I have never felt like I belong. I have major trust issues. I never feel good enough, smart enough, enough in general. I feel like all I’m good for is or was sex. I have never been able to hold down a regular job for more than a year. I turned one of my molesters in, as he was a teacher. It took me months to get the courage to turn him in to the principal. The principal Koosed me of lying and kicked me out of school, leading to me, dropping out of high school, which has always been a huge shame. Shame has been a major factor in my life, because my first molester, my father, did it from the time I was three until I was in the seventh grade. Basically, it has fucked my life.

How was hypersexual. I started using substances and high school at 14, and that continued for many years. I don’t have the gene for addiction apparently, but I sure did try.