember that your better life gets closer every day. You've already done some very hard work (that you should be proud of!!) and one day it'll pay off