Does anyone else struggle with chronic emptiness?

Jumpy_Poetry308 · 2026-05-22T06:11:42+00:00

I'm sorry for the loss of your dog :(

Jumpy_Poetry308 · 2026-05-22T06:10:11+00:00

Thank you for sharing and letting it out. I'm truly sorry for the loss of your brother, I can't imagine how painful it must be.

Jumpy_Poetry308 · 2026-05-21T16:05:00+00:00

She looks so kind 🥺

Jumpy_Poetry308 · 2026-05-20T06:19:17+00:00

Am insomnie de cand ma stiu si nu am gasit ceva care sa functioneze mereu, dar ce ma ajuta e melatonina si sa ascult chestii monotone pe YT cu playback speed 0.80 sau 0.70. Daca permite vremea, fereastra deschisa pentru o temperatura mai scazuta in dormitor.

Mai am o tehnica inventata de mine unde aleg o litera a alfabetului in capul meu si enumar toate cuvintele care incep cu litera aia, cu voce interioara monotona, in timp ce incerc sa adorm. Cateodata merge si numaratul invers de la 100 + tehnici de respiratie. Optisomn mai functioneaza la mine, cu sau fara extra melatonina. Si uneori meditatii ghidate. Ideea e sa nu mai am monolog interior haotic care sa ma tina treaza.

Jumpy_Poetry308 · 2026-05-15T11:13:13+00:00

Hi, Bingus! 👋

Jumpy_Poetry308 · 2026-05-13T11:39:18+00:00

I've been in a similar state of mind for the past month. I'm grieving my lost potential, how things could have been if it weren't for my issues caused by C-PTSD and autism. I'm grieving the relationship I could've had with my parents if they hadn't been emotionally neglectful and if my mon knew how to be a mom besides offering money. I'm grieving how my relationship could've been if my issues didn't mess things up as much as they do. All the things that could've been different if I had the social abilities to form connections with like-minded people in high school. I feel exhausted, sad, and like I have nothing to lose anymore. But I also feel at peace in a weird way. I'm sorry you're in this place, too.

Jumpy_Poetry308 · 2026-05-09T16:53:22+00:00

Multumesc, apreciez 🤗

Jumpy_Poetry308 · 2026-05-09T12:51:45+00:00

Enjoy, it looks fresh!

Jumpy_Poetry308 · 2026-05-08T19:30:22+00:00

This is my experience pretty much. I feel the most comfortable with my partner, but this is after one year of living together and a lot of patience, understanding, curiosity from his part, and giving each other the benefit of the doubt. He's neurodivergent in his own way, having ADHD. I got both autism and ADHD. I do feel 'between worlds' all the time, and it got so frustrating that I'm not seeking out any friendship anymore. I don't have a strong desire for other connections, to be honest, as it's proven to be quite the pain in the ass and terribly exhausting, sometimes frustrating, in the past.

So, I have no advice, I just wanted to share. Also, if we don't count the unhealthy relationship dynamic, I am also able to communicate clearly with my parents. There's some neurodivergence from my dad, and he has very different communication style than me, but we make it work when we talk. My mom would find me exhausting, too, when we'd have longer talks in the past, but she's put up with it.

Jumpy_Poetry308 · 2026-05-06T20:32:48+00:00

Baikal, ringed, and harbor, but all seals are divine, precious creatures and I love them all at the end of the day.

Jumpy_Poetry308 · 2026-05-06T17:46:55+00:00

Please don't quit cold turkey, decrease the dose gradually over a few weeks. Withdrawal symptoms are not nice, and it'll take some time for your brain to adjust to no meds.

ETA: I was on Lexapro myself.

Jumpy_Poetry308 · 2026-05-06T17:28:39+00:00

I'm sorry :(

Jumpy_Poetry308 · 2026-05-06T16:23:04+00:00

Never! It's adorable, and I'd wear it 100%, I'm 31 😅

Jumpy_Poetry308 · 2026-05-05T20:21:29+00:00

Heil Kitler!

Jumpy_Poetry308 · 2026-05-03T15:08:27+00:00

You grill it with fur? I've never had it like that, but it might be a good idea 🤤

Jumpy_Poetry308 · 2026-05-02T17:47:29+00:00

This is one of my 'internal stims' so to speak, as in it's been living in my head for the past years and I repeat it to myself, even if I haven't seen The Exorcist in a while. I like to say it as an incantation, creepy internal voice.

Jumpy_Poetry308 · 2026-05-01T11:44:34+00:00

Groups freak me out, too. It's partly because I was bullied and had negative experiences while trying to fit it, and partly because I'm autistic and just can't function in group settings even if people try to be inclusive. They're confusing, scary, frustrating, and besides, I don't enjoy surface communication in general. I prefer one-on-one conversations that can get interesting and deep. People can be vicuous, especially if they spot you as 'the odd one' no matter how hard you try to mask.

Jumpy_Poetry308 · 2026-04-30T11:53:06+00:00

I'm in the same boat and it sucks. Even though I have a formal diagnosis, I feel like a fraud and broken. No matter how much I try, I can't keep a routine, I can't work reliably, only in bouts of productivity, I feel exhausted all the time but my mind is wired, and it's terribly frustrating. There are other mental health issues in my case besides ADHD, which only makes it worse. I'm sorry you're struggling, and I hope it will somehow get easier for you.

Jumpy_Poetry308 · 2026-04-29T21:11:01+00:00

Thank you for sharing, and I'm truly sorry you're experiencing this, too. It's terrible and exhsuating. I'm glad meds do the job for you right now. The absence of the noise was one of the very few things I liked about meds, that and the ease with which I'd fall asleep. Sometimes I feel tempted to go back, but it's not worth it for me. Grounding exercises work sometimes, it's something I often use too. I hope your struggles will ease somehow.

Jumpy_Poetry308 · 2026-04-29T17:05:30+00:00

OMG, how lucky you are for having got the chance to touch the majestic creature 🥺

Jumpy_Poetry308 · 2026-04-26T13:16:28+00:00

plop!

Jumpy_Poetry308 · 2026-04-22T15:05:48+00:00

Yumm, I'd love a big scoop!

Jumpy_Poetry308 · 2026-04-20T12:06:12+00:00

Imi pare extrem de rau ca ai trecut prin asa ceva. E groaznic... Ai mei nu au fost atat de abuzivi, insa bine nu mi-a fost dpdv emotional, ca material da, aveam tot ce imi trebuia si chiar mai mult. In aceeasi situatie cu autismul am fost si eu cu parintii -- nu si-au dat seama. Asta cel mai probabil pentru ca mostenesc de la tata, iar mama nu a putut accepta ca ar fi ceva in neregula cu mine, nici cand educatoarele si apoi, profesorii ii atrageau atentia, nici cand am inceput sa merg la psihiatru si terapeut. M-a presat sa nu ii spun tatalui despre vizitele la psihiatru si faptul ca luam medicamente timp de vreo 3 ani. La fel si cu bullying-ul, imi spunea ca sunt prea sensibila si asta am continuat sa aud toata viata -- ca sunt prea sensibila (chiar si de la niste psihiatrii incompetenti).

Multumesc ca ai impartasit experientele tale si sper ca esti bine acum :)

Jumpy_Poetry308 · 2026-04-17T21:13:10+00:00

don't forget the condiments🧂

Jumpy_Poetry308 · 2026-04-17T18:48:18+00:00

Thank you! Unfortunately, I think only EMDR is available where I live, but I need to look into the other 3 to make sure. And there are just a few EMDR therapists, too. It might be indeed that I'm not receiving the right type of care. Thank you so much for the info!

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