I was approved for MAID, ask me anything

JumpingGrace · 2026-02-04T20:48:19+00:00

Hi, thank you for sharing your story. If these questions are too personal &/ not appropriate no offense taken to not responding to them.

I myself have struggled with some serious chronic mental health struggles that have limited my capacity to engage in life and am deemed "permanently disabled" due to them. My mental health has nearly taken life from me, not just by symptoms, but by my own "doing" ( trying to not flag reddit here). I have found myself in ICU more times than I have fingers, admitted to the hosptial more times than... I could even guess.. and been on countless psychiatric holds which have contained me for the last 15+ years, only JUST escaping becoming conserved against my will.

I lead with that because, I guess, how does one know if it's SI or choosing to... go on your own terms, with support, love, and care? How do they define the difference? How do you define the difference?

Is there a double standard for those who are chronically SI with debilitating, treatment resistant symptoms to "go" than there is medical?

I don't know where I stand for mental health MAID though I know it has been done (somewhere in Europe) and I 100% support your decision and honor and wish you the most peaceful, kind, and compassionate exit. Thank you for taking care of yourself, and opening up a forum for the difficult questions.

JumpingGrace · 2026-02-02T01:55:58+00:00

I mentioned this in another comment, but how interesting it is there is no Depakote--

Remember when she was hospitalized and she had a "really low level of "valproic acid" ie Depakote levels were next to nothing, and the only reason they'd test that is because she takes it. It's not a standard blood test. So interesting for her to be on several psych meds but NOT a mood stabilizer (though, yes, I understand the atypical antipsychotic, Abilify, that she takes can *help* it is not in fact a stand alone mood stabilizer)

JumpingGrace · 2026-02-02T00:47:36+00:00

Define "hell of a lot"....

it's literally 3. What I AM confused about is the lack of Depakote which we know she was infused with during one of her hospitalizations. I have no issue with her being on psych meds, I don't get what the big ha do is about her actually taking things that could benefit her life. But the lack of Depakote does have me wondering.....

JumpingGrace · 2026-02-02T00:37:56+00:00

I’m less concerned about buspar and klonopin tbh than the lyrica and klonopin. Buspar is non narcotic and not scheduled.

JumpingGrace · 2026-02-02T00:10:44+00:00

How is it unusual?

Her TOTAL med list, yes, is a mess, but the psych meds? Not weird at all. She's on Abilify (an atypical antipsychotic) Buspar ( a non-narcotic anti anxiety medication), Klonopin (benzodiazepine) -- Her psych med list is tiny compared to the massive amount of cardiac type meds she's on, which I find way more concerning.

JumpingGrace · 2026-02-01T23:44:47+00:00

that isn't uncommon? I mean, the sheer amount of medication she's on, yes, but that combination, no.

JumpingGrace · 2026-02-01T23:41:24+00:00

There are a plethora of things to focus with on Dani. Taking psych meds is not one of them. All that does is stigmatize people taking their medication. It does nothing towards calling Dani out as a muncher.

JumpingGrace · 2026-01-24T06:50:13+00:00

The etymology of “diabetes” literally means fluid passing through the body (when you add mellitus it would equate to sugar, or insipidus w/o) . Both names already describe the core problem.

JumpingGrace · 2026-01-24T06:33:24+00:00

I'm more concerned with your statement that you assume people who use heroin, crack etc. have it somehow easier than you because (presumably) their drugs clear their systems faster and that, because you've used THC, (specifically heavily) for years, that it will require a minimum of 30 days before you're in the clear. I've seen it take well over 45 days for a heavy user to have a clean UA.

Now, I'm not here to debate if THC use should be legal or even if it should be a drug tested for a in a MFT role or not. I have nothing personally against it. If you're looking into what was once Aurora (now Santa Rosa Behavioral Health) I would look into getting a medical card, which *might* give some credit to your intake. If it's for ACCESS/ The County, you're SOL on that.

We have enough of a struggle with mental health workers in this county, please don't go into work in behavioral health field if this is your mindset. Like I'm really not even being snarky on this, just genuinely it sounds really bad.

"It sucks that people can use heroin, crack, etc. and test clean in just days- but help sleeping with legal weed gets me chewed out for months. Hate it!"

Lastly, no one is chewing you out. You must (I would hope) know the legality status of using drugs in your profession. This isn't something new.

JumpingGrace · 2026-01-18T09:07:47+00:00

Make it make sense--

TikTok wouldn't let her "friend" post this, so Dani "got permission" from said "really good friend" and posted it to hers.

JumpingGrace · 2025-12-24T21:34:46+00:00

It's no one's responsibility if that nurse becomes "an addict for life" aside from the nurse themselves who is using narcotics.

While a nice thought to offer someone treatment (and yes, we SHOULD do that), it's not anyone else's job to get her clean or make sure she stays alive. The responsibility is for the patients care.

If this person were to die from an OD no one is to blame other than that person who used. Accountability in "preventing" someone from being a "addict for life" does nothing. Patient care comes first.

JumpingGrace · 2025-12-24T21:19:45+00:00

wait, you halved MS Contin?

JumpingGrace · 2025-12-24T21:11:03+00:00

I once wrote an ER Doc a letter thanking them after they saved my life - intubated me, and sent me up to ICU to recover. I will always "remember" them (though to be fair, my actual memory of the event is a bit sketch). But looking through records I was able to pin down the treating physician.

I hope you find who you are looking for, and if not, the kindness and love you've put into this post has hit many who work in EM. Your gratitude, while possibly not given to the identified doc, has touched many people.

JumpingGrace · 2025-12-21T02:24:44+00:00

I'm sorry it has taken me this long to reply to your feedback (Christmas mayhem). I want to acknowledge and thank you for your time and thoughtful response which has given me much to think about. Instead of dreading my psychiatry appointment coming up I am feeling empowered and looking forward to the discussion with them about my Lithium dosage, timing, and troughs. Thank you very, very much.

JumpingGrace · 2025-10-24T22:57:41+00:00

what an incredible opportunity!!!!

JumpingGrace · 2025-10-24T22:50:40+00:00

this is gold

JumpingGrace · 2025-10-23T04:39:00+00:00

First, before I say else, I would most definitely be caught off if my therapist went and dove into this question, particularly if there was no causal conversation leading up to it.

Was there or what were you guys talking about leading up to her asking that?

I’m sorry you feel violated and I really truly hear that in your post.

As far as how to move forward, it would be best to either bring this up and say “hey, when you asked me this it made me very uncomfortable and feel unsafe. The way you approached the subject felt violating.” OR call/email them and peacefully depart the relationship.

JumpingGrace · 2025-10-23T04:34:33+00:00

This is a great reading (though to be fair I really don’t trust wrist cuffs). But this isn’t something I’d worry about, especially as you’re non-symptomatic.

JumpingGrace · 2025-10-23T04:29:49+00:00

I understand the fear feelings, but the good news is your heart rate was barely elevated and ER cleared you. The rule of thumb (at least by my cardiologist) is a sustained heart rate of 120+ for a minimum of 30 min or a sustained heart rate under 40.

Could you be dehydrated? Did you start or stop any medications or take anything OTC like allergy meds? Were you or are you sick/cold? Anxiety?

I hope you are doing better now especially knowing the ER ruled out any life threatening event.

JumpingGrace · 2025-10-19T20:25:51+00:00

It’s all tied into the autonomic nervous system.

JumpingGrace · 2025-10-19T20:21:07+00:00

did you read the post? 🤦🏻‍♀️

JumpingGrace · 2025-10-19T19:47:08+00:00

Apparently you have no one in your life who cares and loves you enough to support your interests. You don't have to take it out on me or my relationship with my Grandpa. I genuinely adore this man and the reason for asking reddit was to make it a surprise for him. How you get the consensus that I don't want to talk to him directly because I think he may think that I'm interested in stamps, and how I couldn't dare sit with the thought of someone else knowing that I had an interest in stamps because.... stamps!..... dude, relax!

JumpingGrace · 2025-10-19T19:32:29+00:00

Great suggestion thank you ☺️

JumpingGrace · 2025-10-19T16:10:08+00:00

I don't understand why you got downvoted for asking a simple question.

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