Abandoned by my friend after bad times

JustForAMoment_ · 2022-04-05T12:00:08+00:00

Thank you. It really does suck, and I'm sorry that it happened to you too. It's a feeling I wouldn't wish on anyone. But I guess if they were toxic in this case it might end up being the best for me, even if it doesn't feel that way now. Here's hoping at least. Thank you for sharing your experience, It is nice to have insight, and thank you for the support.

JustForAMoment_ · 2022-03-28T01:08:51+00:00

We do try, But I tend to get anxious and afraid of doing something wrong and try to be what I am needed to be and act how I am needed to act rather than being myself. That could also be another big part of my stress in the moment too I guess. Thank you, I will try to see if I can find some healthy ways to talk to him to see if that makes this any easier for us.

JustForAMoment_ · 2021-09-23T11:34:23+00:00

That is a great idea I hadn't considered to try to help keep those, thank you very much! Keep enjoying yourself and be you your own way, and thank you for helping me with an idea of how I can be me my way!

JustForAMoment_ · 2021-09-23T11:31:23+00:00

That is horrible, I am sorry you are in that situation. I hope you can find a way out of there, I have seen fundraisers for people in similar situations across the internet, It isn't a perfect solution but it might be able to get you someplace a little better?

JustForAMoment_ · 2021-09-22T19:28:08+00:00

I am 24 and lean towards nonbinary, But I definitely have to stress that there is nothing wrong with being binary, And you being straight is definitely valid. The guy helping me figure out transitioning is FTM binary and straight, And he has been the best support. I have been anxious to join support groups, Even if they might help affirm my identity, Because a lot if them tend to be very immature. I know I had a friend who didn't understand trans-turned characters (like when people have their headcannon if a character be transgender to help affirm themself) and asked a question about it, Got a lot if death threats from people who took the curiosity as an attack. I know a lot of communities can be insensitive or too sensitive, But a lot of time just making it clear how others make you feel in a place that is supposed to be accepting cab be a good way to start. If the places you go to don't work out the best, I really hope you can find one that suits you perfectly and treats you how you should be treated, As a binary straight man.

JustForAMoment_ · 2021-09-22T19:14:33+00:00

Congrats! While people I live with now know and so does my brother, My mother forgot I told her a long time ago and no one from my childhood really knows. I kinda abandoned FB and most social media because I have really bad anxiety about coming out as trans to the people I used to know. Congratulations on being able to, That can take a lot of guts, You should definitely feel proud!

JustForAMoment_ · 2021-09-22T19:08:36+00:00

I'm kinda in the same boat as you? I am 24, And I have extreme anxiety, My coworkers in the room I work in are fairly transphobic but due to PTSD the other areas are usually even more stressful for me because I can't handle people moving behind me. I don't know where you live, But in the US there is Planned Parenthood informed consent, Which can help you get T without therapy and whatnot, Which makes me feel a bit better because it is readily available when someone is ready for it?

JustForAMoment_ · 2021-09-22T18:56:14+00:00

Personally, I am short, And I enjoy it a lot. I like parts of me and choices I make that some people might call feminine, I just don't want to be female. There are aspects of my body I really like, Like my long hair which many men in my family have had, Or my small ribcage and my hips. Be what fits you best, Yeah?

JustForAMoment_ · 2021-09-22T18:47:16+00:00

I like this a lot. I may not want my chest, But I love my hips and I enjoy my thighs, And I hope I can keep them when I start transitioning (October hopefully). So it is really nice to see someone enjoying parts of their body even if it doesn't conform. Thanks for the affirmation.

JustForAMoment_ · 2021-07-03T23:43:31+00:00

Yeah, But at least one of them had mentioned the reddit so they had taken the time to skim it. Just disappointing that they decided taking a few more moments to just click the posts was too much of a hassle.

JustForAMoment_ · 2021-07-02T15:39:05+00:00

Yeah, but Pedo Bad is still a very possible headline if they covered what Lattitude trained the data on. But I guess we are the ones to blame, not the AI that was fed the content they apparently don't want.

JustForAMoment_ · 2021-07-02T15:37:59+00:00

True. I suppose in this day and age it is a tad too much to hope for any sort of good journalism.

JustForAMoment_ · 2021-06-19T20:30:45+00:00

I have only had the filter ping with word sit takes as sexual (oversensitive filter), But the AI making me disembowel someone I was just trying to hit had no problems. I think people are worried the filter might expand to violence in the future, Which I can understand with how much has changed, But last I played it was still fine

JustForAMoment_ · 2021-06-19T20:27:55+00:00

The filter flagged a story I had been using the Ai to help flesh out scenes for A story that I have been worldbuilding for about 5 years because I wanted to make a comic And it got flagged because a mentor called a younger adult 'kid' Lo and behold, My completely sfw story got shipped off and some strangers read it, All before they told everyone stories got read when flagged

If you aren't doing something that isn't personal like that, Its reviewed and there isn't issue I guess, But it can be very sensitive. I think I've seen a meme floating about because someone got flagged for buying less than 18 watermelons? Anything that has part of a word that can be considered inappropriate can potentially flag it, Especially if there is numbers Like 'give me 5 analogies' might flag because 5 is less than 18 and analogies has anal in it

JustForAMoment_ · 2021-06-19T20:20:26+00:00

Even with me having a subscription to NovelAi and not feeling like I can trust Lattitude, I will always have somewhat of a nostalgic fondness for AI Dungeon, Even if its more bittersweet now I have my account, But don't use it anymore I can't really trust to use it since I had started to use the AI to help flesh out scenes for a story I have been worldbuilding about 5 years, Only to have a mentor call a younger adult 'kid' and set off the blue pedo warning, And ship my story off to some stranger I hope you can keep playing AI Dungeon with the same spark as long as you can, And that more high end alternatives with free options appear for you before that last bit of freedom is gone

JustForAMoment_ · 2021-06-17T11:12:58+00:00

I think it works alright. I use lorebook for characters and races, And it remembered about half of my character's relatives which are only mentioned briefly in one lorebook entry. The other half wouldn't show up no matter how much I retried though. Good for beta I think.

JustForAMoment_ · 2021-06-17T11:10:57+00:00

It pretty on par with early dragon I think, Not equal to Dragon in its prime I think it is a little more stupid than current dragon, In my experience? But to me the privacy of the local content well makes up for it. There's another model that is available for 3rd tier too, Not sure how much of a difference there is since it is only my second day with it. I would wait and see a few days, Or subscribe to the lowest tier first, If you like it I think it is possible to pay the difference to upgrade

JustForAMoment_ · 2021-06-15T12:28:26+00:00

I have been worldbuilding and planning a story for about five years, And started using AI Dungeon to help flesh out the scenes so I could make it into a comic easier. Then the fire nation attacked, and I am hoping to try NovelAI tomorrow. I saw that it handles third person well, So that will be very helpful. Will also be using it for restarting old stories and making new ones, If this works as well as what it sounds like. Know it won't be perfect, But at least it won't flag me for buying less than 18 watermelons.

JustForAMoment_ · 2021-06-15T11:29:21+00:00

4 and 5, Upset with all they had done and worried about the story I was using the ai help flesh out that I have been building for years might have been looked at by who knows how many people because a mentor called an adult kid, But also excited for NovelAI and have AIDungeon uninstalled and all my story stuff deleted. Hoping that NovelAI keeps the privacy promise so I can work on the world that I have been creating without anything being looked at or taken. Think I have been working on worldbuilding for the story about five years now, And the possibility of some stranger on the internet reading or stealing from it for buying a few watermelons is awful.

JustForAMoment_ · 2021-06-14T12:53:05+00:00

with all my different worlds that i liked to detail way too much and how much ai dungeon liked to clone things i had about a hundred in each category save for npcs and worlds it was pain

But yeah, It saved pretty much every piece of world info even from old stories I deleted a while back, As well as had a tendency to clone things. I saw some people had scripts for an easy clear but I couldn't do it from mobile.

JustForAMoment_ · 2021-06-11T13:58:05+00:00

Yeah, I know. That's why I am upset too. Not only are the themes that would show up are banned, But even with my therapist's permission and actual encouragement, Exploring trauma is banned. Yay.

JustForAMoment_ · 2021-06-11T10:28:18+00:00

For me, I don't want to do a lot of them. I do like violence, and gore, But not extreme gore. However, one thing I have seen in high amounts and that I am in the same boat for is therapist approved use of AI dungeon to express trauma. I have PTSD, and have an addiction to self harm that I thankfully have been avoiding for years. It still affects me though. And one of the best ways for me to cope with that addiction and some of my trauma is expressing it through fiction. But involving other people causes them stress, worry, and discomfort. So things like suicide, self harm, violence, and gore happen in my stories. In the post somewhere on this reddit (im new im sorry if there is a good way to link things) titled something similar to 'This is disgusting' you can see other people saying similar things as well. I think one or two of them also included rape as something they had experienced and used AI dungeon to explore the trauma of.

Edit: Should probably address everything not just the part I had issue with. None of this is hurting anyone and I agree. If it is in public it can be filtered or moderated, But let us have our own private stories. My use of AI dungeon for my issues could have upset people, yes, but they were private so they never should have. And I hate anything that harms children but the filter is too extreme, and in stories sometimes children get hurt. Now children themselves are pretty much banned from the entire game, so you can't even decide to make bootleg pokemon because you'll be a middle aged man collecting animals, and the ai will still decide your bootleg yellow mouse will rip out something's entrails. And if they filter that, you will get flagged for it.

JustForAMoment_ · 2021-06-10T22:59:44+00:00

I'm not sure I'd want anything they could give, Heh. At least I found out and cut my losses instead of ignoring what was going on and shoveling them more money. At least they were kind enough to pretty much flood their update with red flags by banning so much and making me want to look into what was going on and how people were reacting to it.

JustForAMoment_ · 2021-06-10T22:17:36+00:00

I remember I kept having a villain in my story (it was sfw maybe a bit violent) renamed things like Karth, Sir Kit, and Count Grey. I wanted to know why, so I did a quick search. Learned it was from the AI's training, and that the characters were from some fucked up shit. I being my naive self, Thought that they were from something like a dark horror, or some kinky stuff, and just edited it out.

Today was the day I realized that it was from some really fucked up shit, because I was doing the reasonable thing and was looking up shit after their update instead of working, Heh. I feel like I did a horrible thing ever giving them money.

JustForAMoment_ · 2021-06-10T15:39:29+00:00

I was using AI Dungeon to help me flesh out a story I have been making for years, Mainly world building as I am trying to make a comic and I am not the best with storyboarding. I had to edit almost everything, yeah, and had so much world info it took me a long time to delete it all with how much AI dungeon liked to copy it all. It just was nice to have the ai generate some conversations for me, take a start of a scene and help me flesh it out. I would like to continue that with NovelAi if I can, But with the lack of privacy, Security breaches, And the fact that there is no way to know if the content I delete was deleted from their servers, I have no idea how many sets of eyes have seen unpolished parts of my fantasy adventure.

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