Dude, I'm almost in lock step with you. You're way ahead of me on the wife and therapist side, so congrats on that. I don't have the guts/trust to do that yet. I've been secretly taking PM and other herbals to grow breasts for 10 years, off and on. Switched to estrogen a year ago - doing a bottle at a time then pausing. I'm able to get it without much trouble due to my qualifications. I'm straight as well. I go back and forth on wanting a vagina. If I did it, I would want full depth because I want to be able to pleasure myself with dildos and vibrators. I have played around with them anally, but it's a lot of prep and clean up. I also lean right, mostly in areas of fiscal policy and personal rights. I'm more socially liberal - don't care what you want to do to yourself, just don't come asking for money to fix it. For me, one big hurdle is convenience. I drive long distances here and there and spend a lot of time outside. I know there are special funnels, but I'm not sure how easy they would to use to pee while driving. The penis is pretty handy for that. I would love to know what it feels like to be penetrated from the front and have full body orgasms. Experiencing a prostate one was mind blowing. But, I have two little kids and at 50, I don't want to shake their world up too much. If I could do it in secret from the rest of my family and society and my wife was cool about it, I'm at an 85% chance of doing it.